I woke up today
At least that's something
I realized that what people say might be true
Though I still can't live without you

I hate myself
I hate myself
I fucking do

And I wish for days of agony
To say the things I feel
And I won't say I'm unbroken
I won't say I'm not in pain
I know I'm weak
I guess I'll put my smile back on now

And I would runaway
But I turned around again
Went back to the start
And cursed you out

Still too much of a coward
To say "I need you now"
Too much of a coward
To admit I'm not okay
I'm too much of a coward but
Help me

And I wish for days of agony
To say the things I feel
And I won't say I'm unbroken
I won't say I'm not in pain
I know I'm weak
So am I allowed to put my mask back on now

I hate myself
I hate myself
I fucking do
I hate the mirror
I hate the pictures
I hate myself
I hate myself
I fucking Hate myself!

So change yourself that's what they'd say to me
You could fix yourself is what they wanted me to see
So I'll try to fix myself
Didn't know how hard it could be
But it will if you're as fucked up as me

Hi everybody! I hope everybody is okay. This is written as a song and you can imagine a soft base, piano and a bit of drums but it's also beautiful as a poem