I'm sorry for being so weak

sorry for putting my life on your shoulder

I should be the one who carries your guys' weight instead 

I'm sorry for

being so pathetic always running away from problems that you constantly facing...

I left you behind 

I'm sorry

but please don't go

please stay...

I'm sorry

because I don't trust anyone else...

please don't leave...

I don't want to fail anyone

I'm sorry that I have disappointed you...

I don't want to lose my light

without you...

our path would fade away...

I don't want to feel empty

I always feel lost in my constant thoughts

I would lies if I told you

"I'm fine"

without you, I feel alone

I wish I could help 

but all I do is giving a plain smile

When

people I care suddenly leaves me

Only thing I know to do is to smile

I hate my self...

I always regret...

Why didn't I hug them?...

Why didn't I hold them back?...

I'm sorry

I don't know how to react...

I don't know what or how it feels to be free

Because my soul is trap...

My life is fading...

My feeling cant revealed itself...

How do I explain how I feel?

How do I Cry?...

I don't know how to start a conversation

I don't even know how to feel angry or sad when people around me move on...

I don't know how to show my true self

How do I stay confidence?

How do I act like my old cheerful, carefree, full of happiness self...

The one that always brings joy to other?

if you not here with me...

I'm sorry...

I'm sorry...

I'm sorry...

I feel so numb...

I wish you would read this...

Please don't blame your self

just blame me

I want to protect you...

I want to Kill myself just to save you

I want to help you

So...

Please...

Don't go...