TW: Panic attack

*Tuesday*

Y/n's Pov

I got up to an empty bed as Jungkook has already left for work. He was with me yesterday the entire day so he had to work today.

I sighed at the empty bed. It feels too lonely.

It was a little late in the morning so everyone must have gone to work. When I made my way to the kitchen though, Jimin was having cereal while scrolling through his phone.

"Good morning." I chanted to which he groaned.

"Did you wake up now?" I asked noticing how his hair is still going all around the place.

He gave a deep throat hmm.

"Is something wrong?" I asked when I noticed how he isn't speaking.

He shook his head a little which made me concerned even more.

"Do you feel like going out today or watching a movie at home?" I asked then.

He groaned yet again.

What happened that he is in such a mood today?

When last night memories flashed in my mind, I couldn't help but chuckle.

According to the amount of screaming that kept us awake last night until really late, I can assume exactly who got too drunk to lose control. Jin, barged into our room multiple times throughout the night just to greet us and wiggle his eyebrows. He even opened the door using the spare key when we locked it. Apparently they each have a set of spare keys for every room in case of an emergency. Weird but weirdly cute too.

Jimin was screaming at Taehyung for not giving him the last dumplin they had over 8 years ago. We didn't hear Taehyung's reply but wr did hear the cried of Jimin as he screamed that he is "baby mochi that's in need of a dumplin."

Suga was also loud for someone who is quiet all the time. He kept on screaming for his little kittens to take his delivery although I don't know who he was speaking too. Jungkook's guess was that he was having sex the little kittens were his sperms. I don't support that thought even though it makes great sense. I wonder if that is what he was referring to honestly.

The others, I have no idea much.

"Were the others okay?"

"Jin, Suga hyungs had headaches. Namjoon hyung had left for work early. He didn't drink much. Taehyung and Jungkook only had minor headaches." He answered with a mumble.

"Do you need an aspirin?" I asked.

"Had one."

"Coffee?"

"Okay."

Smiling to myself, I made 2 coffess for both of us. Keeping mine on the counter after handing his, I made my way closer to Jimin and gave his scalp a light massage.

He moaned with satisfaction and lifted his head up like a cat looking for a scratch.

I chuckled. "Does it help?"

"Yes! It feels so good! Keep going."

I kept going changing the frequency every now and then making him moan. I couldn't help but chuckle seeing as how he is enjoying this way too much.

After a while I got tired so I stopped, making him groan with frustration.

"Hands hurt." I excused and sat on the stool to enjoy my now cold coffee.

"Thanks for that."

"No problem. So what do you want to do today?" I asked again.

"Do you want to go out?" He asked.

"I could also spend the day at home. I have been going out everyday." I said.

It seems he could use the day to rest.

"You drank way to much more than everyone else didn't you?" I asked.

He groaned yet again. "I believe Jin hy7ng drank way more. But yea. That's why I agreed to stay today instead of Taehyung." He said making me confused.

"Stay?"

"Yea. Jungkook asked us to accompany you whenever you are going out." He said while scrolling through the phone again.

I smiled. It might be to protect me from Jungsoo. I felt happiness and gratitude wash over me.

"Ah! I forgot to get the credit card from Taehyung! Aish!"

"Credit card?" I asked.

"Yea. Jungkook gave us a credit card to pay for everything you get. It was with Taehyung but I forgot to get it." He said then making me frown.

"Pay for me?" I asked again.

"Yea because you don't get anything cause you're actually paying fo-"

I watched him widen his eyes. So he spilled something he wasn't suppose to.

"Continue." I said sternly.

I saw him avoid my eyes and sweeping his hand across his hair multiple times being uncomfortable.

"N-nothing." He mumbled.

"Jimin. Tell." I said through gritted teeth glaring hard at him making him squirm in his seat. I wasn't angry at him, I just want to know.

"J-Jungkook told us to spend for anything you seem to like cause you are not spending money." He said hiding from my gaze.

"What else?"

"Said not to tell you."

"Why is he hiding it from me?" I asked still with a glare.

"Probably cause you will reject his help if you know. He just wants you to enjoy."

"But I feel bad about spending his money." I said while turning my glare into a pout.

