I have been trying...

trying to be better

trying to show my true emotions

even though it really hard sometimes

every time I come home...

there would always be conflict...

crying...

harsh discrimination

pressure...

every day is the same

I lost my hope

lost my strength

like a soulless child...

like a fool

someone who converts into a joke...

I want to show my emotions...

but I can only show my true emotions to who I trust...

which might be sometimes

but a lot of time

they

can't really tell

("You are the only hope, Do you see your big brother?! He has no desire")

"You are just like him! Do you really want to be like him?"

Heh...

Some time i just wished that all of that could just stop

everyday...

school...

home...

homework...

go to school

why does it have to be constant

Chaos

Same thing

Everyone seem to be joyful

Im jealous of that to be honest

I start to hate my self...

hate my life...

why can't I just be normal...

when I show my emotions or try to discuss it out with them...

(Why weak are you? why can't you look at people around you do they cry like you?)

showing emotion is weak?

why can everyone show their passion

but

not me?

please tell me why?

I never hear a single sentence of

I LOVE YOU

I

am...

corrupted...

but

Im Trying To Become Better.