Mm, it's been a good while, hasn't it? I've missed you all ^^
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This is Two-lips or 'Sadae' reporting for duty to give you the update on exactly why I've been so inactive and to answer questions such as but not limited to;

∆Will you ever become regularly active again?

∆How have you been feeling?

∆Any new releases coming soon?

∆Why are you acting like people care?

Well, I'll have you know that this is the internet and my imagination! I'd like to imagine at least one person who cares is reading this, and if it's just empty space well I guess I have ghost friends!

So buckle up and prepare for some long explanation and etcetera.
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First things first, where have I been and why does it seem like I'm always sick/gone?

This is my honest truth. It does seem like I'm both, and I'm not trying to make excuses on why I start a to and then suddenly don't answer back. Anxiety is the scares monster of all, Depression is its doppelganger, and then you have life chilling in the middle.

I start something and then I lose motivation to do it. I've noticed this, and I hate this pattern. Every time I try to break it though, it comes back even stronger and harder to deal with. I'll go a few days without missing a beat in rping, and all of a sudden I stop.
A, I get caught up in irl things and by the time I realize that I should reply it leads me into B.
B, After a bit of back and forth I lose inspiration and can't think of anything because of how stressed I am
C, the stress leads me to get sick

This is my never-ending cycle of misery. Don't get me wrong, in no way am I trying to make excuses for going 'missing' and then returning, I get on myself about that a lot already. However, I do ask that you bare with my slow motions and work with me.

On average I take about 10-15 min to reply to someone because I am typing it out. Its a pain to be detailed XD. Because of this by the time I answer one other person someone else has replied, those creative fast thinkers, me, not so much.

So, with this all in mind I will be active when I feel I can be, when I'm ready. Rping is not meant to be stressful, it is meant to be fun. As cheesy as that sounds its something I have to remind myself constantly, and if you're like me, here's a takeaway message;

"It's ok to stop. Above all else, your health is the most important!"
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As for how I've been feeling recently, I've been feeling at best, ok. If you didn't know, a year ago I received scoliosis surgery for back problems I had been having. Now, a year later, my back has been hurting due to the changing in seasons and it becoming winter. The metal rod in my back is starting to feel funny, and it is this pain that makes it so I can't walk to school. I can't sit up straight in class for a good hour. It's been hard for me these last few weeks, and not being able to move much, getting loads of make-up work sent home. I've been trying to get all of that under control but as I type I have a project due ;-; (SAVE ME). This is a perfect mix to create depression, and while I have had waves of it at times, overall it hasn't been that bothering, thankfully.

My favorite holiday is...Haloween, hence the theme and all. Last year I was unable to go trick or treating because of my back, and this year is no different. To those who can go please do! Enjoy it while you can and adults aren't making weird faces at you when you knock on a door because you're too old. HA, IM GOING TO TRICK OR TREAT UNTIL IM AT LEAST 100...problaby not but I can dream. Question, what's your favorite holiday, and who are you planning on dressing up as for trick or treating? If you don't trick or treat, why? I'm curious ^^

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Lastly, we get to the good stuff! Things I've been excited to do, and things I probably won't do due to lack of motivation. 

First, my oc book, 'Did you ever love me?'. I think from now on I'll just do males, I always find it hard to play females even though I am one XD. These two Oc's and two reworked ones, I'm working on at the moment, and hopefully, they actually get released. Enjoy the sneak peek!

❝Music is my painkiller❞ Octavius Narong

❝Tell me what makes you tick❞ August Harrison

❝There's a war going on inside my head❞ Marsh Hardtman

❝I can see you and me in the very near future❞ Quinn Gloom

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One final thing before I go! I plan to release a reworked group rp I did from a long time ago soon. In addition, I hope you have a wonderful day! ^^