Jin woke up with a start when he felt Taehyung move next to him and loosen his grip. He thought in horror that it must be late and Taehyung had just woken up. But the room was still plunged into darkness and after a few minutes, Jin realized that Taehyung had just switched sides in his sleep and finally let go of him.

    He took the opportunity to recover. His breathing had returned to normal, but he was in so much pain that when he got up, he immediately fell to the ground, wondering how he could walk or go to the bathroom without his whole interior tearing and causing pain. nameless.

      He regretted with all his heart to have come to play that evening and especially, to have believed the lies of Lee. He had only suffered more.

    He knew he had to hurry to get dressed and clean everything up before Taehyung woke up because there was semen and blood on the sheets, a lot of blood.

     Pulling up his pants and underpants, Jin wondered how he was going to change the sheets without Taehyung noticing and asking him what he was doing at that time. But the boy had proven that night he was a heavy sleeper and Jin did his best to pull Taehyung's sleeping body to one side of the bed then the other and change the sheets without waking him up.

     Then, he left the room discreetly and returned to his own where he put Taehyung's sheets in a garbage bag that he threw away: the blood wouldn't come out anyway. 

     He showered as quickly as possible because the water hurt him too much even if he absolutely had to clean himself, changed his pajamas, swallowed a painkiller and lay down on his bed, hoping that his pain would ease a little. He felt like the bleeding had stopped and he was relieved, but the suffering was still acute.

     He realized that if he hadn't argued with Jungkook, he wouldn't have slept alone that night and he thought that maybe, just maybe, he wouldn't have had to suffer this aweful punishment. Not that Jungkook could do anything the first time but then Jungkook promised to protect him. 

     Without him, Jin felt helpless. Taehyung and the others could promise him the same, he didn't feel reassured in the least because they were unaware of what was really going on. Jin promised himself to go and smooth things over quickly with Jungkook first thing in the morning.

     It was very early the next day when Yoongi left his room, just in time to see Jin enter Jungkook's room and push the door behind him. he had the impression of seeing him limp slightly, but believed that it was an effect of his imagination. What caught Yoongi's attention was really Jin's destination.

     Even though he knew Jin very well for having been his roommate for several years, he still could not fully understand him: how could Jin already seek to reconnect with the maknae after his temper tantrum the day before? According to Yoongi, if Jin gave Jungkook some time, it would be the younger who would come and throw himself at his feet to beg his forgiveness. 

     Knowing the young singer and his attachment to the older one, there was no doubt in Yoongi's eyes. However, he realized that there were still things he had missed recently regarding the relationship of these two and, puzzled, he resolved to do one thing that repelled him: listen at the doors.

     Jin approached the bed where the maknae was still sleeping peacefully. Even though the latter was known to be a heavy sleeper, he absolutely had to get out of it to have a discussion with him. He had been thinking about it all night and couldn't spend a peaceful day without discussing the events of the day before with him. He shook him vigorously, knowing that it would take more than his weak grip to wake him up in one attempt at such a time.

     "Jungkook?"

     He repeated his calls and light shakes several times, getting nothing more than frowns and moans, but still failed to wake the young man. So instead of shaking he pinched his arm of which the skin had been left bare by his T-shirt. 

     The searing pain, albeit slight, made Jungkook suddenly emerge from his sleep. However, his face, far from appearing numb from sleep, seemed wide awake and alert. 

     Unconsciously, Jin had awakened the memory of Lee's violence against the maknae the day he brutally got him out of bed. He instantly hated himself and when Jungkook realized that it was not Lee but Jin he was facing him, he lost his temper:

     "Hyung, what are you doing?!" He shouted angrily, before pushing Jin back with a brutal blow that made him fall hard on his behind, the most sensitive area of ​​his body right now, which made him cry out in pain. 

     "I... I'm sorry," Jin stammered, motionless and stunned, meeting Jungkook's glare in the dim light. "I didn't mean to scare you."

     Recovering from his surprise, Jungkook's expression softened a bit and, still half-lying on his bed, he extended a hand to the elder to help him up. Jin accepted the help and sat down with difficulty at the foot of Jungkook's bed to face the young man.

     "What do you want?" Jungkook asked, looking annoyingly at the time on his phone, without noticing the grimace of pain that Jin quickly erased so as not to cause him concern.

     But Jin stiffened at the harsh tone used by the maknae. However, he said :

     "I'll want to talk about what happened yesterday and sort things out before the boys wake up."

     "Settle what? What could you potentially change about what was said and decided yesterday?"

     "You said you wanted us to be distant even in private. I assure you it's not necessary so ... don't do it, please. How do you think this would be useful for the group? "

     "When did I say it would be useful for the group?" Jungkook gritted between his teeth.

     "But why then?" Jin asked, astonished

     "Why did you want us to be distant in public? "Replied the maknae sharply," Why did you immediately accept it when Namjoon said, no, implied it? "

     "Because we absolutely have to avoid giving people the illusion that we are a couple?"

     "And why does that bother you so much ?!" Jungkook roared.

     "What?" Jin asked incredulously, "is that what makes you angry? Are you a kid or what? Did you forgot what got us to the front of the problems?"

     "So, that's what seemed to me, you didn't stay for the kid that I am, you stayed to protect your reputation. The only thing that scares you is that they think you are gay!"

     The slap that Jin instinctively gave to Jungkook against his firm cheek was resounding and surprised Jin himself who had never raised a hand on the maknae. Even though he didn't put any strength into it and Jungkook didn't seem hurt, only surprised, Jin blamed himself excruciatingly.

     But he had suffered so much that night, and also the first night that Lee had raped him, all to protect the boy he adored and that he wanted to protect at all costs by avoiding the suffering that the manager wanted to inflict on him, that the pain of his heart was too big. How could he think he had acted out of selfishness when everything he had done, he had done for him?

     The back slap Jungkook gave him in return was so hard that Jin crashed onto the bed and held his face firmly in shock, dazed by the force of the blow.

     "I'm not a kid you can slap at your convenience, neither am I a child who you can order to stay quietly in his corner in public without expecting me to protest," Jungkook snarled, his terrifying eyes gleaming the same mad glow as the night Lee had surprised them.

     Jin found that the gleam dangerously resembled the one the mad manager had when he attacked him. And this resemblance terrified him.

     "You... you... you..." Jin stammered, his eyes wide, not really knowing what to say.

      "I don't know why I desperately tried to get you to stay even if it meant turning the company away from me."

     "N-no you don't think that..." Jin moaned, his eyes starting to cloud over, "please don't say that, don't abandon me, we have to stick together, remember? You have to protect me from him," he sobbed, "don't leave me alone."

   "Even now you still show how selfish you are, protecting yourself? Is this what I'm for? Is that why you want to reconcile with me? Not out of affection?"

     "You're wrong, it's that he just did something to m-" 

     Jin tried to justify himself. He wanted to tell him what Lee had done to him that night so he would understand. But Jungkook wouldn't let him talk :

     "From now on, you can fight alone against him. Well, if you really want to fight because you mostly look like you gave up from the start. Now leave me alone. Or I'll end up saying something else that will hurt you more."

     "N-no please... don't" Jin pleaded, grabbing Jungkook's hands and squeezing them. 

     Far from being moved, Jungkook pulled away with a sharp movement opened his mouth to deliver the final blow:

      "Shit! you know what hyung, I don't know why I'm holding back when you don't understand: I regret that you are not gone."