Guys

I'm having random pain in different body parts at a time

Leg, hip, side near my stomach

So much pain it feels like something stabbing me Q~Q

Also I'm quite exhausted and tired. I get dizzy when I stand and all that bullshit. I don't have Thyroid problems either

My other side hurts randomly too

It hurts to breathe slightly
I'm tired
I feel like I should starve myself but...They don't understand. They probably think I'm a little bitch. I might as well give up trying to learn how to be am electrican and stay at home mom. They're trying to re-teach me how to do laundry. They told me that I was special, then say I act like my brother. It's so mean

I want to die. See how they act when they pushed their daughter/step daughter to do this. See ic they like it when I'm dead. I don't want to tell anyone either. I just want company and love. My mom is on eletronics more than me amd seems more proud of other people than me. The 'individuals' she works with seem to make her more proud than me. Her own daughter

I don't wanna belong to this family. I actually wanna go somewhere else nice. Maybe a foster family would be better, even though I love this dog, I wanna bird...Or a guenia pig. A rat? Something small that I can pet and talk to that would just stay there. Some animal that's soft. Like that one bird who lifted their wing when I asked. Or I could talk to a guenia pig and lightly cuddle them

Actually be happy
I mean, I love this dog, yeah, but she's too rowdy. I'm soft spoken. Everyone else is loud. My family is loud and all. I'm sweet and soft...Until someone pushes my buttons. But I forgive them later. Except bullies

Someone thinks I stink...They stink. Someone sprays me with perfume because my hair is messy and I like it that way. Someone makes fun of me, when I do something. I can hear. I'm not deaf. I'm totally not depressed. I can't keep up with that 'excuse'

'PTSD'? That's not a thing

Get over your past and just tell them already, it's no big deal

'Anxiety' is nothing! Just ignore it

Okay. I'll keep my depression low and smile when I wanna die. I'll just starve

Be silent then when I get sick, I'll stay quiet and silently throw up. Maybe binge eat them throw up. Stress eating, then throwing up

Tape worms can kill you

Please don't...Try to help me. It won't work. I wanna starve. I want them to care. I want them to notice me...

Or someone...

Anyone. Anyone to notice me
I don't care, I just want attention.  I don't get it from my mother. She thinks I can follow her footsteps...

I'm not her...But she thought I acted like my brother. Maybe I'm supposed to be him. Maybe if I was a guy I wouldn't cry

I don't know...I'm sorry for bothering you guys

Nobody really comments anyway...If I starve I can sleep forever, right?
Please...

I hate my life

I'm sorry Crey...

I don't know what to do anymore

I'm just gonna...Tag people...

They shouldn't worry though

I don't feel that well though...

BlueCrey (Crey.....Q~Q)

__Purple_Fluffball__ You never look at this book, so idk why I try. I've been such a terrible person. I don't deserve to call you onii-san...)

Cookix01 (I don't know...I'm sorry)

XXJayTheKingXX (You don't respond)

nekowifu23 (...)

Scarletred1990 (You're nice...)

TheWeirdOnes333 (You're very silent now)

That's all...
I think...I'm not sure...

Anyway

Bya...?

Almost threw up...
Pain...

I can't...It hurts...So much...
Mm...

-Sam