I'll be mourning at a funeral tomorrow

For a friend a bit older than me

And as in talking to his mum, it makes me so numb

If I want to talk about it I can't breathe

I have these dreams when I am screaming underwater

Not even trying to reach the shore

And please don't tell me what that means

I've heard it all before

I've never been so scared in my life

He's only two months older

And even when you tried to help

It seems like you've done nothing at all

How young do you have to be to die?

When is it okay to die?

I've been talking to his dad

He wishes it was him instead 

So now a once happy man wishes he was dead

Jesus Christ why can't I be surprised

By anything that's sad

So I'll be crying at a funeral tomorrow

Wishing I had done more in time

And than I realise my friends feel as powerless as this

Maybe I should smile more

So they won't be crying at a funeral tomorrow or today

I feel so sorry for myself

While someone kid is dead