"wassup bitch." josh said to ryan who was already sitting in the chair. today was the monday after their little hotel vacation, and study hall had just started.

"hey joshua." ryan smiled, josh setting his stuff down and grabbing his phone.

"where's em?"'josh asked.

"she went to the bathroom real quick. hit her period this morning." he said. even though emma was on birth control, she still had a light period because hers was very heavy before.

"aw that sucks. at least she hit it after this weekend." he shrugged, ryan nodding.

"i'm so fuckin tired bro. this weekend wore me the fuck out." ryan stretched, yawning and wincing. "and brendon wore my ass out last period." he sighed.

"where at?" josh giggled.

"the janitors closet. brendon is the janitors drug dealer so he gave him a key." ryan said, josh laughing.

"hey emma." josh smiled, laughing at her annoyed face. "hey, just think, at least you're not pregnant."

"thank god for that." emma said.

"what's wrong?" josh asked her when he saw she was staring off, her lip anxiously inbetween her teeth. 

"i-its nothing." she smiled, the boys knowing it was fake.

"seriously babe, you can tell us anything." ryan said. "are you actually pregnant?"

"no, no i'm not pregnant. i just.. i don't know if i should tell y'all." she said.

"tell us, em. it's okay." josh smiled, sitting up in his chair.

"promise you won't be mad at me." she said.

"promise." they both said.

"at the..at the hotel uh. when we were in the pool, i went to the bathroom ya know?" she said, the boys nodding. "well tyler was there too. and he um. he made a move josh." she said, stuttering and forcing herself to say it out loud.

"what?" josh asked, swallowing hard.

"he wanted to have sex. a-and we kissed. i realized what i was doing and pushed him off and told him no and he made me promise i wouldn't say anything." she said, her heart hurting as she watched josh process it. "please don't be mad at me." she said, tearing up a bit.

"no, no i'm not mad at you em." josh said, setting his hand on her knee and rubbing it. "it's not your fault. did he-um," josh blinked, trying to get it through his head if he was hearing right. "did he say anything about me?"

-flashback-

"shit yeah i gotta pee too. i didn't know there was bathrooms." tyler said, hopping out of the pool and heading towards the bathroom. he waited outside of them, until emma came out.

"oh, hey ty you scared me." emma laughed, walking by him.

"wait em, can i talk to you for a sec?" tyler asked. emma walked back in front of him.

"yeah sure, what's up? is it about josh?" she said, tyler smiling a bit.

"kinda. no not really." he shook his head, stepping closer. "it's about you." he said.

"...okay. what's up?" she said again.

"you're unbelievably hot. you remember when we fucked?" tyler asked.

"yeah. a long time ago. why?" she said, tyler eyes scanning down to her breasts, and then back up to her eyes.

"i wanna do it again." he smirked, stepping a bit closer.

"you do?" emma said, tylers hand resting on the curve of her back.

"you can't tell me you don't." tyler said, emma gasping as tyler leaned in and set his lips on hers. she stiffened, before kissing back. tyler slid their tongues together, emma whimpering when he bit her tongue. she opened her eyes as tylers hand slid down to her ass and squeezed, before pulling back and pushing him off.

"no. n-no tyler. i have a boyfriend. and so do you!" she said.

"shhhhh baby no ones gonna find out." tyler said.

"i'm not gonna do this tyler. i love dallon. and i love josh." she said.

"well dallon, and josh don't have to know." he said.

"how can you do that to josh. that boy is crazy over you." emma said.

"been doin it the whole time." he shrugged.

"do you not care about him like at all?" she said.

"i care about him. i like josh. just not enough to drop everything and everybody for him. you know me." he said, emma scoffing.

"i can't believe you." she shook her head.

"alright, well if you're not down to fuck- are you?" he said.

"no!" she whisper screamed.

"alright alright," he chuckled. "do me a favor and just don't tell josh. or dallon or anyone." tyler said.

"you're disgusting." she said.

"come on em. promise me?" he smiled. "you did kiss back." he said.

"i promise." she said.

"there ya go babygirl." tyler said. she just rolled her eyes, pushing past him and putting a smile on her face as she headed back to the pool, tyler following behind her.

-end flashback-

"i'm sorry josh. i'm so fucking sorry." emma said.

"don't be. its not your fault." he said, sitting back in his chair a bit. ryan and emma were watching him, as he was just staring at the ground.

"are you okay josh?" ryan asked, josh looking up at him.

"uh. yeah. i'm-im okay." he nodded, licking his lips.

"joshua." ryan said, more sternly.

"why?" josh said, looking up with teary eyes.

"what?" ryan asked.

"why me? why did he do this to me? i thought...i thought i was different. he told me i was different." josh said, his tone becoming more angry.