"Wow your duality is really creepy. One moment you look like you could kill me with a single look. But then you are pouting cutely." He said while patting my head with caution making me pout harder.

"Let's stay at home. I don't want to spend his money."

"I don't agree with you not wanting to spend his money. But I don't oppose to staying at home either. I really don't want to get out my sweats today." Jimin said.

I took in his outfit. "You are still in your last night's outfit." I pointed out.

He looked down and groaned again. "Why am I like this~?"

~~~~~~~

Apparently Mina and Mark also agreed on staying in today. They were going to rest in their own rooms and then meet us up in the evening.

Settling down on the sofa, I decided to call Jungkook while I wait for Jimin to come down.

"Hey baby." His voice ran through.

"Hola. How's your head?"

"Urgh! Killing me. Why did you make me drink so much?" He asked me.

I chuckled. "I didn't make you drink. You were angry that you chugged a huge glass of a strong alcohol right before we left."

"Why didn't you stop me?" He asked with exasperation.

"Like I said, you were angry and I was scared."

"Urghhh! That stupid ex of yours. He is why I had a headache now." He mumbled making me chuckle.

"Shall I come to the office to have lunch with you?" I asked. "I can even cook something for us."

"No no. I'm coming home early today so it's okay. What are you doing today?"

"Just watching a movie with Jimin."

"The other two?"

"They were also having headaches so they decided that it's good to rest."

"That's good. You guys have been walking since the day you came. It's good to rest."

"Yea. But I want t-"

I heard a voice call for Jungkook asking for some files. It was a girl's voice that was slurping the words seductively. Hearing that made my blood boil.

"Give me a minute Miss. Jeha." Jungkook said.

"Yes of course Jungkook." She said.

Jungkook? Da hell?

"Your office people call you as Jungkook?" I asked as anger spilled through my voice.

He chuckled. "Not really. But Y/n I gotta go. I'll come home soon okay?"

"Okay." I huffed, making him giggle.

"I love you baby." He muttered right before ending the call.

Right ad I threw the phone to the couch, Jimin came and sat on the sofa next to me.

"Why do you look like you would kill me again? What did I do now?" He asked.

"Nothing. Let's just watch."

~~~~~~~

I didn't know when I feel asleep but it was somewhere in between the movie.

I groaned a little when I felt uncomfortable. Somehow the warmth I'm feeling now is not... the one I am used to.

Coming into reality, I noticed how my hands are holding someone. I'm cuddled as he has snuggled me into his body in the small space of the couch.

Looking up, I find the face of Jimin really close to me that even his breath was making my hair dance with each breath.

Taken by surprise, I screamed.

"What what what? Get behind me!" Jimin screamed as he fell from the couch but instantly got up in a stance like holding a gun towards the opposite side. His right hand adjusted as a gun with the 2 fingers pointing out while his left assisted it.

We both looked around searching. I don't even know what I'm looking for. Just followings Jimin's action. Even little tannie is nowhere to be seen as he ran right when I screamed giving a small yelp.

But I froze when I catch a certain pair of doe eyes.

Jungkook was standing a little further away from us, his eyes shinning with hatred.

Jimin must have seen Jungkook as he sighed. "It's just you. I thought something happened." He then turned towards me. "Why did you scream so freaking loud?"

I didn't answer and neither did I take my eyes away from Jungkook's deadly gaze. His face looked expressionless while he was standing like a statue.

Jimin groaned while sitting back down on the couch. "I was sleeping so peacefully."

Without a word, not even a small greeting, Jungkook moved back to go upstairs after glancing at Jimin just once.

I followed him up in to his room. He was removing his jacket in the corner facing away from me as I entered.

I walked closer to him and stood in front. His eyes looked down avoiding me while I kept my gaze locked on his willing him to look. His hands were about to grab his tie but I stopped them and let them lay at his sides.

Grabbing his tie in mine, I removed it slowly wishing that he would look at me.

"Jungkook?" I called out but he remained silent.

Removing the tie, I let it fall to the ground before I tried to catch him to lift his head up from his chin. I miss the doe eyes.

But what I saw in his eyes broke my heart into pieces. The love they held was replaced with anger but mostly sadness.

