Alcohol
cigarettes
Drugs
These aren't the things I can't stop loving
These aren't the things I can't stop hating
Maybe I might be an addict
My addiction is adoration
And I hate myself for it
I'm looking for praise
I'm looking for somebody to tell me I'm worth being here
Than why do I still hate being here

I hate you
I hate caring
I hate not indulging in the adoration
I hate loving
I hate love
I hate not being selfish
Please let me be selfish
I am selfish
I hate myself

I call God but God says quit
"I can't be bothered by your life
  You're so busy saving everybody else that yo can't hope to save yourself."

I will let this noose tighten
I'll wait for my demise
Hopefully it will be soon
I don't have to bother these people anymore
I hate myself