When Uncle Hua Cheng told Nan Feng and Fu Yao again how they were born, Nan Feng could still laugh at that while Fu Yao felt sorry for his father, Mu Qing. They were born on the day Feng Xin was on a mission while it was Heaven one of the most stressful days ever: planning for Xie Lian and Hua Cheng's wedding. They wanted to prepare everything and get married tomorrow, because Feng Xin would have come back that same night, at the time Mu Qing was heavily pregnant, who was only fertile as a man thanks to the stupid prank of the goddess of love. Shi Qingxuan had joined Mu Qing to tell him a few things when suddenly the amniotic sac burst. After that everything was forgotten, planning for Xie Lian's wedding, planning for the day or other things. 

Uncle Hua Cheng also told Nan Feng and Fu Yao how during their birth Mu Qing Hua Cheng broke his arm when he tried to hold on to something. Hua Cheng was to serve as a replacement for Feng Xin, who immediately stormed back into the sky, during which time Mu Qing had crushed Hua Cheng's arm. Fortunately, everything turned out well in the end. When Fu Yao and Nan Feng Mu Qing were presented, Fu Yao had cuddled up to Nan Feng while he was holding Fu Yao's arm with his small fist. It was immediately clear to everyone that they would have a very special bond. 

Nan Feng clearly remembered the day they were both supposed to go to Pei Ming for a day when Fu Yao opened his knee. Nan Feng had fallen asleep to the point in Pei Su's arms while Fu Yao was in the next room. When he cried soft tears and tried to hide the pain, Nan Feng woke up without explaining to Pei Su what was going on, jumped out of his arms and ran straight out into the next room where Fu Yao was. 

At the time, both were only 3 years old when Nan Feng felt that Fu Yao was not doing well. Fu Yao had hidden behind a cupboard, crying quietly, any adult would have overlooked Fu Yao, while Nan Feng ran straight to him and then wiped the blood from his knees with his expensive robe. When Fu Yao saw Nan Feng, he started crying loudly. It has always been like that. In contrast to Nan Feng, Fu Yao was much more animated as a child. Once at the age of 6, Fu Yao climbed a tree that was in the Xuan Zhen Garden while Nan Feng was downstairs playing with a beetle. When Fu Yao slipped off the tree and fell, Nan Feng caught him with no effort. It has always been like that. Nan Feng protected Fu Yao from everything and everyone. As long as it is about Fu Yao he will always be dead serious, understand no joke. It's always been like that. 

When Xie Lian jokingly asked the two of them if they were big, if they wanted to get married, they both replied immediately: ,,I want to marry Fu Yao / Nan Feng!" 

How many small children of that age did, they knew the difference between siblings and others not. 

,,Unfortunately, that is not possible Nan Feng, Fu Yao. You cannot marry, after all, you are siblings", Xie Lian then said gently and explained why. When they were 6 years old, Nan Feng and Fu Yao still never got it.

Nan Feng always lovingly took care of his little brother. 

,,Why am I not allowed to sleep with Nan Feng?", Fu Yao asked confused while he had pressed the pillow to him. 

,,You are already 10. You also have to learn to sleep alone", Mu Qing replied gently. 

,,But I want to go to Nan Feng", Fu Yao said quietly. Mu Qing looked at Feng Xin, who was scratching the back of his head, perplexed. 

Fu Yao looked at the floor, hugged the pillow more closely a big boy", said Feng Xin then. 

,,Do I have to sleep alone when I become a big boy?", Fu Yao asked quietly. 

They knew that Fu Yao was very attached to his brother. 

,,All right", Fu Yao managed to whisper. 

When Fu Yao was alone in bed that evening in his room, he felt more lonely than ever before. He wanted to cry and run out of the room to meet Nan Feng. His door opened, Fu Yao sat up quickly as the bright light from the thin crack entered his room. Nan Feng stood at the door while he quietly closed the door behind him and crawled into bed with Fu Yao. Fu Yao immediately beamed and pressed his face to Nan Feng's shoulder. 