"What would you feel when you come home to finally be in the embrace of the person you love only to find her already in another man's arms?"

He grabbed my wrist while holding eye contact and removed my touch from his skin. I didn't even have words to answer his question. After letting my wrist go, he moved one step back putting space in between us.

"Why?" He muttered. His voice hoarse.

"What?" I asked. I'm not sure why I asked that. Is it to repeat the one word he uttered or to ask as to what he was referring to?

Although I know the answer to both.

"Why were you with Jimin hyung?" He asked me more precisely. More clearly. More painfully.

"I-I... We were watching a movie and-" I started stammering as I tried to voice what happened.

I didn't make this happen purposefully yet why do I feel like I cheated?

"Netflix and chill?" He asked with a raised eyebrow.

"No Ju-"

He chuckled sarcastically. "He is the kind of person who does it anywhere and everywhere so I'm not surprised he didn't take you to bed."

"No. Jungkook. Nothi-"

"Nothing happened?" He exclaimed with a low voice followed by a scoff. "I found you snuggled in his arms, sleeping peacefully. So close to each other and you are telling me that nothing happened?!" He asked me with a raise of voice. "Am I that easy to replace?"

My tears went down freely as I watched his own tear slide down.

"Please believe me Jungkook. We were just watching a movie. We must have fallen asleep."

"And snuggled in closer right? Was it more comfortable than with me? Did you like it? Did he kiss you too? Did he fucking give you a hickey too?" He fired question after question.

I kept shaking my head when he grabbed my wrist in a sharp grip and pulled me to him. We were standing really close to each other, our heavy breathing hitting our skin.

His eyes red with anger and pain, held the strict gaze with mine before he voiced the question that just struck my heart as if an arrow pierced it.

"Tell me Y/n." He whispered with a deep voice. "How many hyungs of mine did you sleep with?"

My eyes widened hearing his question. The way the question made me speechless, the way it made my mind become a daze as to what lead him to ask that all put me in a tight spot that I found myself not responding back.

Did he seriously ask me that? From me?

"I-I... I didn-" Gathering my lost words, I mumbled.

He scoffed right to my face. "And I'm suppose to believe you?"

This isn't how we are suppose to have an arguement. Why is he the only one speaking? Why isn't he listening to me? Why are we fighting in the first place?

Nothing even happened!

He should believe me when I say that nothing fucking happened.

"Jungkook." I mumbled being more angry than sad. I waited until I had his attention. "I love yo-"

"How long d-" He interrupted me yet again making me exasperated.

"Shut up and listen to me for once!"

We both remained silent. Sighing I started again. "I love you so much to the point that this is breaking me to thousand fucking pieces. I plan to marry you one day and have your babies. But if this is how you are going to solve a misunderstanding, by jumping into conclusions and not letting me speak then you should find a better way cause I don't plan to let you go anytime soon for something like this and neither do I want us to fight in front of our kids like this.

So if you have the heart to hear me out and believe me then let me speak. But if you doubt me even still then come find me when your ready to believe me."

His eyes searched my face as more tears spill.

"It you can't believe me, at least trust your hyungs to never steal your girl."

He stayed silent scanning my face as I watched his eyes but soon his expressionless face turned awya from mine.

"Get out." he mumbled hoarsely.

Ouch.

"For the record, I never fucking slept with anyone but you." I said before walking past him.

My steps slowed as I made my way to the door, hoping that he would call my name, ask me to wait and talk with me.

My hand reached the door handle shaking while tears streamed down.

So he isn't going to talk?

I exhaled slowly as hope left my body, opening the door I went out and closed it behind me.

My legs gave out and I fell down right in front of the door. I wanted to cry my heart out but why isn't my body reacting to it? But why isn't my tears stopping? I can't even sob and cry like how I can feel the pain but why can't I?

Getting up from the floor, I made my way to the end of the corridor and went out into the balcony, my feet dragging my body along with it.

The cold wind of the late evening hit me making goosebumps appear yet I didn't feel cold on the outside. My insides felt numb as well which masked every sensation of my body.

Staring at the view of concrete buildings, I let my mind wander.

Is it my fault that we faught? I didn't mean to sleep with Jimin though. He was sitting on the other side of the couch with the entire length of the couch in between us.

