josh took in a deep breath, yawning and feeling arms wrapped around him from the back. he smiled, stretching a bit.

"ty." he tiredly smiled, rolling over and pausing when he saw max. memories from yesterday flooded his mind. luckily, max was still asleep.

josh just watched him, admiring his features. he looked so peaceful, so content. his mouth and eyes was closed, long dark eyelashes resting on his cheeks, face against the pillow. his breathing was soft and quiet, his eyebrows slightly arched down.

he set his hand on maxs cheek, softly stroking his thumb across his cheekbone. maxs face twitched a bit, before his eyes fluttered open. he smiled.

"hey." josh said.

"hi." max replied, staring back at josh. their faces were an inch apart, maxs arm still wrapped around josh and their legs still tangled together.

"how'd you sleep, beautiful?" max said, joshs cheeks turning red.

"amazing with you right next to me." josh said, closing his eyes and smiling.

"me too. me too." max said. he closed his eyes too. both boys just laid there, eyes closed, exchanging body heat under joshs warm comforter like they were the only two people in the world. josh hand still rested on maxs face. he felt, wondering why he didn't feel the little scar right under tylers left eye, that he got from a basketball game.

"we didn't go to school." josh said. they both slept through the alarms.

"s'okay. didn't need to." max said.

their personal little bubble broke when joshs door opened.

"joshua, max?" laura said, josh rolling over and seeing his mom in his doorway.

"yeah?" he asked.

"i was just, just checking." she slightly frowned.

"i should go." max said.

"you don't have to." josh said.

"it's fine. i'll text you." he said, awkwardly staying under the blankets.

"what?" josh asked.

"i uh. i don't know where my boxers are." he whispered, as laura was still in the doorway, waiting to talk to josh.

josh looked and felt around, finding them in the bed. he handed them to him, max sliding them on under the blankets before he got up, embarrassingly using his hand to cover himself and his slight morning wood as he slid on his shorts, shirt, and shoes.

"bye." he said, laura smiling at him as she stepped by and let him leave. josh rubbed his eyes, siting up as laura walked in and shut the door. she looked at his shirtless chest, josh blushing and pulling the blankets up as he realized he was still covered in tylers hickeys.

"did he stay all night?" laura said, sitting down on the edge of his bed.

"yeah." he nodded.

"whats going on josh." she said, josh avoiding eye contact.

"i-i don't know." he said.

"it's okay baby. i want you to be honest with me." she said.

"well... max came after tyler left to get clothes,"

"yeah he told us. i just assumed to let him up i thought y'all were friends."

"we dated. before tyler. i cheated on him. twice." josh bit his lip as his throat started to burn and his eyes watered up.

"with tyler?" laura asked, josh nodding. laura scooted on the bed, josh leaning his head on her shoulder.

"i told him i loved him momma." josh said.

"max?" she asked.

"yeah."

"do you?" she grabbed his hand.

"i don't know." he said, voice shaky.

"do you love tyler?" she said.

"....i don't know." he repeated, taking a little longer to answer. "i'm confused. tyler hurt me. i feel like a dumbass for believing anything he said. he doesn't love me. he doesn't care about me." josh blinked a few tears. "but i care about him. after everything he did to me i still care and want him back."

"what about max?" laura asked.

"maxs cares about me. he told me he loved me back. all he's ever been to me is sweet. i've hurt him so many times and he still came back. the words he says to me mom...they make me happy. he makes me happy." josh said, trying to think of the words to say. "but i. i don't know. i miss tyler."

"if you could trade max for tyler, would you?" laura asked.

"....no?" he said.

"no?" laura said.

"i don't think so." he said.

"tyler hurt you. think of what he did baby. do you really love him after that?" she said. josh sniffed.

"i don't know." he said.

"stick with max. he's good for you joshua. or maybe you just need to be alone. maybe neither. i don't like seeing my boy hurt so much. you're caught up on the boys right now and you don't need that. you're better than that." she said.

"i know." he nodded. "i like max. i love max. i love him. yeah, i love him."

laura just took a deep breath, knowing that anything she said wasn't gonna change joshs stubborn mind.