,,I love you my little brother", Nan Feng then whispered, while Fu Yao clawed at his brother, giggling. 

Mu Qing didn't know whether to cry or laugh when he found the two of them in Fu Yao's bed together. A couple of times they did it again Tried to separate them a little, but eventually gave up. Over the years, their parents taught them how to use swords, although Nan Feng was much more impressed with Feng Xin archery. As the years passed, Nan Feng Fu Yao was still hardly separable. Two hundred years have passed since Nan Feng and Fu Yao were still doing something together. Nan Feng scolded Fu Yao as he leaned tiredly on his brother's shoulder. Cai Yue laughed at both of them . 

,,You are really inseparable, aren't you? ", She asked with a laugh. 

She was a young officer from the Ling Wen Palace. 

,,You are also to blame for the fact that Fu Yao did not sleep!", Said Nan Feng when Cai Yue laughed and hid behind her long sleeve. 

,,Ah Nan Feng, you can have a little more compassion. But the book is good!" she said, which Fu Yao confirmed with a quick nod. 

,,This book is really good", said Fu Yao. 

But Nan Feng pinched Fu Yao's cheek. 

,,Yes, so good that you didn't go to sleep, even though I kept telling you to go to sleep!" 

,,I didn't even bother you with it!" 

,,Fu Yao, I lie right next to you when I sleep. Do you think I'm so blind and don't see how you read at night and then light the candle right next to me? "

 Cai Yue tried not to laugh too loudly during their conversation. Cai Yue loved how the two siblings still couldn't get rid of the habit of sleeping in the same bed. They talked about a few other things for a while when Fu Yao turned to Cai Yue. 

,,Tell me, do you have any more such good books?"

Cai Yue laugh a little. 

,,Yes! Ich have a lot of good books!" 

Fu Yao then got up quickly. 

,,Really?", He asked excitedly while Nan Feng remained seated. 

Cai Yue nodded. 

,,Nan Feng, I'll go to borrow new books quickly!", Fu Yao said quickly and ran after Cai Yue. 

Nan Feng sighed and waved to Fu Yao with a smile. Nan Feng sat there for a while before he got up and hurried to a person who was walking across the yard. 

,,Diedie!", Nan Feng exclaimed excitedly when he saw his father Mu Qing. 

He turned around and his stern face softened. Nan Feng could see a small smile for a moment. 

,,A-Feng, where is A- Yao?", He asked Nan Feng as he stroked Nan Feng's head affectionately. 

,,YaoYao just went off with Cai Yue to borrow some books again", said Nan Feng with a smile, which makes Mu Qing roll his eyes for a moment. 

,,You like to hang out with her. I sometimes wonder if Fu Yao is really interested only in the book", said Mu Qing a little more quietly, his voice as always nice and clear as a melody, while every word had thorns. 

Nan Feng was always fascinated by how someone could speak so gently and yet every word was poisonous. 

,,Is A-Die coming back this evening?", Nan Feng then asked. 

,,Your A-Die will not be back until tomorrow. You know that it will take longer if he goes to your Lian Shushu." 

,,Does Diedie mean that he will fight with Hua Shushu again?", Nan Feng laughed. 

Mu Qing rolled his eyes. 

,,Nan Feng! Diedie!", Fu Yao shouted from afar as he ran to him. 

There were really many books in his arms. Cai Yue was nowhere to be found. Nan Feng smiled and waved to him. With a smile, Fu Yao stood next to Nan Feng and Mu Qing, who was also gently stroking Fu Yao's head and curling his hair. Both have really grown, thought Mu Qing when he noticed that both children went up to his shoulders. As every evening, Fu Yao sat in bed and read the books with euphoria. 

,,Can you please skip reading tonight?", Complained Nan Feng, who pressed his face into Fu Yao's stomach while he was hugging him. 

He really tried to sleep. Fu Yao sighed and then put his book aside. 

,,OK." 

