Hercules' P.O.V.

"We have to find them!" I shout, pacing around the room of the Schuyler sisters. We had gone there to check if Laf was here, and to see if they would help.

"Hercules, I cannot believe you!" Angie screams back. Eliza tries to pull her back on the couch, but she's too strong. Peggy is almost in tears in the recliner, holding her knees to her chest.

"これは私のせいではない!!!" (This is not my fault is what that means)I scream back at her, before clamping my hand over my mouth. My eyes goin wide. The room falls silent.

"Since when can you speak Japanese??" John asks me shocked.

"That doesn't matter!" I scream, feeling my face heat up from anger and embarrassment.

"Alright alright. Let's all check their favorite places and hope to god we find Lafayette." Eliza says worried, biting her nails. We all split up.

Alex and Eliza are checking the dorms again and a restaurant. Angie and Peggy are calling people while going to the library. John is checking in their French class to see if he went to French club or the bar. I'm checking the park.

I'm such an idiot... I'm so worried... why do they love someone like me..? I run to the park in a sprint. People giving me weird looks as I run. I get to the old park. No one ever comes here to be honest. Lafayette loves it because it's quiet and peaceful.  I look around the park quickly. Seeing if there was any sign of them. I look at the swings the slide the garden.
Nothing...

I sigh, wanting to give up. I look towards a sodden bench, and see someone with curly hair in a perfect bun. They had earbuds in and was shaking because of the cold morning breeze. It looks like it's about to rain. I walk over to the figure. They're mumbling under their breath in French...

"Laffy..?" I question, tapping on their shoulder. Laf snaps their head back and flinch when they see that. They look back down, and mumble again. I sit down next to them and they face away.

"What do you want Hercules..?" They ask finally.

"Did you think I wouldn't come looking for you? I've been so worried." I reply.

They stay silent.

"I-I... I'm sorry.." I say, and they look over at me, with a confused look.

"I shouldn't have been so protective over you and got into you're information. I just want you to know you're special to me. I want you to be safe and feel comfortable." I finish, glancing into their gorgeous brown eyes. They look back down.

"I got a message from my mother... saying my grandmother had... passed away..." they tell me.

I stay silent, shocked.

"The box was a message from my grandmother and some belongs she wanted me to have." I says, as I see tears run down his face. I scoot closer to him.

"Laffy... how long have you known?" I ask, wiping his tears. I caress his face in my hands. He puts his hand over mine as another tear runs down his face. I know how important and close they were to their grandmother.

"About a month or so.." They reply softly.

"Lafayette... you should have told me..."

They stay silent as tears run down their cheeks.

"I'm sorry we fought.." they apologize, holding back a sob. 

"Laffy.. it's okay. It was my fault." I tell them, grabbing their hand. They lean their head on me and cuddle into me. I lay my head on theirs.

The Revolutionaries.

TAILORSPYIN- I got them. I'm not texting rn. Give us some time.

I quickly text the group and bring my attention back to my love.

"Je t'aime.." I hear them mumble under their breath. I smile.

"私もあなたを愛してます..." I respond. They snap their head up to me and I laugh.

"What was.. what the heck??" They ask, completely confused.

"I speak Japanese Laffy. I was embarrassed about it." I explain and they smile.

"What did you say?" They ask, tilting their head. They're so cute...

"I love you too." I respond, smiling.

They smile and lean their head back on me.

"Laf..?" I ask suddenly.

"Hm?"

"A-are... are you going back to France?" I ask nervously.

They stay silent...

I start getting more nervous with the silence.

"I think I'll go back for a little bit... at least for the funeral and to see my mother." Laf responds.

I sigh and nod understanding. Silence fills the air, besides thunder being heard in the sky.

"You can come with me..." they suggest, now looking up at me.

"I'll think about it.." I say back

"We should probably head back. There's supposed to be a storm all day.

Their eyes go wide. I tilt my head.

"Babe, what's wrong?" I ask. They grip the seat tight with their eyes still wide.

"Alexander..."

