8 years later

Time flies by and now Riku is eighteen. Currently, just like the original timeline, he is in Tokyo. He leaves all behind in his hometown.

He remembers about the day when his brother left. This time again, he can't change it. But he won't cry. Not any longer.

Their parents both Riku and Tenn love are now no longer beside them to support. Otoharu had messaged him before about his idol activities. Riku only replied with when the older man has the other people in the group.

The event where he met with all the important people in the past now become weirder. True, he actually grateful for whoever does that but now, its trouble him.

"Walks using your eyes, you kid!" A man shouts to Riku when the redhead bumped into him.

Riku bows his head slowly and walks away leaving the man with fire. He knows that leave it like that means he looking for trouble but it can't bother him now.

Currently is rainy on the night time. People running everywhere to search for a place to wait. While Riku is walking without any destination and umbrella in hand.

Riku stops when he saw a big screen on one of the buildings. He saw his brother, Tenn, singing in a part of his group called TRIGGER. People around the place screening on happiness when they see the member moment.

"Kyaa!!! Gaku!"

Crack!

Riku faces his front back and walks away. He forgot that whenever people happy about something that is related to him, his heart will take action and effects.

But seeing how his brother and Gaku both smiling on the stage with happiness, Riku can't stop himself from smiling too. Ryuu cannot be left out too, Riku remembers the time when they accidentally bumped into each other on the street.

Riku pretend he didn't see the Ryuunosuke, instead, he sees the stranger. Hoping that it will not cost any trouble.

Crack!

Slowly, he walks to the stage he will sing with the other member for their debut. Time still on the night, rain becomes heavier.

"Ha, a deal? Funny, do you think I will make a deal with a monster?"

Kujou Takamasa voice resonance in his mind again and again. The words are different than the previous life but it still holds the same meaning.

"I wonder if I will think of you as interesting. Your deal is not bad but not my taste."

Riku closes his eyes. He opens them again and faces the night sky. Raindrops down on his face but he ignores it.

"Riku, you will help me with my job and others when the time comes, right?"

He opens his mouth this time. Actually, Riku can no longer sing. His voice has given up on him. After three years since the day, he met Tsukumo Ryo, his voice started to become lower and lower.

It's to the point it's now so low that no sound can be heard. Riku gives up too when he knows about his condition but now when the time is about to begin and Otoharu keeps pestering him into joining them, he can't.

He opens them again, his mouth. He tried to sing, but no matter what his voice is just like thin air.

"Please... Just this once... I want to convey my words... I can't hold it anymore, " Riku monologue and his eyes become redder. Riku is... Crying.

Riku opens his mouth again but as before, nothing. Riku slump down on the wet stage. Riku holds his hand on his pants while he's crying.

"Please..." He continues to monologue. "Leave me... Out of this, " he continues again.

"Please..." A whisper comes out. "JUST LET ME SING!" Riku shouts as loud as he can.

All around the place become silence again. But Riku can't hear his own voice now. He knows that he just shout when he felt the ground shake for a bit.

Riku stands up. He swaying around but he sits up straight with the help of the gravity.

Your two eyes, their glow is lost

Please erase my memories

Riku started to tremble when he sings. He can hear his voice again. It's such a blessing but no, it will only cost him trouble and he knows it.

Far away through the dense fog

The far path I departed on only left hurtful marks

He remembers the time when his brother left again. No matter how many time is it, he will only be hurt by it. No matter far he goes to close that hurtful feeling, it will only return with more painful marks.

Even as I try to grasp the ends of the dream eventually, longer and longer

I fall asleep in a deep silence

The rain makes his feeling even hurt. He hears people laughing with happiness and the joke people make for their family in their home. He can hear everything.

"That's what you get. You want to sing. We gave it to you. You're the one to close your own talent."

Oh now, holding this pain

Like the day I abandoned everything

Riku swings around the stage like he was singing to the fans. He smiles while crying. He remembers the words Kujou Takamasa used on him before.

"A true actor is they smile when they cry."

Riku actually is grateful for him to give that words. If not for that words, he would have never been this hurt. His pain will never be this painful. But his other words keep Riku alive.

"Doesn't mean you need to hold yourself. You just need to pretend like everything was fine and you're okay. Eventually, all will be good."

If not for those words, Riku would have lost in this psychology game. He just needs to stand a few more steps until all of this will end.

It grows more painful every day

Endlessly in front of my eyes Deja Vu

Riku stops singing when he felt a person just at the stage where fans can sit. He turns his head from the sky to the person. It shocks him when he saw the person he didn't want to.

"Nanase Riku?"

oOo

Riku is now in his room. The room that is provided by Otoharu and Musubi. They both have taken care of Riku since he came to Tokyo.

