Chapter 17 Telling Juvia
Natsu POV
I was overjoyed, Gray asked me to marry him. I was speechless. He carried me home bridal style. I found it so comfortable that I was falling asleep. I didn't want to, but I couldn't help it. That fight with Elfman hurt and exhausted me more than I expected. I hated that I couldn't even win from Elfman. It did hurt my pride. After that I didn't think anything anymore, because I fell asleep in Gray's arms.
Gray POV
I was carrying Natsu to his place, he was having trouble to stay awake. He tried his best but after a while he fell asleep. That payback could come another time. He is so cute when he sleeps. He did battle hard in this state of mind. Poor him. So I walked to his cabin, but decided to just lay him down and fall asleep with him as well. The announcement of our engagement will come soon enough. We fell asleep holding each other. I woke up from the sound of snoring and because of the heat. I looked beside me and saw Natsu holding my arm like a pillow. He was curling up beside me. I loved it. He was emitting a warmth I loved, although it was warmer than normal. At that time I didn't think about anything wrong at all. He was cuteness overload. So I kissed him awake. "Hi fiance." I said. He blushed bright red. "Good morning Fiance." I like the sound of that. "Would you want to try a breakfast? Just a light one." I saw he was doubting. " You don't have to honey. But I just want you to recover." "I know, just don't expect me to heal in one day. But I will try some food." He smiled lightly. Yesterday he laughed like he used too just after the question of marriage. I still was amazed that I did that. We weren't so long together. After we ate breakfast we went to the guild. "Thanks for the food." Natsu said. He didn't eat much, but he finished what he had on his plate. That was a beginning right. He was holding his stomach the whole way to the guild. I didn't question it.
We walked inside the guild and were greeted with many welcomes. Like our normal welcome. The guild was rowdy as normal as well. We sat at the bar, Natsu asked Mira something but I couldn't hear it. I found it weird though. Happy came flying at Natsu and sat on his head, but very careful. "Did you forget about me Nashuu?" He wailed. "Of course not buddy." I did though. Then after Natsu tried his spicy chicken from Mira suddenly Juvia came walking inside. Natsu stopped eating. He went pale. I didn't know what overcame him. I whispered to Natsu "Should I make the announcement?" He furiously shook his head, denying my request. I found it strange. He was shaking not looking at me anymore. He even became redder and redder in his face. Just like this morning he was emitting more heat than usual. Juvia than came towards us and walked to me and Natsu "Hello Gray-sama, Natsu-san." "Hi Juvia. How are you?" I asked. Natsu was shaking but didn't respond he was staring at his chicken. "I'm fine I guess Gray-sama thank you. I will probably ask Lyon one of these days for a date or something like that. How is your relationship going? Already asked him?" Ask him I was gulping, did she knew.
Natsu started sweating, he wasn't good after all I guess. But she continued. "Asked him to be your boyfriend Gray-sama?" "Oh, o yea of course I did." I stumbled. Natsu stood up. We both looked at him. "Sorry Juvia I have to go." He said and left the guild. Juvia and I both looked at each other. Erza came asking "What's wrong with Natsu?" "I don't know." I responded. "Did I say something wrong Gray-sama?" She really didn't. "No you didn't. I think." Now that I think about it Juvia isn't talking in third person anymore, when we were in relationship I told her I found it annoying. Is that the reason she isn't doing it anymore. "Sorry, have to check up on him." So I ran after him. I saw he was running to the same slope I did the proposal yesterday. He sat on the same spot. I walked to him and sat beside him. "What's wrong Natsu?" I asked. He looked at me, still looking pale. "I-I feel.." he felt silent after that. He sighed hard. "You can tell me Natsu. Take it easy." He took a deep breath. "I think I still feel guilty that I ruined your relationship with her. I feel sick thinking about it. I just.." "Silly, you don't have to it was my choice. I already told you that. Was that the reason you don't want me to announce our engagement?" He looked at the sky. "Yea I guess, Gray. I first want to talk to her if that's possible I hurt both of you as well." He looked sad towards me. I hugged him. "Silly." I caressed his hair. I didn't want him to feel this way. "Let's go back right?" I asked. He nodded. "Gray, this sounds weird but I want to tell her personal." "I understand." I told him.