Without further ado they both went to sleep while Fu Yao fell asleep with the thought to thank Cai Yue for the books tomorrow. 

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,,How quickly did you read these books through?", Cai Yue asked in amazement the next day, while Fu Yao nibbled on his Tanghulu. 

,,Would you like to try this romance novel?", She asked and held out a book to him. Fu Yao looked at the book in confusion. 

,,What is it about?", He asked. 

,,It's about a young man who longs for the unrequited love of his lover", said Cai Yue and smiled.

Fu Yao flipped through the book a bit before he smiled in thanks. 

,,Thank you!" Nan Feng was in the background, practicing with the bow he got from his father. 

Fu Yao got his saber from his other father. Mu Qing and Feng Xin are still crying inwardly about how cute they were when they were they always wanted to fight their parents' weapons as a child. Cai Yue chatted quietly with Fu Yao, while Nan Feng briefly ansashed her before turning his gaze back on the target. 

,,Sometime if you kept reading the books so quickly I won't have any good recommendations soon", laughed Cai Yue, causing Fu Yao to roll his eyes. 

,,You should never have given me the taste to read", Fu Yao defended. 

,,I would never have thought that you would then become a reading rat. One might think you don't just read the stories because you are interested in the content", she teased Fu Yao, who then blushed. 

Cai Yue then laughed and poked his cheek with her finger. Fu Yao quickly turned his head as Cai Yue continued teasing him. Fu Yao inwardly cursed his deity for inheriting that from him, which he also blushed so quickly. Nan Feng was like Feng Xin, blushing less often, but could sometimes get really embarrassed while cursing wildly. Nan Feng came up to them, slightly sweaty, and dropped down next to Fu Yao, exhaling heavily. Cai Yue then asked, what Nan Feng confirmed with a nod. Fu Yao poured a cup of tea for his brother and handed it to him. Nan Feng accepted it with thanks, while Fu Yao went back to Cai Yue turned around. They continued to talk while Nan Feng looked disapprovingly at all the desserts. Fu Yao noticed the look and got up quickly. 

,,I'll be right back", he apologized briefly and disappeared briefly. 

When he came back shortly afterwards the waiter brought spicy tofu's. Nan Feng's face brightened. 

,,You really don't like anything sweet, do you?", Cai Yue laughed. 

,,He? He rarely eats sweet things or so little that he can forego it. He can eat spicy food as if it were nothing", Fu Yao rolled his eyes as Nan Feng then grabbed Fu Yao's chin, turned it to himself, and quickly put a piece of tofu in his mouth. 

Fu Yao chewed on it in confusion before his face turned bright red and he began to wave his hands wildly. 

,,Sharp! Sharp! He managed to choke. Nan Feng started to laugh while Cai Yue tried not to laugh.

Fu Yao quickly took Nan Feng's cup of tea and tipped it down with one jump. After a while, Fu Yao calmed down again then clawed Nan Feng's sleeve angrily. 

,,I'll tell Diedie and A-Die!", complained Fu Yao. 

Cai Yue couldn't stop laughing either. She picked up a Tanghulu and held it out to Fu Yao. 

,,Better eat that!", She said with a laugh. 

Fu Yao immediately accepted it. 

,,Look, Cai Yue is much nicer than you!" 

Nan Feng just laughed at that. When they returned to heaven, Feng Xin was already waiting for them. 

,,A-Die! Nan Feng annoyed me today! ", Fu Yao said as he ran towards his father, who easily caught him and even lifted him up as if he were a small child. 

Fu Yao didn't mind, but Nan Feng found it embarrassing Sometimes Fu Yao could still be as strong as a small child. But sometimes Nan Feng also liked it when Fu Yao is like a child. Nan Feng also ran calmly to his father after he had said goodbye to Cai Yue.

,,A-Die, we're back", Nan Feng said politely. Feng Xin also gently stroked his other son's hair. Feng Xin smiled as he held Fu Yao in his arms like a child, although his son looks like an 18-year-old, he didn't behave like someone who had reached the age of 200 . 

