Is it something wrong with me
Bcs I constantly find myslef wish
For ppl not to disappoint me
But I never track how I reach this

I text the closest ppl and suddenly
I pray for them to reciprocate
To show me the same energy
I wish they dont leave in bad state

And I say something in public
I find my organs cluching inside
Waiting for someone to consider me
Yeah! I am usually low in pride

When I get answers and I insist
To belive they are wht I want
I see the reply and imagine it
In different emotions different fonts.

I knw I should stop saying
I knw I should stop msging first
I knw I should accept they'll disappoint
I knw I shld value my own words

But I think wht if they reciprocate
What if they actually hear what i say
What if there is one who want to listen
What if my msg makes someone's day

I'm delusional i knw
but it is less painful after all
Than realising that I'll be dissaponted mostly
With the answers the msgs the calls.