We both walked back to the guild holding hands. When we enter Erza, Lucy and Juvia all came towards us saying all "Are you alright Natsu?" He nodded. But it wasn't convincing though. "Juvia, can I talk to you private?" Natsu said, he was having a hard time to ask that I noticed. "Huh, me? Uh yea sure Natsu-san." They both walked out of the guild again. The other two looked at me with questionable looks. "What are they up to Gray?" Erza asked. "I don't know details, but he wants to apologize towards her." They looked confused at me. "For what?" Lucy asked. "For stealing me." I told them. "Huh?" Lucy said. "That is what Natsu believes he did." I told them. "Silly Natsu." Both the girls said. "I think so too." I said. We all walked at the bar. Then Wendy came walking towards me and asking "Gray-san, where did Natsu-san went?" "He went to talk privately with Juvia. Why is something wrong?" She looked nervous that I asked. "Uh. Uh no nothing's wrong. Byebye." She said nervously and went the other way. Instead of walking towards Charle and Romeo she walked towards Gajeel and Laxus. I found that strange. "Strange." Erza said. If she was ready my mind again. "Strange indeed, Erza." I said.
Natsu POV:
I was nervous, I asked Juvia to come with me to talk. She was acting nervous as well. I guess she doesn't know what to expect. I walked with her to the slope again, this place I always felt safe. "J-Juvia." I started. "Yes Natsu-san? Everything alright?" I was still nervous and was getting sad. "I want to apologize to you." "To me? What for Natsu-san?" She asked and looked at me with a confused look. "B-because I stole him from you. I-I" It went silent I had to take a break to continue. My stomach wasn't glad with mine nerves. "I never meant to hurt you. Or Gray.... Maybe it was wrong that I came back or even told him I love him. I'm sorry Juvia..." She looked shocked. "If you don't want me near the guild or near Gray, I understand. I don't know if I can though.." I wanted to continue but she interrupted me "Natsu-san, you didn't steal him from me. I can't blame you guys for falling in love with each other." She said. I looked at her with a sad expression. "Yea, but if I didn't told him than you both would of have a great relationship without me interrupting that." "Natsu-san do you really believe that?" "Yea, why?" "Because you know that it didn't work out with Gray-sama and me, but that wasn't your fault. So please don't say you will leave again, because you believe I'm against your relationship with Gray-sama." "It is my fault!" I yelled. Juvia took a step backwards, clearly shocked of my outburst. "I feel guilty Juvia, you love him as well. I-I" I started crying. She looked sad at me.
"Natsu-san please don't take Gray-sama's love too lightly. He made this choice. Yea maybe Gray-sama and I would of have been together still if you didn't mention it. But we both already felt guilty for making you leave the guild. Gray-sama and I were growing apart because of the guilt we felt. Besides if you didn't mention it, you would of always be unhappy and unloved. We would never had the same Natsu-san back right?" I was still crying slowly nodding. "But. You deserved him just like me. I didn't want to tell you both because of this... the feeling of butting in. The feeling that I stole him from you. That I ruined your relationship. That I even hurt you. That was never my intention." "I understand Natsu-san. I really do. I'm glad you apologized, but I feel that Gray-sama made this decision. If he didn't loved you he didn't broke up with me because of it. Believe in each other Natsu-san. I feel sad though." I was happy to hear that. But the feeling of guilt didn't disappear. I dried my tears. My stomach started acting up, I wanted to keep everything inside but my stomach wasn't agreeing. So I did what I hated most I hurled everything up. Juvia hurried at my side. "Natsu-san are you alright?" I couldn't respond because of the bile of food coming out of mine mouth. I didn't feel so good.. "I don't know, not feeling that well." I said when finally the puke stopped. She was rubbing my back. I felt horrible. Was it only mine nerves acting up, or something else I didn't know. I mean I never felt this awful before.