,,Should I rather carry him back?", Nan Feng asked when he noticed that his brother wasn't about to let go of his father. 

,,I think you've trained enough today", said Feng Xin with a smile. 

Fu Yao stuck out his tongue to Nan Feng. 

,,YaoYao", said Nan Feng and took his brother from Feng Xin. 

Fu Yao looked at him questioningly before Nan Feng ran high speed towards Xuan Zhen Palace. Startled, he clutched Nan Feng. He passed Mu Qing at a speed that not even a hurricane can keep up. Mu Qing looked after them, confused. He ran into the Xuan Zhen garden. 

,,YaoYao, you know that I love you, don't you?", Nan Feng suddenly said. 

Fu Yao looked at him and even answered it. 

,,I know." 

,,You also know that I screw up a lot" 

,,Yes I know" 

,,You forgive everything anyway."

,,Yes I do." 

,,Good." 

Then Nan Feng threw Fu Yao into the lake of the Xuan Zhen Palace. That same evening, Fu Yao destroyed Nan Feng's bow. 

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,,How come you find this book interesting?", Cai Yue asked him. 

Fu Yao looked up from his book and stared right into her eyes. 

,,I like this love drama", said Fu Yao honestly. 

,,Oh oh! Someone like read love affair", laughed Cai Yue. 

,,Or do you have someone in mind?", Cai Yue winked with a smile, which made Fu Yao blush. 

,,S-Shut up!" He said quickly. 

Cai Yue continued to annoy him. As she laughed, the sun made her black hair look lighter, her golden eyes closed as she laughed heartily. Nan Feng was sprawled on the floor, using his arms as a pillow, and listening to their talk. 

,,I think my little brother is interested in someone", Nan Feng teased back, which made Fu Yao blush even more. 

,,Shut up! Both of you!" 

They didn't stop teasing Fu Yao. This made Fu Yao so ashamed that he pressed his face into Nan Feng's and allowed himself to be carried back to hide his bright red face, which lasted until the evening hour. Mu Qing worried that Fu Yao might be sick even if it couldn't. Gods cannot get sick, especially not children who descend directly from two gods who were not a bit human. 

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,,Are you dreaming Fu Yao?", Asked Cai Yue in amazement and waved his hand in front of his nose. Fu Yao looked at her questioningly when Cai Yue pecked his cheek again. Cai Yue was about to say something when Nan Feng called her shortly. 

,,Cai Yue, come on", Nan Feng shouted from afar. 

Cai Yue got up quickly and ran over to Nan Feng. Fu Yao looked after them. Black hair that was gently blowing in time thanks to the wind. Golden eyes that became clearer when the sky was. A smile that immediately warmed the heart. Suddenly the goddess of love sat down next to Fu Yao, who looked at him with her typical look when she smelled love. 

,,Could it be that you are in love with someone like that often how you suddenly disappear in your thoughts", she asked with a grin, while her blue eyes flashed knowingly, immediately after that Fu Yao blushed. 

,,W-What !?" 

The goddess of love laughed. Fu Yao turned his head to the side. Hesitated before he looked at her again, he couldn't lie to her anyway, she was first to be experienced for that and secondly was the one goddess of love, one can They just don't lie to anyone. Which is why he looked at her seriously. 

,,Yes", Fu Yao said quietly. 

,,A wonderful person", said Fu Yao, looking to the side. 

,,May I know what this person looks like?", She asked with curiosity. 

Fu Yao looked at Nan Feng, next to him was Cai Yue who was laughing at what. 

,,Black hair, like ashes that shine under the sun. Golden eyes that are clearer than any sky. A smile that warms my heart. At my side like a good friend", said Fu Yao, which sounded more like a dreamy murmur, even if there was a touch of bitterness. 

The goddess of love followed his gaze in amazement when she understood whisper as if she was trying to speak so softly that no one could hear her conversation and then stroked Fu Yao's hair. In the evening, Nan Feng and Fu Yao lay next to each other as usual while Nan Feng teased him. 

