NATSU DRAGNEEL announcement created a turmoil in the entertainment industry where I belong. The thing that he shared didn't cross my mind even in my dreams. And this kind of mess is not what I dream of – I rather stayed quiet until it subsided. This wasn't my plan!

My plan is for me to take a break from working as a model and come back only when people have forgotten my or our scandal.

I turned around again when I saw my cell phone ring. Natsu was the caller so I answered it immediately.

"Natsu!" I exclaimed.

"I know you have a lot of questions," he began as if he knew what was running through my mind right now "But can I... let me find a way to protect you too"

My chest tightened at what he said, I don't know but suddenly my eyes watered.

"I will protect you in my own way, Lucienne," he whispered.

I suddenly realize that we really haven't got a good talk about our situation. We were always fighting. We were always arguing but we never really talked about what we were going to do. We always avoid talking about it because we are probably both afraid.

Afraid of the possible answer. Afraid of the possible solution.

I smiled bitterly, because I knew that my thoughts were only my own. Since then, I haven't really tried to understand how Natsu feels.

I'm just a bad person who kept on hurting the person who gave all the love that I deserve.

"You don't need to lie like that Natsu" I mumble under my breath after I gather the thoughts "You can protect me by staying silent."

He didn't speak for a moment but I heard him sigh, "It feels like you don't know me, Lucienne. You know I can't keep my mouth shut if you involve"

"Do you really think that I'll be happy because of this?"

"Then do you really think I'll be happy to see your career to become like this?"

But, I'm just your best friend! Stop acting like you still had a feelings for me! Stop giving me hope, Natsu. I bit my lower lips to stop yelling my thoughts. I inhaled sharply but still didn't bother to answer him.

I can't make any more mistakes.

"Are you okay, Lucienne?" he asked me sincerely.

I ignored his question, "I think..." I stopped for a moment, not sure what to say to him after hearing what he said "...I think we should meet, Natsu. We have to talk"

"I know" he mumbled, "But I just want you to know that I won't listen to your stubbornness this time," he said firmly.

Stubbornness? Ignoring what he said, I sigh, "Okay"

"Then please open the door" he asked me.

I immediately stood up at what he said and immediately went to the door to open it for him. The moment our eyes met, I burst into tears when I saw how tired his face was. He gently touched my cheek and smiled.

"Hug me, Lucienne," he pleaded.

My body moved on its own and I just found myself, with my arms wrapped around his waist, while my face was pressed against his chest. I heard him sigh in contentment.

"Why? Why, Natsu?" I mumble under my breath.

"I told you, I'll protect you" he mumbled under his breath.

I can feel him inhaling my scent as he grabs my buttocks. I automatically wrapped my arms around his waist as he carried me inside my unit.

He sat on the couch as I sat on his thighs, my arms still wrapped around his shoulders as my face rested on his neck.

I felt his hand caress my back, maybe he was calming me down or he was doing it to make him calm.

We remained in that situation with no one speaking.

"Natsu"

I was the first to break the silence, I felt he was stunned by what he was doing but that was only for a moment because his hand moved again.

"Why?"

"I'm sorry..." I said "I'm sorry if I try to run away from what happened. I'm sorry if I try to do what I want instead of asking what you want to do"

"When did I say what I wanted," he paused and stared at my face "Will you grant it?"

I nodded, "Not sure" I said truthfully. He chuckles as he gently caresses my face "Depends on what you want to happen."

"What if I want to marry you?" I opened my mouth when he said "Will you allow it, Lucienne?"

I press my forehead to his and I smile bitterly "You don't love me, Natsu," I murmur under my breath.

He didn't speak but instead he pressed his forehead to mine as his fingers gently wiping my tears.

"We are both old enough to build our own family, Lucienne," he said calmly. I left sitting on his lap, but my eyes remained fixed on his face.

I once dreamed that he would be the last person I would see in my sleep and the first I would see in the morning. But, I knew that would never happen again.

Because a lot has changed. One of those is how he feels for me.

"Marry someone you really love!" my voice broke a little but still I managed to continue "You shouldn't lock yourself in a situation that you can't easily break through."

"We will be okay"

"How can you be so sure about it?" I ask him directly.

"We have known each other for ten years, Lucienne."

"That's not the point, Natsu!" I said "We don't really know each other that much. We did know each other for ten years but something has changed. Our relationship did change. And I have a child."

"I don't care about that matter, Lucienne. I can take care of your daughter as my own child if you want me too."

I shook my head at what he said. I saw his forehead furrow as he looked at me as if he didn't know why - I didn't agree as he wanted.

"Natsu, we can't get everything that we wanted in our life. Sometimes our plan is just a planned. I refused to live my life, built by your own sacrifice"

"Doing this is not a sacrifice"

"Yes, it is..." I said firmly "That's who I see it..."

He brushes his fingers thru his hair as he frustrated inhale "What do you want me to do, Lucienne?"

"Take back what you said to the media. Let me solve this problem"

"Why are you the only one making the solution? Why can't you be with me? We're in this problem, Lucienne!" he almost yelled at me as if he was losing his patience.

"Natsu"

"What if I got you pregnant that night? I didn't use any condom" he exclaimed "We might not remember anything that night but I checked my whole room. I didn't see any sachet of condom"

My eyes widened and I was suddenly caught in my stomach. I never thought of the possibility that we would have a child.

"I will not let our child grow up without a father"

"I can do it--"

"Lucienne. For god sake! This is not about us anymore. This is about the child that we might have" he yell at me

I clenched my fist but I didn't say, "I'm sorry I shouted at you, Lucienne. But you have to listen to me. You have to hear my voice. Even," his voice gradually calmed down "Just this once, listen to me"

He reached for my hand and gently squeezed it. I was speechless to him and kept staring into his eyes. Because honestly... I have no idea how I will survive the pressure thrown at me by destiny.

Why me?

Why am I being forced to be toyed with by destiny? Why me?

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A/n: Hi! 

How are you Guys? I really hope you doing okay.

I'm really sorry for not updating for I don't know how long. I'm just currently busy in my job that I don't time to write my chapters. Aside from that, I was... I just don't know where should I start in writing and what should I write. 

Another thing is, the "Six Letters, Two Words" are almost done. And I really don't want to end that book but I have too. Though I'm prolonging it because I don't want to say good bye on that book. So please be patience on me. 

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