"i'm going to ryan's house. see you later." josh said to his parents.

"alright be safe i love you." laura said, bill also saying bye. josh shut the door and headed to his car.

he backed out of the driveway, turning on the road that led him to tylers neighborhood. it was 1:30pm right now, and josh had just eaten lunch.

he pulled into tylers driveway once he arrived, seeing the familiar red truck parked next to him. he was nervous, he hadn't been to tylers house in so long.

he grabbed his phone, drink, bag, and keys before he got out and shut the door behind him. he walked up to the door and opened it, smiling as the familiar scent hit his nose.

"hey josh, what're you doing here?" kelly smiled. josh forgot how much he missed them.

"hey i just came to talk to tyler." he said.

"tyler said y'all don't talk as much anymore. that should change i miss you!" she said, hugging him.

"yeah i missed y'all too." he said, smiling at chris. he said hey to maddy who was coloring in the floor and then gave jay a big big hug.

"zacks in his room." kelly said, josh nodding. "tyler just made himself a sandwich, would you like one?" she asked.

"no thank you i just ate. i'm gonna go talk to him though." he nodded.

"alright, call if you need anything." she smiled. he nodded, walking up the stairs and making his way to tylers door. he saw the little stickers on his door and smiled. they just spelled out his name and then he had a basketball and baseball sticker on them. jay made all the kids do that to their rooms.

he knocked slightly, before cracking the door open and then opening it all the way. tyler looked up, having just taken a bite out of his sandwich. he smiled a bit, before wiping his mouth with his napkin and swallowing.

"hey, sorry it's my lunch." he chuckled slightly. "you want anything?" he asked.

"i'm good i just ate." he said.

"sit." tyler nodded, turning down his tv. josh nodded, sitting down on the end of tylers bed. tyler was just in his basketball shorts and he was wearing his glasses.

"here." josh said, handing him the walmart sack. it had his clothes in it.

"oh, thanks. j was wondering where my slides were." he nodded, putting them down. "what did you need to talk to me about?" he asked, taking another bite out of his sandwich.

"uhm. well. max found out." he said. tyler looked up at him, slowly chewing and swallowing.

"he what?"

"he found out." josh repeated.

"oh." tyler said. "how?"

"i uhm. i didn't know your clothes were still just in the floor. and he found the condom wrapper." josh nodded.

"oh. y'all don't use magnums." tyler slightly chuckled. "i'm sorry. are you okay?"

"i'm okay. i feel terrible. i don't know if max is okay." josh said. tyler nodded, feeling guilty. for everything.

"so, you and max are done?" tyler asked.

"yeah." josh nodded. tyler nodded, staying silent. josh didn't know what to say.

"do you think, you could give me another chance?" he finally said. josh sighed.

"tyler," he said, having to stop and wait til the burning in his throat went away. "i can't. i'm sorry. i cant go back to you. not right now at least. you hurt me too much."

"i'm sorry." tyler said quietly. he set his sandwich down, he lost his appetite.

"i know you are." josh said.

"want the rest?" tyler let out a weak little laugh. josh smiled.

"no thanks." he said. tyler set the plate on his nightstand.

"so, is that what you came to tell me?" tyler asked.

"yeah pretty much. i just thought i'd tell you in person." josh said.

"can we unblock each other. on everything?" tyler asked.

"yeah. yeah i'd like that." josh nodded. tyler was back in his life. he needed that. they both needed that.

"here." tyler said, holding out his snapcode." josh added him off of it. tyler added him back. they unblocked each other on messages too.

"please don't leave again." tyler said too quiet for josh to hear.

"huh?" josh said.

"please don't. please don't leave me again." tyler said.

"i don't have a reason to." josh said.

"and i'm gonna keep it that way. i promise. i'm done with the fucking around josh." tyler said.

"tyler, i told you. i don't want anything right now." josh said.

"you don't want anything?" tyler asked.

"i'm taking a break. from boys from everything. i need to better myself before anything." josh said. tyler nodded.

"uh yeah, yeah" he swallowed. he was hurt, and josh could tell. "that's fine yeah."

"listen," josh started. he grabbed tylers hand. "i believe you. i believe you've changed. i just need time tyler. it's still a fresh wound. it still hurts. you called me a slut tyler. you told me that my mom didn't love me. that's not something i can just forget." josh said.

"i know. i know. i'm sorry. i didn't mean it. you're not a slut. you're perfect." tyler said. "but i don't get it. you called me stuff too. and i can move past it. i wanna be with you josh."

"i know you do. and i know i said stuff i didn't mean too. i know and i'm sorry. i just need time ty." josh said again.

"i want you to be my baby again." tyler said, squeezing josh's hand with both of his hands.

"i know." he nodded.

"i don't want to lose you."

"i don't either. i don't. we can be friends ty. you can hang with us again, and stuff. like it used to be. i just don't want to be in a relationship right now." josh said. tylers eyes lit up.

"really? brendon doesn't hate me? and ryan? and expecially dallon and emma?" tyler asked.

"they can move past it. brendon and ryan know. i haven't talked to dallon and emma yet. they don't hate you ty. not anymore at least." josh said. tyler nodded.

"good. yeah that's good. i'm gonna, i should apologize to dallon and emma in person." tyler said.

"yeah that'd be smart." josh nodded.

"you look good." tyler said, eyes roaming up and down joshs body.

"thanks. yeah you do too. the glasses." josh smiled, tyler blushing.

"whatever." he chuckled. "what do you wanna watch?" tyler asked.

"this is fine." josh nodded. he was watching the office. josh moved so he was sitting next to tyler against the headboard.

"ima go throw this away unless you want it." tyler said, holding his plate up.

