Maybe it's just out of reach
I could grab for it but my fingers are worn down
Holding on to an edge for so long slices open blistered fingertips
And as time goes by, I dull the edge as it dulls me
I've got a years experience in missing you
I can't can't go back
Don't think I will

I can only lose you so many times
In the same way over and over
I hear each shot and they echo relentlessly in my head
I can't tell if it's the rain on the summer roof
You used to sleep under next to me
Tucked away but so close

Drumroll, ladies and gentleman
How about a round of applause
Rain rattles and settles on my windowpane

So far, these baby steps have led me further from you
You've officially killed me
I don't think I can care anymore
I can lie and say that I would
But you're the little boy who cried wolf.
The wolf was yourself
And now looking in the mirror I see my fangs
Look at what you've done to me
I fit your mould so perfectly

I never had time for you
But you had all the time in the world
I'm getting sick from the way you keep spinning tables
I'm guessing which one the gun is under
Magician, fooling me.
"It's pointed at my head, silly."
Not mine.
Because you know guilt would have me crying out my eyes to fill the room to the brim
So you could feel okay.

You hurt me to feel like someone cared
I know.
You would say everything under the moon just to see if someone would care
I did.
And you ruined it, truly.

These words don't sting
You don't give me a headache

I know how lonely you are
And it makes me sad

2CI and 2CB
Crash your car
Lie down in the street
Falling asleep
Cause you're so tired
That the world doesn't spin anymore

Not like it used to.

And you're gonna leave
So you say
But you're here still
You feel okay
You're just tired
Of the things you've already tried

You're gonna die
So you say
But you're here still
You feel okay
You're just tired
Of the feelings you have for yourself

I'm closing the silverscreen
No longer showing your insecurities
You project onto me.

Go on.
Deny.
Defy.

I'm tired of this, truly
And just had to say it
So as the credits roll
Just know
I know.