josh laughed, taking a drink of his beer. brendon had just said something funny about this guy that they don't like. josh, brendon, ryan, emma, dallon, and tyler were all sitting around a table outside at a party.

the rest of the group was distracted, so tyler looked at josh and scoffed a bit, shaking his head.

"what?" josh asked.

"you and max have some fun?" he said, referring to his hickey.

"none of your business." josh replied.

"he suck your dick? or did you suck his." tyler said.

"i did his. why does it matter." josh said.

"no it doesn't. i'm just thinking about how good you did me. and when you're gonna do it again." tyler smirked, scooting closer to josh. they were sitting on a couch together.

"who says i'm gonna do it again?" josh asked.

"me." tyler slightly bit his lip, flicking his eyes down to joshs lips. he leaned in a bit, josh leaning back.

"no, we're not gonna do that." josh said, tyler still leaned over.

"come on, let's go to a room." he said quietly.

"i can't." josh shook his head. it hurt josh to say that because of how much he would love to go to a room and feel tyler all over him.

"max isn't here. i'm not gonna tell him. just real quick. i'll blow you." tyler set his hand on joshs thigh, josh certainly feeling the effects of tylers touch.

"i told max i wouldn't ever do it again. i can't. i really like max." josh said.

"if you change your mind i'm right here." tyler smirked.

josh just nodded, turning his attention back to his friends.

"josh, ty, y'all wanna do the beer bong?" brendon asked. they had a huge beer bong that had 6 tubes coming out of it. they went over to do it.

"wassup B, you got my weed?" the host of the party asked, bro shaking brendon.

"yeah bro, it's right here." he said, pulling a baggy out of his pocket.

"sweet, thanks! y'all gonna hit the beer bong?" he said, paying brendon the money.

"hell yeah." he said. the group(except for emma, the dd for tonight) took their spots around the funnel, people standing on ladders pouring different types of fruity alcohol and beer in it, filling the huge bowl up. everybody started counting down from 5, when they hit 0 they started chanting "chug". everybody opened the valves on their tube, sucking down the alcohol.

everybody drank until it was empty, brendon probably drinking the most out of everyone.

"holy shit. what the fuck did y'all pour in there?" brendon laughed.

"a bunch of shit to get y'all fucked up." they said, everyone laughing.

"mother fucker holy shit." tyler laughed, everybody feeling it kick in. they went from not even touched to about drunk.

"come on, let's go dance!" ryan said, the group following him into the hosue where the music was playing and everybody was dancing.

"come on ty!" josh said, grabbing tylers hand and starting to dance with him.

"i thought we weren't gonna do this?" tyler said, sober enough to at least remember that conversation.

"so what, max isn't here!" josh smiled, setting tylers hands on his hips.

"you sure?" he asked.

"positive!" he yelled over the music. tyler leaned down and kissed him, tasting the alcohol on both their tongues. they moved together ignoring everybody around them.

"hey josh! you havin fun?" ryan giggled as they bumped into each other.

"tylers such a good kisser oh my goddddd!" he groaned, ryan laughing.

"what happened to max?" he asked.

"he's not here, and it's not like we're dating." he shrugged.

"alright, have fun! suck some dick!" he laughed, dancing back with brendon.

"cmere." tyler said, picking josh up and digging his fingernails into his ass. josh wrapped his legs and arms around tyler as they made out, tyler slamming him down on the couch. the people sitting there got up, so they took up the whole couch as they kissed. tyler grinded his hips down hard into joshs.

"fuck your so fucking hot." josh mumbled, kissing his cheek.

"i wanna rip your clothes off so fuckin bad." tyler said, biting his lip.

"do it. i don't care about this shirt." josh said, tyler smirking and grabbing the collar of his shirt. he pulled hard, and ripped the fabric, continuing down until it was all the way ripped off.

"mmmm oh." josh moaned as tyler palmed him through his pants.

"so sexy." tyler mumbled.

"mmfuck oh fuck, oh fuck no fuck get off tyler get off." josh panicked, pushing tyler off.

"what what?" tyler said frustrated.

"oh fuck, wait! max wait!" he yelled, pushing through the crowds of people, leaving tyler on the couch with his ripped off shirt in his hand.

"max!" he yelled once he opened the front door and saw max heading to his truck. josh instantly sobered up.

"wait, let me talk to you!" josh yelled.

"fuck. off." max said, continuing to walk. he had to park a ways off because it was so full. he came with his friends. he just got there, so he didn't drink anything other than a few sips of beer.

"can we just talk please." he said, running a bit to catch up.

"what is there to talk about?" he laughed, stopping and turning to face him.

"i'm sorry. i'm drunk off my ass. i don't know what i'm doing. please max." he said, going to grab his hand but max pulling away.

"if you did it drunk, you're doing sober, just hiding it better. i'm done." he said.

"max listen that was the first time since the last time,  i just drank to much i'm sorry."

"you know, i was planning on taking you on a date tomorrow, a real nice one. and i was gonna ask you to be my boyfriend. i can't believe i was stupid enough to trust you." max laughed.

josh didn't say anything, tears running down his face. he watched as max walked away as he stood there on the sidewalk.

