"you're disgusting. a disgrace. you're going to hell. i wish you were never born."

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josh slid on his basketball hoodie, fixing his hair before he grabbed his keys, wallet, phone, and juul and headed downstairs.

"alright i'm gonna head to the games." josh said. "ash you going?"

"yeah let me get my phone." she said, grabbing it off the charger. abi and jordan were of course too young to go without laura or bill.

"be safe." laura said, josh saying his byes. ashely climbed in the passenger seat.

"how's yalls grade in basketball. this is my first time watching them this year." josh said. he'd gone to the other few basketball games, but he just watched senior boys.

"pretty good. not like amazing but decent. i haven't seen any games." she said.

"senior girls are alright. the boys are so damn good. like they're gonna take state." josh said.

"i bet yeah." she nodded. they drove to the gym and pulled into a parking spot, josh turning his car off. ashley went ahead and went inside cause her friend was already there, but josh waited. he texted ryan.

ryan responded that they had some seats saved, so josh went inside. he smiled at the teachers running the money thing, students got in free at home games.

he walked in and found the gang, sitting in the second row from the floor in the student section. dallon was on the outside, then emma, then ryan, brendon, then tyler. there was a seat open next to tyler. his friends, nathan and them, were sitting behind them on the next row. ryan was talking with emma and dallon, and tyler and brendon were turned around talking to jaxon and all of them.

tyler apologized to everyone in person the other day, expecially dallon and emma. he apologized to them in private though.

josh smiled of course at brendon's fit. it was kind of basic today, cause he wore it to school and wanted to wear it to the game. it was a white hoodie from gucci, that had the square on the front ya know, and he wore that with some black plaid pants, that used the same colors that were in the sweatshirt for the lines. he wore some white timberland boots. plus all his accessories of course.

"yeah i know i was like- oh hey josh." brendon smiled, noticing josh walking up to them.

"hey bren." josh said back. he sat down next to tyler. ryan, dallon, and emma all said hey.

"hey." tyler smiled. brendon was continuing his conversation with ethan.

"hi." josh smiled back. "you ready to play?"

"more than ready. this team sucks." tyler chuckled. everyone played tonight, and he 7th grade girls was just about to start.

"when do you have to go." josh said.

"half time of the senior girls game." tyler said, running his hand through his hair.

"hey josh what's up." brendon smiled, turning when ryan tapped his shoulder. ryan just kissed him, both boys smiling before turning back.

"first of all that was adorable. and im just chillin what's up with you." josh said. he leaned over the arm of his chair a bit so he was kind of leaning on tyler.

"same bro just chilling." he shrugged.

"you're eyes are really red." josh giggled.

"me and ryan hit a bong. ryan's so high off his ass right now." brendon chuckled, saying it so ryan couldn't here them.

"hey ryan!" josh said, ryan turning with a huge smile on his face.

"heyyy." he giggled. josh laughed.

"you look a little stoned buddy." he said.

ryan just put his finger up to his lips to tell josh to shh before turning back to his conversation.

"are you high?" tyler asked josh.

"nah. i'm sober for once in my life." josh said.

"me too me too. i cant be high for basketball games. it makes my reflexes to slow i don't know." he said.

"that's just cause you're a pussy." josh said. tyler laughed.

"oh yeah my bad." he said. "you look nice."

"i'm just in a hoodie and shorts." he blushed.

"you look good though. wish you were wearing my hoodie, that would be even better." he said.

"i don't have any of your hoodies though." he shrugged.

"i think you have that one from that one time we went and smoked together and it was cold." tyler said.

"ohh yeah. it's in my closet somewhere i'm pretty sure." he said.

"here." tyler slid off his hoodie he was wearing, fixing his backwards snapback after he got it off. it was a yellow adidas brand hoodie, that just had the black trefoil on the front. "take this one too."

"i don't wanna take all your clothes." he blushed.

"nah it's good, i never wear that one." he said. josh took it.

"thanks." he said, being able to smell it. it smelled so good.

"no problem." he said.

"you not gonna talk to your friends?" josh asked. tyler was now turned towards josh.

"i wanna talk to you. you're more important." he said. josh was leaned towards him also, so they were pretty close together. their legs were touching, and so were their arms.

"stop making me blush." josh giggled.

"my bad. you're ugly." tyler said. josh snorted, tyler laughing also.

"i can't believe bren has a gucci hoodie." josh chuckled.

"those are like 1200 dollars. it's insane how much money he has." tyler said.

"it really is. no one should be allowed that much power. like imagine being able to get whatever you want whenever you want it."

"i'll get you whatever you want. if you want something i'll get it." tyler said.

"okay. i want a gucci hoodie and some gucci slides and a gucci backpack." josh smiled.

"alright, but i might have to suck brendon's dick to get some money." tyler laughed.

"that's fine by me." he giggled. "have you ever sucked brendon's dick?" josh asked, playing with the curls on the side of his head.

"yeah. you forget i've fucked bren before." tyler said.

