Why do You always have to be so kind?

Why do you have to be so nice...

to me?

We been friend for 3 and half years

but last year was the year we all lost contact...

But why do you still so kind to me?

Many people said I'm broken...

Useless

Pathetic

Pitiful

No one have ever help me...

I wish that i could be like i used to...

Able to tell people how i really feel

used to be...

playful

carefree

but

i have been Betrayed

Two times

I have promise my self...

to hide my feeling...

blocked all emotions away

closing in my heart and souls

from other...

who wish to help me

I really want to be who i USED to

be..

I don't know...

how long does the

masked i wear would last...

I'm

Cold...

Insane...

Depress

Hopeless

Lost

All those feeling is what lock me up

To the point...

of saying...

"Why I'm i even try?

Hope come and go

What is the point"

People called me blind

yeah..

that is true

I'm the boy who blind him self

Blinding him self to no longer able to show his

true emotion

always smile and slowly killing him self

inside out...

who is waiting for help...