Plus he fell asleep before me. How did we end up cuddling?

Will this be the end?

Is this the end of us?

No. It's just one misunderstanding. People fight all the time. This is also our first fight. If we can't get past this then how will we ever manage to live our lives together? We can solve this well. Right?

It is my fault for how I was with Jimin? I mean, if I had seen Jungkook cuddling Mina I would pretty much react the same way.

I should go appologize. It's all my fault.

But he shouldn't have asked me whether I slept with his hyungs. Why would I ever even think to sleep with anyone but the person I love?

He should know and trust me to never do that. Why would I ever break their bond by sleeping with other's that Jungkook loves more than himself?

I was lost in thoughts while watching the night sky turn darker with each passing minute. I don't know how long I stayed there but soon figuring that I should appologie to Jungkook quick to get this problem behind us and also because I miss his hug, I decided to head back in.

Wiping my tears with my hands as I took one deep breath to calm my nerves, I went to pull the door open. Only to find it not opening.

Trying for a few more times, my mind hesitating to realize the obvious, I tried again and again. Finally I stopped shaking the poor door as reality sunk in. I'm stuck.

Not giving up on going inside to the safety of the inside the house, I started calling their names. Every name that came into my mind I screamed it out loud. Panic started to rise within me as I banged on the door hard. The sky is already darkening so there is no way they would come back out now.

This balcony is the farthest door at their corridoor. My hope is on someone who is in the closeby rooms hearing my screams for help.

I also know their doors are soundproof. I also know that no matter how much I bang on the door they wouldn't hear me from downstairs.

I'm doomed.

But I didn't give up hope. I banged louder and harder for several minutes.

"Jungkook!!" I screamed.

"Mark!!!"

I felt the rising panic at being left here along but I tried to not let it control me. My throat felt dry and hoarse from all the screaming, my hands hurt, I feel cold all over my body with the thin material of the blouse and my shorts covering me. My eyes dry yet wet.

The numbness of the inside now replaced with fear and all my senses now awake with alert.

I went to the corner of the balcony to see if there was a way for me to climb down. But the ground is too far below from this balcony even if I'm on the 2nd floor.

My heart beat is so loud that it's ringing in my ears. That itself was scaring me. I wanted to scream yet somehow my throat felt closed and dry.

Finally giving up and accepting the fact that I'm alone, I went to the corner of the balcony away from the streetlight shinning that was casting scary shadows on the floor and slumped down against the wall.

The sky is completely dark now with only the streetlight illuminating against the background.

Pulling my knees up to make myself warm from my own heat, I let my tears fall.

The panic attack that I was avoiding all this time, slowly clouded my mind. I let it control me having no strenght left to fight.

I don't know whether I screamed or cried or hurt myself as I let my mind be in the daze of the panic.

Jungkook's warmth, his touch, his voice, his breath, I miss them all so much. I want him to hold me. I need it the most now. I hate this feeling of loneliness that I have been trying so hard to avoid. I hate being in this state. I want it to end.

It's so cold. Too cold that my body hurts now. I'm shivering so hard. I can't stop my own shivers. My actions started to betray me as my mind took control. My throat, eyes, hands, everything hurt.

The shadows of the trees as they cast on the balcony made me scared as I watch the night fold more and more.

I want to go in. To his embrace.

I'm sorry Jungkook.

I made a mistake.

Forgive me.

The small will to stay awake left my body as I let the darkness that was fighting to consume me finally take me away.

Please save me

~~~~~~~

Hello!

I'm extremely sorry if I made anyone uncomfortable with the small incident regarding Y/n.

So what do you guys think about their fight? Who is the one to blame? Or does both has similar parts on this arguement? Do let me know what you feel.

So uhh... how is the story going now? Like is it interesting? Cause I realized that some of the people who used to read it has stopped reading now and it makes me wonder whether the story has lost it's interest.

Don't worry though. I won't stop writing and neither will I let it worry me because I'm writing this for myself as much as for my readers. This book is giving me hope to live and be happy so I won't stop writing.

I just want you guys to enjoy reading as much as I enjoy writing it.

Sorry for the little rant.

Thank you for reading!

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