"joshua baby, that's just who he is. he's a dickhead. and it's my fault for letting you get hurt. i should've done more. i'm sorry." ryan said, scooting his chair closer to josh's.

"i-... it's not your fault." josh said, squeezing ryan's hand as he grabbed it. "it's mine. it's not your fault and it's not your fault either emma. im the one who didn't listen to you in the first place ry." he sighed.

"what are you gonna do?" ryan asked softly, heart breaking at the sight of josh so confused and hurt.

"i-i don't know. what can i do?" josh said.

"confront him baby. confront his ass and make him feel like shit for hurting such a beautiful sweet boy like you." emma said.

"what do i say? what do i tell my parents? what about dallon? brendon's like his bestfriend. what do we do?" josh said. he had so many questions. he didn't like change.

"we'll handle brendon and dallon. tell him what you feel josh. tell your parents what happened. none of this is your fault." ryan said. josh softy nodded, sniffling a bit.

"it's gonna be okay. he doesn't deserve you." ryan said.

"he was so sweet with me, ry. he cared for me. he did things for me that he wouldn't do for anyone else. i mean, every second of the day unless we were together he was texting me. how am i supposed to go to school and see him? i cheated on max for him." josh said.

"i know josh. i know. he was sweet with you. and i really, have never seen him act like that before, that's why i really believed him. he's an asshole, who doesn't care about anybody but himself. he knows he has looks and he uses that to manipulate people. he's the one that's gonna suffer from this josh. he's the one who's gonna realize how amazing you are and is gonna want to come crawling back." ryan said.

"why can't he realize that now? why can't i have him now? he's the one i want." josh said, tears now falling down his face.

"because now he's gonna realize how much he's missing out without you in his life. you need to be strong and move on baby, let him hurt, not you." ryan said.

"he's not gonna care. he doesn't and never cared about me. and i had sex with him. i feel like an idiot. i am an idiot." josh cursed at himself.

"you're not joshua. and he will care. let him go." emma said, rubbing his back.

"i'm so stupid." he said, laughing at himself. he looked at his lock screen, which was a picture of tyler he took. tyler was smiling, eyes closed. he had som scruff on his chin, and his hair was messy and in his face. you could see his earrings. tylers lock screen was a picture of josh like that. "he's perfect." josh mumbled.

"all he has is looks. you're way better than him." ryan said.

"i guess." he mumbled. he wasn't crying anymore. just staring.

"i love you." ryan smiled.

"me too." emma said.

"i love y'all too. thank you." he said, a sad smile on his face.

"you're being really strong." ryan said.

"have to be. i mean we were raised to believe that, right?" he chuckled.

"you're gonna be okay." ryan said. josh looked at the time. 5 more minutes until school was dismissed. tyler was still in practice.

the five minutes went by, josh just stared. the bell rang, everyone standing up and grabbing their stuff. ryan and emma both hugged josh.

"do you want me to come over?" ryan asked, saying bye to emma as she left.

"no it's okay. i'll be okay." josh said.

"text me." ryan said, kissing joshs cheek before hugging him again and leaving. josh sighed, slinging his backpack on and walking into the lobby.

"hey baby, there you are." he heard, turning and seeing tyler walking away from his friend group. josh didn't say anything, turning his head away and continuing walking.

"josh, hey?" tyler said, catching up to him.

"leave me alone." josh said, still not looking at the boy.

"fine, bitch. the fucks your problem?" tyler said, stopping walking. josh just kept on, going to the parking lot and to his car.

"hey josh!" abbie said.

"what?" he snapped, abbie jumping a bit.

"i was just saying hey.." she said, looking down at her legs.

"hey." he said sternly.

"dude, what's up with you?" ashley said.

"nothing." josh said, pulling out onto the road and driving.

"well, sounds like somethings up. you made abbie think you're mad at her." ashley said.

"i'm fucking fine! leave me the fuck alone now." he yelled, ashley jumping. abbie sniffed, trying to hide that she was crying.

"dude, don't cuss in. front of her like that. i don't know what the hell your problem is but it's nothing we did so don't take it out on us. say sorry to abbie." ashley sternly said.

"sorry abbs. i didnt mean it i just had a bad day." he said, seeing her nod in the review mirror.

"now, chill out." ashley said.

"just, leave me alone right now." josh said, ashley scoffing but not saying anything back. she didn't wanna fuel the fire.

he pulled into his house, his phone ringing. he saw tyler was calling, pushing the decline button and heading up to his room without a word to either parent.

Ty!✨: what the hell is wrong with you
Ty!✨: stop being a bitch i'm just trying to help

josh rolled his eyes. tyler had the nerve to call josh the bitch. josh was too angry to be sad right now.

"i'm such a fucking idiot." josh said, throwing his pillow across his room. he brought his knees up to his chest, hugging them tight as he laid down and sobbed into them.

A/N: part one 😁

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