Hey! It's book_binder here! I can't update myself but, my friend and I came up with a way for me to update where it wouldn't require wifi and my parents couldn't track it. They don't see how much thought I put into my books and tell me to stop writing. They said that I should be writing other things. Truth is,  was never the best at creating my own books, only making fan fictions. Though, in the near future, I'm hoping of making my own book and proving my parents I'm a good author. Once I can get onto Wattpad on my own phone, I will be answering most of the comments. If some of you haven't already realized it, I try reading or reply to most of your comments. For now, my friend will continue to manage my account.

I love your guys comments though! My friend has been telling me a few of them and I just wanted to say thank you so much! I'm trying to work things out with my parents but since I make Vine/ Insta edits (I posted a few on YouTube, if you look on my bio here on Wattpad, it tells you my other social media accounts) of Yuri on Ice, my parents want to watch it and I'm scared. Mainly of my dad and how he will react to Victor and Yuri's relationship. Especially the pole dancing scene, the almost kiss, the proposal, and the duet at the ending. Even though my oldest brother is gay and planning on proposing soon, my dad stated to me that he doesn't fully agree with the fact that his first born is gay and wishes he wasn't gay but, that he still loves him. With everything my parents told me, I am basically a horrible sin they could never love fully. That may be why I have a thousand self doubts and hate myself, all because of what others and my parents have told me. I am an atheist, no, I won't shout "there is no god!" Or "god is dead!" I believe in a god but, the way my parents have forced Christianity onto me makes me hate the thought of putting what I believe in a label. I don't like labels. I am also gay and transgender but I can not express these feelings without my parents believe it is just a faze or questioning me.

Also, I'm drawing Victor Nikiforov! It's my own OC version (in which my parents also told me to stop drawing anime ........) the picture of my drawing will be at the end of this chapter if you wanna see it! Sorry this Author's note was so long. 0_0
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Yuri's POV

Looking over across the table at Victor, I inhaled a sharp breath. "He seemed pretty upset...... maybe I should go after him." Standing up, I was about to leave when Victor's grip on my hand tightened.

"Stay........ he needs time to handle this by himself."

Sighing, I sat back down and laid my head down on the table. "But we're leaving in a few days for the Chinese Competition........"

I knew that the Chinese International Competition would not end well.
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March 13,2016

"Welcome to China, Yuri!" Phichit exclaimed, opening his arms wide show his head with his skating bag pressing against his side.

Phichit ran off ahead of Victor and I, taking selfies with different signs.

"He seems happier........ after he locked himself in his room for the past 3 days, I got a little worried." I said, my fingers intertwining with Victors, a soft blush dusting my cheeks.

I was still not use to the physical touch of Victor. Sure, we've kissed but it's been so awkward for me because I'm so new to dating. Despite it being just the beginning of Spring, Victor's hand was warm against mine.

"Maybe he needed some time alone to sort things out, like I said earlier." I nudged him gently, pouting.

"Hey, it's still good to comfort your friends."I mumbled, embarrassed.

"I know, but that's what makes you so kind." Victor turned to me and brushed some of my hair out of my face, removing my glasses and staring into my eyes.

Pulling down my mouth mask, he leaned in and brushed my lips, soon after, pressing them firmly against mine.

"Let's go sight seeing!" Phichit exclaimed, running over to us with his phone on a selfie stick.

Pulling away, I quickly returned my glasses on my nose and the mask back up on my face, hiding the deep blush on my face.

"O-of course! Where do you want to go?" I asked, hoping no one noticed how shaky my voice was.

"Well, I was thinking about.........." Phichit's voice went mute as I gripped onto the part of my shirt that covered my heart.

It was pounding against my rib cage, as if it wanted to burst out. My body grew hot and my face became more flushed.

'That was such a gentle kiss......... maybe Victor isn't the playboy I thought he was........'
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Victor's POV

Yuri is so adorable when he's embarrassed! Blushing and holding onto his shirt.

"Uh, guys?" Phichit asked, gaining Yuri's attention as his head snapped up to look at Phichit.

