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Real loss only occurs when

You lose something that

You love more than yourself
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Jeno woke up, crying. He looked over at the love of his life, sleeping soundly next to him and had a arm wrapped around his waist.

He slowly removed the arm, preventing Jaemin from waking up. Tears were still running down his face. He kneeled down next to Jaemin and looked at him.

"I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. I have to go. I have to be there for my mother, I can't bear to go but I must." He slowly stood up and planted a kiss on top of Jaemins head.

"I love you too Na Jaemin." He said softly.

And left.

-

Jaemin woke up, his arm reached out to search for that someone. But he felt nothing, just an empty space beside him. He furrowed his eyebrows in confusion.

"Jeno?" He said now with his eyes open and he was now panicking. Where was his beloved? Where was the one who kissed him last night? Where was Jeno?

He slowly got out of bed making sure not to trip over stuff by reaching his hands out. He finally found the little button by his door, and pressed it.

"Yes young master?" A voice said through.

"Do you know where Jeno is?" He asked panicked.

"I'm sorry young master, I do not."

"Dammit." He then let go and the speaker cut off, leaving him with his thoughts.

Maybe Jeno just needed to get home. Maybe he had problems at home. Jaemin then pressed the button again?

"Yes young master?" The voice came again.

"Get me to Jenos place." He said sternly.

"I'm waiting outside." The man replied back and Jaemin smirked as he knew his assistant could read his mind well.

He slowly walked downstairs with the help of a maid and got outside and in the car.

"Let's go." Jaemin said and put on his seatbelt.

The driver started driving off, and in just a few minutes Jaemin would get the most heartbreaking news he's ever had to hear in his days of his life.

-

"They moved out last night. I'm sorry." A young man said.

Jaemin and his assistant had just knocked on Jenos old house and got that news. Jaemin was far from furious. How could Jeno leave him? Even after what happened last night? Jaemin angrily got in the car and his assistant didn't say anything as they drove off.

"I have his number young master, just press the button on your phone and it'll call him immediately. Maybe this is a misunderstanding." His assistant reassured the broken boy in the passenger seat.

Jaemin could only nod. He felt like crying and his heart hurt. Jaemin wanted to call and yell at Jeno, but he just wanted the boy to be safe and happy at the same time. Jaemin felt his eyes getting hot, and once they stopped Jaemin jumped out and ran up to his room as the maid was trying to keep up, and directing him.

He fell into his bed and started crying. He cried. As he cried thoughts came rushing back of him and a Jeno. He wishes he could see because all he could remember was Jenos damn voice, but that voice was enough to make his heart twist.

After awhile he was hiccuping and grasping for air. His eyes hurt and he wishes he had someone to cuddle at this moment. But that someone wasn't here.

He slowly felt to grab his phone and pressed the button. Ringing. Ringing.

"We're sorry this number couldn't-"

Jaemin cursed and then presses another number.

"You may start your message now."

After a long beep Jaemin starts talking, and spilling his thoughts out.

"Why did you leave me? After all we did together for this past year? Why did you leave me when you said you wouldn't? I love you and I miss you so fucking much and I want you to be here with me-"

"We're sorry your message is too long, this message had already sent."

"Dammit!" Jaemin yelled in frustration, and pulled his hair.

He then laid flat on his bed and closed his eyes and felt the sting as his thoughts ran around his head.

Jeno. I miss you. I miss your laugh and your jokes. Your uplifting spirit, and your soft hair. I miss the way you would whine to me and act like a 3 year old. I might've shown I hated it, but I loved it deep down. I love you. I really do. I love you more than I love myself. I just wish you'd come back to me. I wish I woke up with you here beside me. Please, please don't forget me, because I know I'll never forget you.

I love you Lee Jeno.