Life is hard.
I know life is hard.
Especially for you.
I will do everything I can for you, little one.
I will, I will do my best.
But I can't help it once I lose my feelings.
Or is it just an excuse?
I feel you, but I couldn't love you, anymore.
At least I used to.
I know your wishes,
It's just I can't gain it.
I know you're suffering.
It breaks my heart that I can't help.
I said, everything I can for you.
But I can't.
I was quietly looking at you.
The glares you give me.
I can't look at you back.
The shame I feel.
The wishes you had.
How can I do everything for you?
I can't do the same to myself. 
It feels like pity being selfish.
Sorry that I can't help you, little one.

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LMAO i wrote this in 2022 so i will post it bc Im bored.