"Natsu-san may I ask you something?" "Sure." I answered. "Was I the reason you left team Natsu?" I looked with big eyes towards her. "No." I lied not looking at her but at the pile of food. "Natsu-san please answer truthfully." I sighed. I can't hold the truth I guess so I told the truth. "Yes it kind of was. I couldn't handle seeing you together with him. I'm sorry." Juvia was crying. "Thank you for answering that truthfully." "Please don't cry, I didn't want to hurt you." I felt awful for hurting her my stomach acting up again, but there was nothing inside to come outside anymore. "We both know we hurt each other." That was actually true. "Why didn't you say that when we asked if I could join?" "Could you've done that Juvia?" "What do you mean?" "Would you be able to say no I don't want her to join. Because of some selfish reason. Hurting you, being the rude one. Maybe even getting hatred from the team for hurting you. Would you be able to say that? I didn't want to hurt you or him. However I did hurt you both." "I know that it was hard to say, I think I understand. I don't think I would be able to. I have felt guilty about that a lot Natsu-san." "What do you mean?" "I felt guilty that because of me you left the team and even left the guild." "You knew?" "I didn't knew the details back then though, Natsu-san but I could see you avoided him and me for a purpose. You acted strange after he announced our relationship. You left just after I joined the team. It all made sense to me. I could understand it, I linked it kind of." "You're amazing for noticing." "I don't know." "Juvia are you really not mad at me?" "I was sad that you got him but I never thought you stole him. Still I am sad. I'm not mad I can't blame you guys for you loving him. Also I will find new love eventually." She smiled lightly, tears were already dried.
"Can we still be friends Natsu-san? I don't want because of what happened that our friendship would be over." "Yea of course Juvia I would like that. Are you sure you want to? I mean I understand, really if you would hate me or even seek revenge or something." "Natsu-san, I really am sad that Gray-sama made this decision, really. But I eventually find new love. I won't hold this against you. I'm not that kind of girl Natsu-san." I started crying again. "You.. sure?" She laughed with tears in her eyes once again. "Silly, I'm sure. If I hate you why would I say all of this. I don't know how to handle seeing you together. But I definitely will come over it." "You're not mad?" "Natsu-san stop it. I'm really not." "Thank you for listening Juvia." I said. "You're welcome, thanks for opening up to me." We hugged. "Can I announce another thing, I want you to be the first to hear." I said. "Oh, some news? Sure now I'm curious." "Gray asked me to marry him." She looked shocked, I was blushing. "Really? Congrats. It hurt a little though." "I'm sorry, but Gray wants to announce that shortly at the guild and I don't want you to hear it that way. I want to personal tell you first and I wanted to apologize to you first. I told Gray that as well, he didn't understand though but he agreed with me. I didn't want you to hear it like I did." "Thank you Natsu-san for telling me first." She started crying. "It really is over." She whispered. I hugged her comforting her. "Thank you." She said.
"Want to go back to the guild with me?" "No, shall we stay a little bit longer here. I mean you even vomit. Why did you actually?" "I'm not feeling my old self lately, so sometimes food won't stay put." I said, not knowing if that was the truth. "You have problem with holding your food down? That's unlike you Natsu-san." "Yea I know, I'm doing better actually. But today I vomit because of the nerves and the guilt I guess." "Silly." Juvia did a waterslicer so the bile of vomit would drain in the river. "Thanks." She smiled. We both sat on the slope enjoying the view. We went silent then, enjoying the view and the breeze. It was like time stood still. Our tears dried up. But probably we looked awful. "Should we return to the guild Natsu-san?" "Yea probably should right. But I won't." "Eh, what are you saying Natsu-san?" "I walk you to there, but I'm not feeling well. I will go back to bed instead." "Shouldn't I walk you back then Natsu-san? You don't have to walk me back, I can take care of myself." "Really thanks, but I rather walk alone back home." "Okay Natsu-san, shall I tell Gray-sama that you went home?" "If you could, yes please." "Sure Natsu-san. Take care, see you tomorrow." She waved and walked away. I walked the other way. My stomach was hurting. My vision was sometimes blurry, it was indeed time I take a nap. I didn't understand why I was feeling like I was ill all over again. I was glad I told Juvia all that. I mean she is a great girl for saying all that. I really want her to find someone she loves, maybe indeed Lyon. They would match. I started breathing fast again and my head was pounding. I was glad I walked home, I didn't know if I could walked Juvia to the guild and back home. With a lot of effort and trouble I made it to my cabin. I walked inside and when I saw my bed I lay down and immediately falling asleep.
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