Alexander's P.O.V.

  Some people may call me smart. Some people call me strong. Some people call me awesome or amazing.

Some people will call me weak. Some will call me a disgrace. Some will call me a whores son. Some call me a bastard.

One thing I'm not called, is a baby.

I call myself that though.

  I'm currently shaking in a ball, in the bathroom of John and I's dorm. Thunder fills the sky. I don't know how long I've been in here. Let's just hope the storm passes soon, cause I'm not getting out of here till it does. Why not go to John? To comfort me. I'm embarrassed. This shouldn't be happening and I shouldn't be so afraid. It's not a Hurricane...

No one... will die...

I hear a knock on the door, making me flinch and almost yelp. I put my hand over my mouth.

"Lexi? Are you okay?" John asks from behind the door. I nod even though he can't see me.

"I-I'm fine..." I lie. My chest felt heavy and I felt like I couldn't stand. I scratch at my red cast instead of my arm.

Should I...?

No.. I said I'd stay clean and John felt so bad...

But I deserve it..

"Lexi? Please open the door." John begs.

I choke on a sob and open the drawer under the sink. I find a shaving kit. I pull out a shiny, clean, razor. I put it on my arm, with my hand shaking wild. I was about to press it against my skin making the skin break, but I shove it back in and take deep breaths.

"No.." I whisper to myself.

"Lexi, I'm coming in." John tells me, before opening the door. He sees me and gasps.

"Alexander! Did you-.." I cut him out.

"No. I resisted." I state, leaning against the bathtub looking down. Warm tears run down my face. John sits next to me, saying nothing.

"I'm proud of you..." he tells me.

I nod. A tense silence fills the air. I hear John take a deep breath. I wait for him to get up and leave but I hear an angels voice.

"Look at where you are...
Look at where you started..
The fact that you're alive is a miracle..
Just stay alive...
And that would be enough." John sings to me.

I smile, looking at the ground.

"I love you're voice." I whisper and he chuckles. He picks me up, making me squeal and brings us to the couch. We cuddle while watching a movie.

But something appears in my gut.

Regret...
Guilt...
Why am I feeling this you might ask..?
. . .
Let's just say it has something to do when Elizabeth Schuyler and I were trying to find Lafayette...

Alexander's P.O.V.

Earlier that day.

"I can't believe this." Eliza states as we walk to the library.

"I'm sure they're fine." I try to say reassuringly.

  To be honest I was terrified. I didn't want Laf to leave. Nobody did. We walk into an alley way, to take a short cut.

"Alexander." She says suddenly.

"We have to leave." I reply, still walking but a little bit slower.

"Alexander." She says a bit louder.

I stop in my tracks and look back at her. She looks worried or scared.

"Sweet Jesus... those eyes..." She says suddenly. I tense up and turn around. A blush creeps to her face.

"I look into your eyes, and the sky's the limit." She tells me, slowly getting closer.

"Um, Eliza are you okay?" I ask, clearing my throat. She just gets closer. I gulp and back up into a wall.

"I really like you Alexander." She says quietly, making me shiver.

Before I respond she kisses me passionately.

This should be the part where I push her away and say no to this.

...but I didn't....

I didn't resist or pull back...

I do one thing back though.

I kiss her back.

Her lips are like silk against mine.

I wanted to say no.

But when her mouth is on mine... I just couldn't.

What am I forgetting? Why didn't I want to do this?

John.

I quickly pull back and she smiles at me love struck. Reality hits her like a car and she frowns.

"Oh my gosh Alex! I'm so sorry! I didn't mean to I just—!" I stop her my pressing my finger to her lips.

"It's okay. I understand. You didn't know what you were doing." I reply, sighing while bringing my finger down.

Silence.

"Did you... did you like it?" She asks, breaking the silence.

"I don't know..." I reply, looking down.

"I shouldn't have done that.." she says guiltily, looking down at her feet.

"Eliza it's fine." I say.

I grab her hand and intertwine our fingers.

"Nobody needs to know..."