"Do you want to get lunch first?" Phichit asked, grabbing onto Yuri's hand, causing my hand that was entangled with Yuri's to tense.

"Lunch sounds good, it's 12:38 PM in Japan right now, I'm hungry."Yuri looked down at his stomach, causing me to laugh.
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"Vkusno!" I exclaimed in Russian."Foreign food is always amazing, especially the porkcutlet. And, of course,my porkcutlet." Leaning on Yuri, I kissed his cheek, causing Phichit to look away in annoyance, making me smirk.

[OMG, I just imagined Victor shouting 'Vkusno' in bed 0////////0 ]

'That's right, Phichit, I love Yuri and you can't stop us from being together.'

"Did you drink too much?" Yuri asked, struggling to push me off of him.

"I haven't drank at all, why are you so racist to Russians?" I pouted, getting off of Yuri.

"Anyways, why don't we go to our hotel? They probably have the room all ready." Phichit stood up and set money on the table, grabbing the handle of his suitcase that was next to the booth.

"Good idea." Yuri stood up and grabbed his own suitcase, setting money on the table as well.

Grumbling to myself, I got ready to go too.

'Who are you dating, Yuri? Phichit? Or me?'
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"Ahh! This bed feels so soft!" Yuri laid down on his bed, only 2 feet away from mine.

Falling back on Yuri's bed, I sighed."You should get some sleep, even though the competition isn't for another week or two, you need to practice it a lot more before then."

Yuri groaned in protest, rolling over so he was facing me."Why did we come to China so early?"

"You need to be registered in the computer and you have to be here for when it happens. The registration is tomorrow." I rolled over and faced Yuri, our eyes locking.

Rubbing his shoulder gently for comfort, I sighed."Your skin is so smooth......" I complemented, pulling his shirt down slightly and tracing his scar.

"It might be from all the minerals and herbs we use in our baths in Japan."

"Will you ever tell me about this scar?" Continuing to trace the raised, darkened skin, Yuri shivered at my gentle touch but looked at me with worry.

"Maybe..." he mumbled, looking down and away from my gaze.

Grabbing his chin, I lifted his head up so he was staring back into my eyes."If you get a gold medal here, you won't have to tell me...... but if you get silver or lower, you have to tell me..... does that seem fair?" I asked, worried that he would say no.

I mean, if Phichit and Minako know, why don't I? I'm his boyfriend and he has yet to tell me!

"Yes......I guess it does." Yuri mumbled.

I leaned in and kissed his cheek."I'm not trying to blackmail you or force you to do anything, you don't have to if you don't want to. I just......I just wanted to know." Rolling over so I was on top of him, I smiled down into his fiery chestnut eyes.

"I love you."
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Kissing his soft skin...... it was smooth, like caramel.

His body shivered as if he was cold but I knew better.

"V-Victor, no more.......please."

I only laughed."You're lying, you know you are. You actually want to beg me to continue, to claim you." Leaning up to Yuri's ear, I smirked and licked the shell of his ear."Just beg me to continue and I will."

"Victor........ please?" Yuri asked, wrapping his bare arms around my neck.

"Please what, Yuri?" I asked teasingly, wanting to hear home say it.

"Please mess me up......" Yuri buried his face in my shoulder, probably hiding his embarrassment and his blush.

"Of course I will, Yuri." Kissing his lips, I instantly entered my tongue into his mouth.

"I see you're still into guys."

That voice.

Was I hearing things?

Or was it my past coming back to haunt me?

Pulling away from Yuri, I straddled him as both Yuri and I looked at the man standing at the door, leaning on the door frame.

"Hello, Victor."

My eyes slanted darkly, my anger and feardirected into one word.

"Chris."
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I'll update as soon as I can! Hopefully my parents don't question too much in the main shows I've watched and they want to see: Noragami, Yuri on Ice, Seraph of the End, and K Project (the movie and second season included). For now, I'm too much of a coward and whimp to tell them more shows. I mean, how would they react if they found that my first full anime I completed was Ouran High School Host Club when I was in 4th grade? Or that before then, I had seen Inuyasha on TV on Adult Swim before? Anyways, I hope to post again this week, I ❤️ you all.