Jasleena

I could hear people. I could hear machines. I could feel someone holding my hand. I could feel someone touching my leg. But I couldn't open my eyes. Suddenly, I heard a little cry and that was enough to wake me up. I struggled to open my eyes, until I did. But closed them right away. The room was completely bright, so it hurt my eyes. Whoever was holding my hand must have noticed some change in me because then I heard a voice. "Lily?" Luka. "Lily? Are you finally up?" He sounded so excited. "Oh yeah..." I felt him let go. "The lights must be a bit much for you... huh?" I inwardly chucked. "Try now, love. Someone is eager to meet her mommy." I tried opening my eyes again, and I did. First, I saw Luka. Then, I saw our precious baby girl. I instantly started crying.

"Hey my sleepy head, don't cry." Luka got closer with Lila in his arms. How long has it been? "You've been in and out of sleep for the last twenty four hours. The doctors aren't worried because the anesthesia just took more of a toll on you. And everything you've been through in the last day and a half." I looked at him a bit confused. "There's a lot the doctor has to talk to you about love. Lila will be going back to the nursery soon. Want to hold her for a bit?" I nodded. He placed her in my arms and stood by me for support. I felt the tears running down my face. "She was a bit yellow when she was born so they did some light therapy and she's been great. I was able to feed her a little while before you woke up again." He looked at me. "I'll call for the doctor.

He pressed a button on a remote and someone asked if anything was needed. He let them know that I was awake and more myself and the lady said she'd let the doctor know. A little less than ten minutes went by, when the doctor went in. Luka grabbed Lila and placed her in her portable crib. A nurse then rolled her out. I guessed whatever the doctor had to say was that crucial. Then the doctor explained everything that happened. All the complications and what the outcome to those complications were. I was blank. Void of any emotion. My complications were so bad, they had to perform an emergency hysterectomy. I could never have another child again. I can never have the family I dreamed of with Luka. I was shattered but couldn't react. I was broken beyond measure. That news was worse than everything I had already gone through.