"nah i'm good." he said. tyler nodded and stood up. josh eyed his body as he walked off because it doesnt matter who you are, if tyler doesn't have a shirt on you're gonna check him out.

josh forgot how happy it made him to just genuinely be around tyler. the way his voice sounded and the way he talked and everything.

"i hate myself." tyler said when he opened the door.

"why? what is that?" josh started laughing. tyler grey basketball shorts were soaked in the front.

"i ran into the fucking wall and poured my drink
all over me." he said, setting his refilled cup on his dresser.

"wait wait." josh started laughing, grabbing his phone and videoing tyler. he zoomed in on his pants and then on his face.   he debated if he should put it on his story, and he decided not to. max was still on his snap and even though him and tyler weren't doing anything he didn't want anyone to think they were.

"i'm such a dumbass." he laughed, grabbing a new pair of boxers and some white nike shorts. josh giggled, watching as tyler slid off his shorts, being left in his grey calvin klein's. josh blushed, turning back to the tv. it was tylers turn to turn red now, as he remembered he couldn't just change in front of josh anymore. he walked into the bathroom and shut the door.

he came back out, after having peed and washed his hands. he grabbed his cup and walked back to the bed.

"want some?" tyler asked, holding his cup out.

"what is it?" josh asked.

"it's peach sunny d it's really good." tyler said. josh grabbed the cup and took a sip.

"oh yeah it is wow." josh said. tyler nodded and took another drink before setting it back on his nightstand.

they fell to a comfortable silence, as they watched the tv. josh couldn't help to remember,,, right there in the bed he's sitting on, tyler had him pinned down and tied up, blindfolded and choked right where he's sitting. he was learning a new side of tyler. the sweet tyler. the one who doesn't care about making constant sexual comments and stuff. the tyler that just wants to hang out.

but he couldn't help to think about all the stuff they've done in that bed, causing his pants to tighten. "fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck no no." he thought.

he sat up and pulled the blankets up over himself, tyler nodding and getting comfortable under them too. of course this didn't help josh, as he now just felt closer to tyler.  he grabbed his phone and texted ryan.

j: i hate myself

r: why?😂

j: i'm a tylers right
j: we talk, everything's good, now we're just chilling right

r: yeah...

j: my brain decides to remind about every single time we fucked in this bed and now my cock is the size of a fucking remote control

r: YOU DID NOT JUST COMPARE YOUR DICK TO A FUCKING REMOTE CONTROL

J: IT WAS THE ONLY THING I COULD THINK OF

R: like a dish or a direct tv one

j: like the dish ones idk the big ones

r: thats kinda hot

j: ikr
j: WHAT DO I DO I CANT MAKE IT GO AWAY IT HURTS NOW

r: think about my grandma

j: ur grandma is sexy tho

r: i know that's not a good example

j: stfu
j: i'll just deal with it
j: fuck

r: that's so funny
r: good luck bby

josh rolled his eyes and turned his phone back off, shifting a bit in the bed.  he just couldn't stop thinking. it's like he just remembered that he had a full on sexual relationship with the guy sitting inches away from him. not to mention who has a 9 inch cock. he was just so pretty.

josh sighed and took his juul out, taking a long hit off of it before putting it back in his pocket. grabbed himself, and attempted to adjust it better. he squeezed his thighs together and bit down on his lip.

"i'd fuck dwight." tyler said, josh jumping. "what?" tyler laughed.

"nothing i was zoned out you scared me." he said, face red.

"ohh." tyler nodded.

"did you say you'd fuck dwight?" josh laughed. "god i wish you'd fuck me right now" he thought.

"yeah. it'd be enjoyable i feel like." tyler nodded.

"understandable." josh nodded.

j: WHAT DO I DO

r: GO TO THE BATHROOM

j: WHAT IF HE SEES

r: he won't if you just hide it good enough. and he's not gonna say anything if he does see

j: what am i supposed to do in the bathroom

r: beat it

j: I HATE BEING A BOY

josh turned his phone off, his hands shaking.

"i gotta go to the bathroom." he said.

"okay." tyler nodded. josh bit his lip a little bit, as he awkwardly slid down the bed and tried to keep the blankets on him. he was on the side of the bed that was against the wall.

tyler looked at him weird, but didn't say anything, as he grabbed his own phone.

josh stood up and walked to the bathroom, ignoring tylers eyes on him.

"fuck." josh grumbled, looking down and seeing his bulge. he closed the toilet lid and sat down, before reaching in his pants and pulling his dick out.

he closed his eyes, spitting in his hand and wrapping it around hinself. he bit his lip as he started pumping.

he imagined tyler fucking him hard into the mattress. he imagined tyler in him, his fingers his tongue his dick. he imagined his mouth around tyler, making him cum, making him moan out.

"o-oh." he gasped quietly, his hand speed quickening. he bucked up a bit into his hand. he swiped his thumb across the tip, wiping away the precum that spilled out.

he clenched his teeth and closed his eyes as he felt the burn in his stomach. it dropped, and he quickly grabbed some toilet paper as he released his load onto it with a silent moan. "fuck." he quietly cursed, holding onto himself as he came down from his high.

he stood up with shaky legs, covering himself back up and heading to the sink. he washed his hands, and went back into tylers room.

"have fun?" tyler asked.

"huh?" josh said.

"have fun?" he smiled.

"i guess." josh blushed.

"i don't think i've ever jacked off in your bathroom." tyler said. joshs face went red.

"w-why, how do you, what?" josh said.

"please, i watched you pull the blankets over your boner, and watched to try to cover it, and heard you, and you didn't flush." tyler said. i guess josh wasn't so sneaky.

"sorry." he laughed.

"no problem but next time i come over i'm jacking off in your bathroom."

A/N: teehee

i see my counselor tomorrow for the first time

this chapter is dedicated to chickenstrippers because i love her