"oh yeahhhh. and ryan. i'm dumb." he said.

"yeah watch." tyler said. he turned and got brendon's attention. "hey remember when i fucked you?"

"why you wanna fuck again okay i'm down meet me at my house tonight you know what fuck it right now we have time." he said, tyler and josh breaking out laughing.

"you're so gay and high." josh said.

"that's what i'm known for." he nodded.

they continued to talk and stuff until tylers game started. tyler had left halfway through the girls senior high game, so josh moved over a seat so he was next to brendon. ryan and brendon switched seats there, and so did dallon and emma.

"there he is." josh said, pointing to tyler who was on the sidelines with his team. they were grabbing basketballs and waiting for the girls to finish.

"god he looks good in that uniform not gonna lie." ryan said.

"i know. i wish we were dating during basketball season. i could brag." josh laughed a bit.

"i mean he's practically begging to have you back so i mean if you wanted it the options there." ryan said, josh smiling and rolling his eyes.

"i just can't yet i don't know. but i'm not gonna lie i absolutely love all the flirting and stuff." he said.

"yeah i can tell you're all blushy around him." ryan nudged him. the girls game just ended, and the boys ran out. everyone cheered.

"he's just always complimenting me and stuff and i love it. when i went to his house the other day i kind of laid up against him where part of me was on him and i think he got a boner." josh chuckled.

"probably. i mean the guys had to use his hand the past however long." ryan said.

"you really don't think he's fucking anyone else?" josh asked, watching tyler. he was shooting three pointers as a warm up.

"i really don't. like he never posts anything on his story really anymore. he's literally like always home. he hasn't been going to party's or anything. and i haven't heard anybody talking about him at school. he's just kind of chilling." ryan said.

"maybe yeah. i'm sure there's gonna be a lot of awkward boners everytime y'all hang out. like there's so much sexual tension in the room it's kind of insane." josh said.

"i bet for real. i mean you've seen that side of him so now you associate him with that so it wouldn't be hard to pop a boner." ryan said.

"please don't ever phrase it like that again." josh giggled. the buzzer went off, each team going back to their benches. tyler looked up at josh and smiled, josh blushing and smiling back.

the starters went out, ethan won the tip off, and the warriors started the game.

tyler dribbled, waiting for everyone to kind of set up for the play and to see what the defense was in.

"how does he know when to go like that?" josh asked when tyler passed the ball and ran the play.

"i think it's just when everyone's like ready i guess." ryan replied. tyler made a basket cut to the goal, owen passing it to him. tyler did a power dribble, and then spun around the guy that was waiting to guard him. he made the basket.

"he's so good it's crazy." josh said.

"do you like basketball or baseball more?" ryan said.

"i like basketball more. tyler looks really hot playing. but i don't know man, i mean the baseball pants. i can't resist tyler in his baseball uniform." josh said.

"yeah, baseball uniforms are really hot." ryan agreed.

"did you know, tyler told me he has to get like the biggest cup size for his thing he wears to protect his nuts in baseball." josh nodded

"really?" ryan laughed. "well i mean i guess i can believe it." he shrugged.

"i didn't know they had different sizes at first." josh said.

"yeah that's weird i didn't either." ryan giggled. tyler scored a three pointer.

the game went by normal, tyler ended up with 31 points. the final score was 68-24.

tyler came out of the locker room  in his uniform with his basketball nike backpack on his back. his school one was in his truck. he had his phone and a water bottle in his hand. he went and talked to his family, before meeting up with josh and them.

"you played great!" josh said, giving him a hug.

"thanks." he smiled, blushing a bit.

"yeah good game bro." brendon said, bro shaking him. dallon emma and ryan all told him good job also.

"take a picture with me." josh said. he handed his phone to ryan as tyler stood by him. he wrapped his arm around josh's shoulders, leaning down a bit in the process since josh was so short. josh has his arm behind tylers back. josh smiled with his teeth, and #
tyler had a closed lip smirk.

"well, good game." josh said, posting that picture on his story with "#3 but also #1" as his caption.

"do y'all wanna do something this weekend?" brendon asked, wrapping his arms around ryan from the back.

"sure, think of something." josh said.

"you in tyler?" he said.

"really?" tyler said. he didn't mean to sound so desperate. he really wanted to hang out with his friends again. he missed it so much.

"yeah. maybe come to my house or something." brendon said. they were making plans way in advance, since it was only Monday. the game was set on a weird date.

"yeah, yeah that'd be fun." tyler said.

"we're gonna head out." dallon said. he bro shaked tyler, before saying bye to everyone else, as well as emma.

"did you see that? he doesn't hate me." tyler whispered to josh.

"no, he doesn't. none of us do." josh giggled. "now, you need to get home and take a shower, you smell almost as bad as brendon."

A/N: 😗✌🏻filler chap ngl

so therapy went really good. my therapist is super nice. i feel really safe with. my mom is calling the doctor tuesday, and we're gonna see about an antidepressant

it's scary, it really is. but it'll be okay. i know it will.