"just promise me you're gonna stay safe." laura said.

"i promise." josh nodded.

"i love you." laura hugged him.

"i love you too." josh replied, laura getting up. josh got up also. she walked out, josh following.

"uh. put a shirt on." laura smiled, josh blushing before he grabbed maxs hoodie he left and slid it on, it swallowing his smaller frame.

he followed laura downstairs, seeing breakfast on the stove that laura just made. eggs bacon and toast.

"staying home today?" bill smiled at him.

"yeah." he nodded, fixing his plate and taking his seat on the couch. he ate, setting his plate in his lap as he grabbed his phone.

he saw that max added him on snapchat again, because after they broke up they unadded each other. he added him back, opening max's snap. it was a picture of his tired face and he was in his truck. josh blushed as he read "i'm hard"

he smiled, snapping a picture of his plate in his lap, being able to tell he's in his boxers still. "come back. i miss you"

"you gonna miss anything at school today?" laura said.

"nah. if we get work ryan will get it for me. he takes all the same classes i do." josh said, laura nodding.

"well good morning my sweet boy." laura smiled, as jordan came from downstairs and climbed in her lap, a tired look on his face and his hair messy and everywhere. he laid on her, face buried in her shoulder as a fell asleep again.

"i remember when you were this small joshua." laura said. "you used to do this exact same thing, come down here and go back to sleep in my lap."

"really?" he chuckled a bit. jordan does a lot of things that josh used to do.

"mhm. you would come and sleep for another hour." she said, hearing jordan whine.

"mommy." he whined.

"what, baby?" she asked.

"be quiet." he said, laura and everyone laughing.

"sorry." she said, josh laughing again. he opened max's snap. it was a picture of him at his house, with a starbucks coffee in his hand with his keys also in his hand. "okay, i miss you too. you want me to bring you something?"

josh took a picture of his face smiling. "a coffee sounds good. surprise me:)"

he set his phone on the couch, while he went up to his room for a second. he grabbed his juul and took a hit, before he went pee and brushed his teeth. he took another big one,  throwing it on his bed and heading back downstairs.

he went back to the couch, grabbing his phone and opening max's snap of his smiling face. "yes sir. see you in a bit"

he answered with a pic of the tv and said "okay:)". it wasn't long after until the front door opened and max walked in.

"hey." laura said, max smiling and saying hey back. he handed josh his coffee, sitting down next to him on the couch.

"thank you." josh smiled.

"no problem. see if you like it." he said, josh taking a sip of the iced coffee.

"it's good." he nodded.

"good. it's what i got too." he said.

"so, max do you play any sports?" bill asked.

"i don't play with the school, but i'm on a fall and summer soccer team." he said, bill nodding.

jordan whined again, hearing people talking. he rolled over and yawned, rubbing his eyes before he opened them.

"josh!" he said once he saw his brother sitting on the couch. he got up and ran to him, climbing in his lap.

"hey bud." he smiled, max "aw'ing".

"is school done?" he asked.

"nope, i just didn't go today." he said. "this is max, you've met him before." josh said.

"is max your new boyfriend?" jordan said.

"yeah." he smiled, jordan waving at him.

"he looks just like you." max said.

"yeah that's what everyone says." josh nodded, jordan turning and watching tv.

they all watched tv for a bit, before max nudged josh. "hm?"

"i uh, hate to ruin the fun... but i'm kinda, ya know." max whispered, josh giggling.

"kinda what?" he smirked.

"in the mood." max said.

"in the mood?" josh asked.

"yeah." he said.

"well what can i do about that?" josh asked.

"i don't wanna say with your little brother in you lap." max said.

"well let's go to my room then." josh said.

"let's." max nodded, josh picking jordan up and standing up. 

"we're gonna head to my room." josh said.

"okay." laura nodded.

"jordan?" josh said, when jordan followed them to the stairs.

"what?" he asked.

"uh, can you uhm." josh started.

"jordan, stay down here buddy. you don't wanna be in there with them, i promise." laura said.

A/N: short chapter!

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