,,Is someone in love that he even had to talk to the goddess of love?" Nan Feng then asked teasingly. 

,,Ah shut up", said Fu Yao, twisting his eyes. 

,,Envious?" Added Fu Yao. 

Nan Feng just shuffled, then just turned his head to one side. 

,,You are in love !?", Fu Yao asked surprised. 

,,What !? No!", Nan Feng defended himself quickly. 

,,Tell me!", Fu Yao hacked on. Nan Feng was silent for a while. 

,,Do you remember the one text that the goddess of love had always sung before The Rain Master got together with Mingjuang General?" 

,,Do you mean "She's She's a Lady and I'm just a boy?" The text?", Asked Fu Yao. 

Nan Feng nodded.

,,Now I know how Pei Shushu must have felt, only this time there is no prospect", Nan Feng said with a sigh, while Fu Yao hummed the melody to himself. 

A lady? Fu Yao lay down correctly, does he mean ..? Fu Yao didn't want to think about it and instead closed his eyes. A few days later, Fu Yao went to find Nan Feng. He had to clarify something with his father, Mu Qing, before going to Nan Feng. But when he walked into the Nan Yang garden, he noticed that Nan Feng was not alone, Cai Yue was next to him. She seemed to be talking about something. Fu Yao hid a little behind the trees and watched from a distance. It hurt to see it in Fu Yao's chest when Cai Yue leaned forward. Is she kissing him ?! Startled, he quickly hid behind the tree when his heart broke into a thousand pieces. Then Fu Yao remembered what Nan Feng said when thick tears rolled down his cheeks.

,,He's singing, "She's a, she's a lady, and I am just a line without a hook", Fu Yao sang softly while tears graced his pretty face. He ran away quickly. He rushed back to the Xuan Zhen Palace and crept into his room, pulling his legs up against him. He tried to suppress his feelings, knowing that Nan feng would soon find out that Fu Yao was doing badly. Then how should he explain it to Nan Feng? His chest hurt incredibly badly. But then he couldn't pull Nan Feng down with his pain. 

,,What ?!" was the first thing Nan Feng said when Fu Yao took his pillow. 

,,You got me right. I'm sleeping in my room today. Alone!", Fu Yao said resolutely, while Nan Feng was completely confused was. 

,,You have never voluntarily slept in your room, Diedie or A-Die always forced you there!? Why the change of heart?", Nan Feng no longer understood the world. 

What had he done that Fu Yao was so beside himself. Not even during their worst arguments did they both sleep together. But Fu Yao was stubborn. Very stubborn . 

,,I want to learn to get along without getting along!", Fu Yao said and just ran out to his room. 

Nan Feng was left confused. Without Nan Feng next to him, the bed suddenly seemed so huge, cold and empty. But he couldn't turn and go back. It hurt too much. Less than five minutes later, his room door opened. Fu Yao lay with his back to the door and knew it was Nan Feng. The door closed again when he felt two strong, warm arms around him. 

,,Go away! I said I want to sleep alone!", Said Fu Yao, but didn't fight back.

,,No matter how angry you are, we will sleep together! You didn't even let me sleep alone when I destroyed your first saber!", Fu Yao felt tears welling up in his eyes, but refused to give in. 

But Nan Feng held him so tight that he didn't want to leave either. He was silent until at some point he heard the steady breathing behind him. His tears flowed silently from his eyes, while he said softly: 

,,You are cruel Nan Feng."

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Since that day, the parents could see more and more how the relationship between the two went deeper and deeper. Fu Yao resisted Nan Feng's contact, he pushed him away, refused to stay with him at night, ignored him and started not doing anything with him. Nan Feng tried to find out. Hopeless. 

,,I don't want to talk about it!" Fu Yao yelled back and ran on. 

Mu Qing and Feng Xin didn't know what to do because it was the first time they had experienced something like this. 

