max and josh decided they were going to work things out, on tuesday. today was thursday. max had told laura everything, from why he and tyler ended their friendship, to what was going on at home. and more things, that josh didn't know about.

they both agreed not to tell anyone about their relationship, because they knew it would be so much drama between the friend group. it hurt josh, when tyler would flirt, or touch him or something.

max was on his way over after school. he came over wednesday but it was kind of late because josh had tutoring with tyler. he stayed until about 9, so a few hours. it consist of lots of kissing and talking and cuddling between the two boys. lots of awkward kisses.

josh looked up and saw his door open, max walking in with a bag in his hand.

"what's that?" josh smiled.

"it's food!" max said, josh giggling. "i brought us popeyes."

"now i have to eat ryan's dog." josh said, max laughing.

"i just got us each a box with chicken mashed potatoes and gravy and mac and cheese."

"that's perfect. thank you." josh said, grabbing the box. max also handed him a bottled sprite.

"you're welcome baby." max said. he sat on the bed also, josh turning his tv on. they ate and talked while watching netflix. max finished first, putting his box back in the back. josh finished shortly after, and did the same.

"that was so good." josh sighed, leaning back against his pillows. max leaned next to him. josh lifted his leg up, and set it across maxs.

"it really was. i think i made a good choice." he said, turning and looking at him. josh bit his lip to hold his smile, before he leaned up and kissed him.

"thanks." max said.

"my pleasure." josh replied. max chuckled. "how was your day?" josh asked him.

"it was okay. glad to be home. school is just mentally draining, but i'd rather go there than stay at home." he said. "how was yours?"

"too long. getting through the classes one class at a time it's just so ugh ya know." he complained. max smiled.

"yeah yeah i know. it sucks. this is our last year though." max said.

"yeah until college." josh sighed.

"yeah. that's gonna be fun." he chuckled. max was going to be a trauma doctor. josh hadn't really picked his major yet. he was thinking about maybe like a counselor or something, but he didn't know yet.

"i think brendon's major is my favorite." josh said.

"what's his?" max asked.

"he said he either wants to do horticulture or be a lawyer, horticulture because it's plants and it's brendon and brendon likes weed, or a lawyer because he wants to legalize weed because it's brendon and brendon likes weed." josh giggled.

"so brendon's whole life career and future is being based on weed?" max laughed.

"yes. and he said he didn't give a fuck if he doesn't get a good job because his parents have enough money to last through his whole life." josh said. brendon was literally so rich. like, his grandparents are rich and still making money, and his parents were saving money and using a lot of the grandparents money that they just gave them. his parents also had very good jobs.

"i'll never understand brendon, but somehow i get it." max nodded.

"brendon sure is a character, but i love him so much. he's just always been there and stuff. and he's so good to ryan and i just love that for him." josh smiled.

"yeah i can tell there's a lot of love between them." max said.

"yeah and there always have been." josh agreed. he took a drink of his sprite.

"hey." max said, nudging josh. josh looked up, smiling when maxs lips were puckered up. he connected them.

the whole mood in the room changed when they pulled apart from that kiss. josh kissed him again, but nothing changed. it's like, it was uncomfortable now. he didn't know how to explain it but something was wrong.

they were just talking so easily, and now it was awkward. like they had just met each other for the first time.

josh didn't know if max was feeling the same way. he looked up at him, maxs eyebrows were slightly furrowed.

"...what happened?" max asked quietly.

"i don't. i don't know." josh replied. max felt it too.

"is this...wrong?" max finally said after a bit of silence.

"what do you mean?" josh asked.

"did that feel right to you?" max said. "the kiss."

"n-no." josh said. he just didn't know why.

"why does it feel like that?" max asked. he was beyond confused.

"max i don't think we're supposed to be together." josh blurted out. it just didn't feel right. it's like they were laughing and talking and having a good time together in each others presence, but now it was just awkward. like they shouldn't have kissed. josh was nervous to hear maxs response. max was taken aback at first, but when he thought about it, he replied.

"i don't think so either." he said. "but why? i-i thought i was in love with you?" max said.

"i.... i thought i was too." josh said.

"do you feel that too? be honest." max said.

"it feels wrong. that didn't feel right i don't know. it's like the whole mood changed." josh said.

"i don't think i'm in love with you anymore." max stuttered to get out. it hurt him to say it and it hurt josh to hear it, but somehow he felt the same.

"maybe we shouldn't try things out again." josh slightly laughed.

"wow. this escalated quickly." max laughed back.

"i just. i don't think we were supposed to get back together." josh frowned.

"yeah. yeah i get it. i think...i think it made me realize how much i need your friendship." max said. he did love josh, but not like he thought he did.

max was needy. needy for someone to love him. for good friends. things just got out of hand with josh. he was in love, maybe, but for the wrong reason. he just needed a friend.

"i still love you, max. but i don't think i'm in love with you. you'll always mean something to me. always i'll never forget your kisses and everything. i think we just don't work." josh said, swallowing hard.

"i completely understand. i feel the same way. i love you too." max said.

"wow. that was probably the easiest breakup i've ever had in my entire life." josh slightly laughed.

"i'm sorry." max said.

"for what?" josh asked him.

"for kind of getting in the way i guess. i shouldn't have asked to try things out again. you and tyler are meant to be together josh." max said. josh looked up at him.

"don't be sorry. you didn't get in the way of anything. what do you mean?" josh asked.

"i see the way he looks at you, and the way you look at him. you're happy with him. he's happy with you. i never realized how much until i was hanging out with both of y'all." max said. he smiled a bit.

"no it's, we're over it's done between us." josh said.

"no it's not. and that's okay josh." max said.

"i don't- i don't get it." josh stuttered out.

"what don't you get?" max asked.

"i thought you hated tyler, and hated me with him."

"i did. but that was before when i knew how he was. and not to mention i was in love with you. but he's changed. and i've changed. hell we've all changed." max said.

"i guess." josh shrugged.

"tell me about him." max smiled.

"what about him?" josh asked.

"how do you feel around him. when he talks to you, or smiles at you. tell me how you feel about him." max said softly.

"i feel...i don't really know. when he talks i just, i wanna listen to him. i wanna give my attention to him all the time. when he smiles i just go crazy inside. my heart beats faster around him. i never just don't want to be with him. even after i found out it's like, i just wanted to talk to him and hear him i don't know. am i crazy for that?" josh asked. he was leaned on maxs shoulder, and they were both under the blankets.

"you're not crazy. you're in love." max said. josh stopped breathing.

"am i?" he asked. "i thought i was in love with you."

"if you were in love with me you wouldn't have just told me all that." max chuckled.

"i'm sorry." josh frowned. he felt bad. it's always been tyler.

"hey, don't be. i made a mistake joshua. i was the one who played you pretty much. i thought i was in love too. i just, never realized how much i needed a real friend." max softly said. josh looked up at him and smiled. max smiled back.

"i'm in love with tyler joseph." josh said, laying his head back down.

"you are. and that's completely okay." max said. he was upset yeah. he wondered what would've played out if they stayed together. honestly though, he never pictured him in josh's getting married, or having a future together. he was glad he found josh. and he was more glad to discover his friendship, as he discovered his love.

"you're amazing, do you know that? you are so important to me." josh said.

"thank you. you are too." max said back.

"i cant believe it." josh smiled.

"what?" max asked, slightly laughing.

"i'm in love with tyler joseph."

A/N: okay boo you ain't special i am too