"josh, josh, come here it's okay come here." ryan said once he caught up with josh, the rest of the gang following behind him.

josh ignored him, just staring at the spot where max drove off. he was crying but the tears were just running down his face at this point. he wasn't making any noise, just standing and watching.

"josh come here." ryan said, pulling josh in for a hug. this is when josh collapsed on ryan, sobbing into his shoulder.

"FUCK ryan why am i so FUCKING STUPID!"  he yelled, cussing some more.

"calm down babe, you need to calm down. you're okay." he said, rubbing the back of his head.

"get the fuck out of my way." he said, moving dallon over a bit and storming off back to the party.

"josh what are you doing?" brendon yelled, the group chasing after him.

josh burst back into the house, his eyes landing on tyler who was now sitting on the arm of the couch and was talking to his friends. he was still holding joshs ripped shirt.

"josh, hey where'd you go?" tyler kinda chuckled, forgetting about the whole situation.

"fuck you, fuck you, fuck you." tyler said, hitting tylers chest.

"hey hey hey baby, what's goin on?" he said, pulling josh over to a corner where people couldn't hear them.

"i fucking hate you, fuck." he said, collapsing on tyler with his hands around his neck.

"what'd i do?" tyler furrowed his eyebrows, kinda pushing josh off him.

josh still cried, going to say something but instead aggressively pushing their lips together. tyler was caught of guard, but eventually took over the kiss. he brought his hand up to cup joshs jaw, using his other to tangle in his hair.

josh slightly pushed tyler, him understanding as he picked josh up and carried him to a bedroom. he shut the door, setting josh down and climbing on top.

he kissed at joshs neck, the smaller boy moaning and whining.

"oh wait shit nah, you saw max. i remember now. nah you all fucked up." tyler remember, getting off the boy.

"no, come back, please." he said, tyler sitting on the edge of the bed.

"no, your drunk and upset and you don't know what you're doing.come on, you need to go to sleep or something." tyler said, brushing joshs hair out of his face.

"i'm sorry." josh said, covering his face with his hands. "i'm the one that fucked up. it's not your fault. "

"come here. it's okay." tyler sighed, pulling josh in his lap to hug him.

"no it's not. i'm getting mad at you but i'm the one that chose to do this. i'm the stupid fuck up who ruined a relationship with the best guy in the world." josh ranted. tyler was about to say something, but the door bust open. the whole group walked in.

brendon gave tyler sorta a bad look, tylers face turned red as he gave an embarrassed smile.

"joshua, you okay?" ryan asked, sitting on the bed and rubbing his back.

"no. i'm an idiot." he sighed, getting off tyler and sitting on the bed so he was facing everybody.

"sorry to ruin your fun, i'm okay here y'all can go back to partying." josh said.

"no no no. we're not leaving you. you're not okay." ryan said, josh breaking down crying again. he pulled him in for a hug.

"tyler, a word?" brendon said, motioning for him and tyler to step into the bathroom that was in that room. tyler rolled his eyes and following him in there.

"dude, what the fuck? you knew he was dating max." brendon said, pushing his shoulder.

"listen man, he was the one that came on to me. i asked before we were drunk and he said no and then we both got wasted and he came in on me." tyler defended himself.

"still, you should've known better. he's my friend man." brendon said.

"i know. and i like josh. i don't know, i just like being with him i guess." tyler shrugged.

"really? this isn't another one of your fuckboy type things?" brendon asked.

"i don't think so." he shook his head.

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"oh. well i think he likes you too. he wouldn't be doing all that shit with you if he didn't. and i don't know what the hell he's told ryan." brendon said.

"alright. well i'm just gonna have to talk to him when we're less fucked up." tyler let out a weak chuckle. him and tyler bro shaked before they left the bathroom.

they walked out and saw josh asleep with his head across ryan's lap, the rest of the group sitting on the bed and talking.

"he okay?" brendon asked.

"don't know yet." ryan answered, brendon nodding.

"y'all just gonna crash here or what?" tyler asked.

"me and josh will. emma, can you take everybody to brendon's house?" ryan asked.

"yeah of course." she nodded, patting josh's leg before they all got up and said their goodbyes and left the room. all but tyler. "hey guys, wait up." he said.

"you can go, i'll stay with him." tyler said.

"i don't know if he'll want to see you in the morning." ryan chuckled.

"listen ry, i'm sorry. i like josh alright. i feel bad." he said, running his hand through his hair.

"really? you like him?" ryan asked.

"yes. i actually do. i haven't felt like this with anyone before." tyler sat down on the bed.

"how don't know if you're lying?" ryan said.

"you don't. but you just gotta trust me ry, he's different." tyler said.

"you want to stay with him?" ryan asked.

"yeah." he nodded.

"alright. i believe you, about that stuff. but tyler, if you hurt my boy in any fucking way." ryan said, staring tyler in the eye.

"i won't. i promise. and thank you. oh, and here's his shirt." tyler let out a nervous laugh, giving ryan the ripped shirt. ryan slid out from under josh, grabbing is phone.

"goodnight ty." he said, tyler saying goodnight before he left the room. tyler moved josh and turned the lights off so they were both under the blanket.

"i'm sorry josh." tyler sighed, smirking a bit before he closed his eyes and tried to sleep.

A/N: wow this chapter was absolutely all over the place

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