,,Damn it Fu Yao! Talk to me! ", Said Nan Feng. ,,We are brothers! You ca --- ", as he put his hand on Fu Yao's shoulder, Fu Yao turned around, his eyes full of hatred, but something else that Nan Feng could not see. 

Then Fu Yao uttered the words that no one expected. 

,,I wish you weren't my brother!"

Like a glass ball thrown on the floor, the day Nan Feng's heart broke when he heard these words. He stopped asking Fu Yao how he was doing, he stopped holding onto Fu Yao. That was the first night they slept separately for the first time. Both cried themselves to sleep that night without knowing what had really happened. Mu Qing and Feng Xin tried to find out what was going on, but Fu Yao said nothing. 

A hundred years passed and their situation did not improve, but got worse and worse. Fu Yao stayed almost exclusively in the palace, just leave it while Nan Feng kept doing something to Cai Yue. In the meantime, the two sometimes didn't see each other for months. 

,,Hey what are you pulling a long face?", Asked Hua Cheng Fu Yao when he found him staring at the pond in the Xuan Zhen Palace, lost in thought. 

,,Hua Shushu", Fu Yao mumbled quietly and surprised. 

Since Nan Feng and Fu Yao existed, Hua Cheng had become nicer to Mu Qing and Feng Xin, but no one knew for sure whether it was because of the children. Actually, Mu Qing suspects that it was up to Xie Lian. 

,,You've been making such a strange face for 100 years. You always got on so well with your big brother", said Hua Cheng.

,,Not so important", said Fu Yao quietly and looked at the floor. Hua Cheng knew the look, which is why he sat down next to him. 

,,Do you want to leave here?", Hua Cheng then asked him. 

,,Clear your head?" 

Fu Yao looked at him curiously what Hua Cheng had to say. 

,,You have something !?", Mu Qing then asked, frightened, he thought he would pass out as soon as he heard this. 

,,I would like to move to Hua Shushu and Lian Shushu for a while, learn more from ghosts and people. That is Hua Shushu the best teacher I can find who teaches me all of that", said Fu Yao. Mu Qing was trying not to lose his mind, while Feng Xin just looked at him as if he had lost his mind. 

,,You want to go to Hua Cheng !?", Feng Xin then repeated. 

,,A-Die please," Fu Yao then said. 

,,You both know that Hua Shushu and Lian Shushu will treat me well, and you also know Lian Shushu! He will never harm me!", Fu Yao then said. 

Mu Qing had to sit down and digest all of this.

,,Does Nan Feng know anything about it? ", Mu Qing then asked. 

The name made a shiver run down Fu Yao's back. 

,,No", he said hesitantly. 

,,Don't you want to tell him?" Fu Yao shook his head. 

,,We hardly see each other anyway, as if it's overrated" 

,,He's your brother" 

,,I wish he wasn't," said Fu Yao, almost emotionless. 

This hurt Mu Qing's soul, but he just couldn't understand what was going on with Fu Yao. Which is why he sighed heavily. 

,,If you promise to visit regularly", said Mu Qing with a heavy heart. 

Fu Yao smiled. 

,,I will Diedie", he promised before leaving the room. 

Mu Qing leaned against Feng Xin. 

,,Was I a bad father?", Mu Qing asked quietly. 

Feng Xin pulled him into his arms. 

,,No way! You are wonderful Mu Qing, I don't know what happened myself, but it's never your fault!", Feng Xin promised him as he gently rocked his loved one back and forth. 

As Fu Yao walked down the hall, he met Nan Feng, who looked at him with a sad look. 

,,You're leaving us?", He asked Fu Yao then, which brought him to a standstill. 

Actually, he didn't want to hear Nan Feng. 

,,You just leave us? Without a word? Without wanting to tell me something?", Nan Feng then asked him, which just sounded exhausted. 

,,Shouldn't you be with Cai Yue?", Fu Yao then asked. 

Nan Feng frowned. 

,,What does Cai Yue have to do with the whole thing?" 

,,Because your girlfriend is waiting." 

,,She is not my girlfriend." Nan Feng was confused. 

