Jasleena

I knocked on Yaz's door and waited for her to let me in. A few seconds later she opened the door. "Can I come in and talk to you?" She nodded and pushed the door more so I was able to go in. "Do you know?" I asked her. "About?" I looked at her, but she wasn't looking at me. "Who Paola is having a baby with? Who she's dating?" Then she looked at me. "I had my suspicions since I texted you that time. I didn't push the subject because I knew it was hurtful. I know they went to visit you and I figured something must have happened because I saw them together more often. And then mom told me she was pregnant. Then I put everything together. And noticed how distant you were." She paused and looked straight at my face. "Leena, I'm sorry I didn't call you and ask how you were or visited you when mom and dad did. I just didn't know what to say. I felt like nothing anyone said would really help. So I just gave you time. I knew you'd come talk when you were ready." I smiled, she knew me too well. "You don't have to be sorry, Yaz. Nothing is your fault. I wouldn't know what to do or say if the tables were turned. I'll be ok. It's been hard but my number one supporter has been helping me a lot. He's awesome." I paused and debated continuing.

"I think I'm starting to like him more than a friend." She raised an eyebrow, "You like him! Why won't you tell him?" I sighed, "It's too soon Yaz. I'm still broken. Yes I'm slowly healing and he's been nothing but patient with me. But I need more time. I need to make sure he doesn't change on me. That he won't leave me when I'm finally comfortable. When I finally trust again. I'm just scared." I looked at my hands, trying to distract myself from crying. "Leena, you have to learn to trust again. I know it's easier said than done, but if he's great let him be great. Let him teach you how to trust again. Let him guide you back to your old self. Just take it day by day, you know. And see where life directs the both of you." I did not expect my little sister to say all of that.

"Oh and Leena. It's ok to let go. It's ok to forgive and not forget. I know one day you'll be able to talk to Paola again. Maybe no time soon but maybe that day will come and it'll be all the closure you'd need to completely heal." I hugged her, she groaned because I never hugged her. But I don't think she realized how much her words touched me. "Thank you Yaz. I'm going to head to bed. I can't leave too late tomorrow. I have to meet with Luka around 6." She smiled as she nodded. I went to the bedroom and texted Luka, "It's pretty late, didn't think I'd be talking to her for that long. I'll call you tomorrow. Goodnight Luka." He instantly texted back, "Ok pretty lady, can't wait to see you tomorrow." With a wink emoji. I laughed, locked the phone and went to bed.