every morning y/n would wake up weaker and weaker.

every morning she wakes up to Peter telling her that she is enough and he just didn't want to hurt her.

but he already did.

everyday he says it, it hurts even more. she ignores him the best she could, she never says anything to him, not even telepathically.

"y/n, you okay?" Macy asked, sitting on the couch "no.." she mumbled in response, plopping down next to her as she rubbed eyes

"you need to see him" y/n shook her head "no. he wants nothing to do with me"

"let me rephrase myself."

she took both her hands "you need to see them. both Peter and Tony.. you're mom hasn't been telling Tony what's up with you and Tony wants to know what's going on in your life, he wants to be there for you"

y/n didn't want to look Macy in the eyes "y/n, come on.."

"if he cares. why did he not try to stay in contact himself?" Macy sighed

"go get dressed. we'll go over to HQ"

(Tis your outfit, also thats me wasssuppppp)

"ready?"
she nodded "let's go" Macy pulled out her keys and lead y/n to her car "how do you know?" she asked while Macy drove them "I got a new and better job.. there actually, so heard him talking to your mom, your mom talks to me..."

"cool."

"y/n?" she looked up at her "you don't have to be so closed off okay. it wasn't your fault. any of it" she looked down at her shoes

"it was.."

"it wasn't. we wanted to be with you. we wanted to show you around the whole school that day because we knew you were going to be so smart and would go there. accidents happen y/n and this accident was not on you"

y/n didn't respond. for the first time in what felt like years. she talked to Peter

~you told her what I said.. what I thought?~

~I had to. you thought about it constantly and I hate seeing that darkness and hurt y/n~

~for you or for me?~ she scoffed

~for both of us~ she shut her eyes and tried to block him out again.

"come on,"

"he knows were coming?" Macy nodded and lead her up to the building.

the two girls took the elevator and of course it had an AI.

y/n was too busy looking around to actually know where she was going "y/n" Macy poked her cheek "hm?." she nodded towards the door "

wait what? you want me to knock? this was your idea"

Macy rolled her eyes slight and mumbled "you sound like E" Macy then sighed "fine, I'll do it" she knocked twice and the door opened "hello Mister Stark" Macy greeted him "hello Ms. Clark, Ms. y/l/n" he said, nodding to them as they walked in

"you can call me by my first name" she said, not looking him in the eyes "well..Ms. Clark, y/n" they all sat on the couch "how uh..how are you?" he asked her

"I'm.. fine I guess.."

he nodded towards her, "you don't look fine" his daughter shrugged "y/n I wanted you. I hope you know that" he said, sympathetically. "but your mother thought it was best you grew up with.. with your brother and her soulmate because they could provide better things for you" she didn't say anything "okay. now that we have that out of the way" Tony sat up straight "you're a mess"

y/n sighed "I know"

"no, no I mean look at you! when your mum said she was going to take you to the doctors, did she?"

she shook her head "I didn't go because I know why I'm like this"

he raised an eyebrow "oh really?. why then?"

"because I'm never with my soulmat-"

"wrong. its because you keep trying to push him away. Peters a mess too, but not as bad as you. you have horrible eye bags, you can see your ribs when you breathe and look you are so much paler now. y/n, you look dead"

Tony's eyes began to water "I may have not been there physically y/n.. but I was still there, I got videos of your first steps, your first words. and I'm still you're father. just as much as Jack.. y/n the parents should always outlive their children." she finally looked at him. she didn't see just the strong iron man Tony Stark she always saw and looked up to when she was younger,

but Tony Stark as Tony Stark. he wants to be part of her life, her life that isn't going to end before his

"I just.. don't want to get hurt again" she sobbed

"I know..I know" he hesitantly sat next to her then gave her an awkward side hugged "and you won't.. give it time okay? you guys are meant for each other, I know that's all you've been hearing. but you gotta stop pushing him away, even if he was pushing you away first"

"look at this" Tony pulled up his watch and showed a tired Peter Parker on the couch

"he thinks he screwed up"

"I know..." she mumbled "he's in my head"

Tony nodded "and you can't change this. talk to him, even if you don't forgive him, just this yet"

y/n shakily sighed and let herself take in what Tony had just said. she let go of whatever she was holding on to and she let herself feel love for Peter.

she stood up and let her feet go where ever they decided to go ~y/n?~

~I'm here Peter~

a door slid open and there he was. there was Peter.

his hair messy, and he had large eyebags, almost like her own-- except he looked more alive

"I..I don't know why I'm here" she said aloud

"and I..I'm still mad at you" he nodded

"I know..I can feel it" he replied

"but I just... please hold me"

she cried, he came closer to her and wiped away the tears and hugged her "I'm so sorry" he mumbled "I didn't mean to make you feel that way, I really didn't y/n I would never think of you the way you thought about yourself" he cried into her hair

~not ugly.~

~so, so beautiful.~

~so sweet, caring.~

~I'm sorry.~

~hurt her.~

~I hurt her ~

~oh no, no. don't cry~

all these things kept repeating in Peter's mind "I'm sorry" he said once again. he let go slightly to look at her face "have you.. have you slept?" she shook my head

"no"

he looked at her then stuttered "uh..erm.. F-...F.R.I.D.A.Y, where's my room again?"

"down the stairs to the 3rd floor and the 6th door to the right" an automated voice replied. "lets go get some sleep okay?" Peter smiled lightly, leading the way.

~I don't know Peter I--~

~we're just going to sleep, we both need some rest y/n, don't deny you need this I can hear you saying you want this, loud and clear~

she sighed and let him take her to his room where they both plopped down and took a nap.