,,Why do you think she's my girlfriend?" 

,,He singing: She's a she's a lady. And I'm just a boy," Fu Yao sang the small text from the song. 

Nan Feng was more confused. 

,,What the fuck?!" 

,,You said you feel like this song. Then you kissed in the garden", said Fu Yao. 

,,If she's not your girlfriend then l--" 

,,Stop stop! I didn't kiss her that day! She whispered something to me because I confided something to her! I never said it was about her!", said Nan Feng a little louder. 

But Fu Yao was only half listening.

,,I'll go tomorrow", said Fu Yao and wanted to go on, but Nan Feng stopped him. 

After a long time it was the first time that Nan Feng showed such a will again. 

,,Now listen to you bastard, me don't know until now why you have become like this, but you really don't care what happened between us ?! What was before !? That you can just throw everything away ?! Damn Fu Yao what's wrong with you! your br --- "

,,And I still wish it's not you", said Fu Yao hoarsely and ran past him. 

Fu Yao was just purring into his room when suddenly the goddess of love was sitting in his room.

,,Wuah you have really great books!", She enthused excitedly. 

Fu Yao rolled his eyes. 

,,What do you want?" 

,,Hey, how do you greet an adult please?", She said pouted, before she got serious again and got up. 

,,Are you sure you want to take the secret with you?", She asked him. 

Fu Yao didn't look at her and packed his things. 

,,I'll take this with me." 

,,Do you really want to keep your feelings from him forever?", She asked him quietly. 

Fu Yao paused. 

,,Whether I say it or not. No matter how I want to explain it, it doesn't change the fact how disgusting I am!" 

,,He's your brother." 

,,And I wish he wasn't", his grip on the book tightened. 

,,If he weren't my brother I should love him", Fu Yao said quietly. 

Hot tears welled up in his eyes. 

,,If he weren't my brother, I wouldn't have to press my feelings into me every day and close them off. Then everything would be easier. But I can never admit it to him because he's my brother", Fu Yao burst out quietly, his voice trembling. 

,,Fu Yao", the deity whispered softly. 

But Fu Yao no longer listened. 

,,Please go", he whispered softly. 

She sighed before going to the door. 

,,Even if you won't listen to me, talk to him again before you leave tomorrow", she told him goodbye before leaving. 

Fu Yao fell on his knees crying. In the evening, Nan Feng lay in bed and stared at her empty side next to him, on the side where Fu Yao had always slept. The bed was too big for him alone, much too empty and cold. The creaking at his door made him sit up and take notice, soft steps padded to him. The ceiling rose Something like noticed how the bed was creaking. Nan Feng reached out and pulled the person over him to the side who really belonged to him. 

,,May I sleep with you again tonight?", Fu Yao asked softly as he did looked at his brother in the dark. 

Nan Feng smiled and pulled him into his arms. 

,,I missed you", he whispered softly in Fu Yao's ear. 

Tears welled up in Fu Yao's eyes again.

,,I'm sorry", he could only whisper. 

,,You don't have to say anything more. I heard everything you and the goddess of love sai", admitted Nan Feng honestly, which made Fu Yao stiffen. 

Nan Feng hugged him tighter. 

,,Why didn't you tell me the truth from the start? Then we could have saved ourselves so much suffering."

,,I was afraid. I was afraid of what you will think of me", Fu Yao cried softly. 

It hurt to hear Fu Yao cry. 

,,No matter what, no matter what it will be, Fu Yao. You are and will always be the most important person in my life. Don't forget that I love you, you idiot", said Nan Feng, stroking Fu Yao over the head.

,,I wish you weren't my brother", Fu Yao cried softly. 

,,But now it's too late anyway and it doesn't matter ..." 

Nan Feng rocked him gently back and forth. In the 100 years that Fu Yao broke, he was not alone. Nan Feng also had it all for 100 years They were really alike. He too had wished for the same all these years. 

I wish you weren't my brother Fu Yao, because I also wished to love you. 

I also wish you weren't my brother.