Riku keeps saying no since he has his own money but they keep pestering him about it too. In the end, he gives up when even Tsumugi asks him to take the offer.

First, Musubi ask if Riku wants to live with them but he closes the offer. He can't just live in the house of other people he barely knows. True he barely knows Musubi at all.

Next, Otoharu asks if Riku agrees with living in the dorm for the group. Riku closes the offer again. He can't live in the dorm until the time is right.

Click!

Riku sits up straight and walks out from his room. He slowly walking on the stairs and see at the kitchen. He smiles a bit when he saw the person he always waiting when he at home.

"Nanase, I'm a bit late today, sorry." His gentle and rough voice heard by Riku.

This person, is Yaotome Gaku, the person that helped him in getting Musubi attention when they're a kid.

Don't get them wrong, they don't live together. As an idol, Gaku lives with his other member in the dorm but when he has time, he will come to Riku's house to rest.

It's all started that one moment when they accidentally met at the outdoor stage a few weeks ago. He still can't believe he met his first friend he lost before.

"So, anything new about your job?" Riku asks the silver-haired.

To explain everything, something weird happens again. He can use his voice but not always. There was a time when he can't let out a single sound and there is the time his voice can be loud as an elephant.

Riku suspects it was the voice in his head that does it. His deal with them is not finished yet you know. Riku still in the voice eyes to look for any suspicious moves.

"As usual, my idiot dad cause trouble again and I can't help but be angry.  Can't just sit there and listen to all his rambling you know." Complain about the silver-haired with an annoying voice.

Riku giggle and he let out a cute laugh. Gaku just sits on the sofa with silent while watching the redhead cook something. From time to time, Gaku wok comes to Riku's house to have a bit of time with him.

"So, how about your new song? Got any idea?"

Riku shook his head with disappointment. The food he's cooking slowly bubble up and he of the gas. His face becomes gloomy as he turns his head to Gaku.

"I'm sorry, I can't help you anymore."

Silence engulfs both of them as Galu only watch Riku cooks. The redhead movement in the kitchen and the cutlery is the sound can be heard in the house.

Gaku sigh and he smiles. "No need to worry. I know its hard for you to write a song at your current health." He said. "Moreover, when you need to face the truth of not meeting your brother." He continues.

Riku face becomes gloomier when he heard about his brother. He knows Gaku didn't mean anything bad but he just can't face the reality. It's always like that. When he can't face anything, he will have this anxiety feeling swirl up inside of him.

"So..." Riku started to talk and leave all his problem aside. He smiles and asks Gaku for if he has any preference on the side food. "Got any taste on miso soup?"

Gaku laughs and nods his head. He can't say no after all to that cute face of Riku. After Riku is done, they both dining in for dinner. Gaku returns to his dorm back when they both done.

Riku watch as Gaku leaves with his car. The redhead's face turns from happy to gloomy real fast. He takes down his hand that has been waving at Gaku and close the door, locks it and closes his house light.

"Hope nothing bad happens..." Riku wishes inside his mind.

oOo

"Riku-kun, when will you join in our production?" This time as usual Otoharu begs Riku to join their production team.

With Riku on the front sofa, cross his hand on his chest and his leg both on the floor. Riku brings up his right leg up to his left leg.

Riku knows it's not an appropriate manner but he just can't sit still. His bad habit is always brought both his leg up to his chest whenever he sits down so this is the only way to prevent that from happening.

"Takahashi Otoharu-san, I'm really grateful for your constant offer of joining me in your production. But do you have your group ready now?"

Otoharu smirks when he heard the question. A knock on the door been heard and it open when Otoharu letting the person in. Banri is the person cane in with his blue hair tied in a ponytail.

Banri face only turns into shock when he sees Riku. "Riku-kun... What are you doing in here?"

Riku can't let go the feeling that this will not be any good. "Didn't I said to you a few years ago I will become an idol? But now, this little president of yours is begging me to join your production team."

Banri let out a small laugh while muttering. "That's our president alright? Oh yeah, president, this is the list of the soon to be our new and first group." Banri brings out a file and Otoharu read it.

He turns to Riku and smiles. He tells him that the file is the soon to be his group member if he joins in their production. Riku didn't even read the file and he smiles.

"I know that this time will come sooner, " Riku monologue.

"So, Riku-kun, will you join in, in our group?" Otoharu asks with a smirk on his face.

oOo

Trivia!

*Riku suffered anxiety after his brother left the house. He can't get over the feeling of losing someone you love even after six times.

*The deal he makes with the voice is not yet finished because Riku didn't finish his part.

*Riku voice is uncontrollable as he uses it. He sometimes talking to someone on the phone and his voice blanks out. The only times his voice did not give up is when he sings.

*Riku leave his hometown and come to Tokyo a few months after Tenn left.