*Wednesday*

Jungkook's Pov

I couldn't sleep at all last night. I was mostly staring at the ceiling while Y/n kept snuggling to my side. My mind thinking all the possible ways that I can solve her problem without letting her know.

How could I forget though? She worked at the coffee shop during her free time because their family is struggling. Her mom recently quit her job as a housekeeper because that family went abroad. I remember how Y/n told me how her father might get a raise. She was excited but then the promotion was snatched by someone else.

The tickets here is also expensive having to pay for two. Which means that right now, she might not have enough pocket money to buy anything and the ones she have, she might be saving it for Mark.

I looked down at her as she was snoring lightly. Why are you so good Y/n?

You fit in perfectly with my hyungs, you fit into my life. You try to take all the pain of everyone else. You are strong and confident and I love those things about you. But don't hide your weakness from me. You need someone by your side to be you when you get tired of being strong all the time.

So let me be by your side all the time. Not because you have to let me in, but because you want to.

After thinking and making a plan, I finally relaxed and started caressing her soft skin in her cheeks, watching the sun rays filter through the curtain to fall on her face making her skin shine brightly. She scrunched up her eyes trying to avoid light and snuggled in closer but soon woke up groaning.

I chuckle. "You are not a morning person are you?" I asked.

"I don't understand people who wake up in the morning. Like why?" She mumbled cutely.

The door burst open just then making both of us flinch.

"Good morning love birds! Wake up! You need to go to work today!" Hobi hyung screamed chirpily.

Y/n groaned. "Urgh! Morning person."

"Yes. I am. Now get up."

"Why~"

"I will take you to have a beautiful breakfast in one of the most serene places if you wake up right now." Hobi hyung said in a sing song voice which made Y/n sit up in attention.

"Does it involve a river running close by?" She asked.

"Yup. Has a beautiful spring close to it."

Y/n got up from the bed in an instant at that. "Yes! I wanna go."

"That's more like it. Now go get ready." He said to which Y/n grinned. She leaned down to give me a kiss before going inside the bathroom.

"Jungkookah, I got a call saying that there's an issue with the business you did with the TXT company. So one of them is coming to meet you today."

"So I have go to work today?" I asked groaning.

"Yup. I took my day off instead so I can keep Y/n company." He said then.

The plan I came up with to make sure she can buy whatever she wants is to make sure she goes with one of the hyungs if I can't go. So they can pay discreetly for whatever she wants. Also it's good to keep her safe. So after thinking I sent a message on our group chat and they all agreed.

"Thanks hyung. I'll pay you back." I said.

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Heading to the office after making sure that Y/n is safe with Hobi hyung, Mark and Mina, I instalty got engaged in finding what the issue was.

The meeting lasted for over 4 hours and it was pretty tiring when it finally ended and as soon as I finished it, I called Hobi hyung and asked where they were so that I can go and continue the day with them.

Catching them while they were at the restaurant for a late lunch, I joined them.

"What did you guys do?" I asked.

"The restaurant we had breakfast in was so pretty! Hobi didn't dissapoint me at all. It was worth waking up actually." Y/n said with excitement.

"I told you it will be amazing! You guys should learn to trust me more." Hobi hyung said making Y/n giggle.

"I feel like sleeping now." Mina said while yawning.

"Why? Couldn't sleep last night?" Y/n asked with a raised eyebrow.

Oh yea, Mina was in Jin hyung's bed with Suga hyung next to her. I wonder how that went.

"Not really."

"Why? Did something sexy happen?" Hobi hyung asked wiggling his eyebrows.

"What sexy? I felt like strangling that man. He snored like a freaking bull!" Mina exclaimed.

We burst out laughing.

"Mina, are you really going back?" Y/n asked then.

"Yea. I feel half asleep already." She said with a small yawn.

"Mark?" I asked.

"I wanna walk around a little." He said.

"Okay. I'll join you let's go out." Hobi hyung said.

"Okay then. I'm gonna steal y/n." I said making her giggle.

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"This is where it is."

We reached the market place that we both saw in our dream. It looks the same.

We looked around the spot and tried to find any recollection of memories as to why we saw here.

"Maybe one of us lived close by?" She suggested.

I shook my head. Looking around I saw a stall where a grandmother was sitting on a bench at the front while knitting. I made my way towards her.

"Hello grandma." I greeted her politely.

She lifted up her head and gave me a really cute toothless smile.

"I was wondering whether you know if there are houses closeby?"

"Oh yes!! There's around a few houses that way, my son. Are you looking for someone?" She asked.

"Not really. But just to check. Thank you so much grandma. I hope you have a good day."

She patted my hand taking them in hers and wished me good luck as well.

"Let's go that way." I said to Y/n. She nodded and we both went.

There were around 5 houses on a small road.

"Don't you remember where your house was at?" Y/n asked me as we scanned the houses around. 

"I remember vaguely. But it wasn't around here."

"Hello. Are you people looking for someone?" An elderly man asked approaching us.

"Hello sir. Actually we are just trying to figure out whether we have been here before." I answered.

"Why is that?" He asked me. His eyes started to look at Y/n who was starting to get uncomfortable.

I caught her hand and moved her behind me discreetly. "Nothing sir. It seems we have come to the wrong place." I said.

Quickly turning around to go, I put Y/n in front of me and we made our way to the same spot with the bench.

"That guy was openly eyeing me." Y/n said with disgust. "Let's sit down for awhile."

We both made our way and sat down on the bench.

As soon as we sat, I felt a huge headache working up it's way which made me feel dizzy and breathless.

My mind went dazed as image after image of various scenes started going through.

A little girl with black hair, wearing a white gown running in a field. The same girl in a bubble pool crying while holding my hand which was tiny. In one she was screaming excitedly pointing at a baloon. One had her eating cotton candy. She was dressed in a tiny red dress in one and was hiding behind the legs of a man. In one she was sleeping with her slightly opened lips.

As I came back to reality, I was breathing hard when I heard her breathing as hard as well.

"What did you see?" I asked.

"A small boy. Shy. Cute. Bunny smile. Small lips. Sparkling doe eyes." She said.

"I saw you."

"Why did we get glimpse of our childhood right when we sat?" She asked me with a frown. Both of us are more confused than ever.

"What happened that we had to separate?" I asked then.

"I have no idea. But dad said it's best if I don't know."

We though for awhile. She then suggested, "Let's go to your house. We can try to catch our memories through steps we took when we were young."

Agreeing with her, we both got up from the bench and went to get in the car.

I was slightly nervous about going to the house as I have never gone there ever since I left that night. The ownership of that house is actually under me although I don't care much about it.

Parking at a spot, we got out and started walking.

The sidewalk of the road I always went home on, the pathway was giving me deja vu although it all feels like a blur.

"I don't rememeber exactly where it is. But let's go this way." I said. She held my hand without a word and we both started walking.

The road looks old and rusty now but still the same. I let my mind wander to how I brought friends over many times after school. I remember walking along this way eating snacks, laughing. There were about 3 friends in my squad and we always hung out after school.

Before I even know it, we were standing in front of a house.

"You might not remember. But your body does." Y/n mumbled next to me.

We were standing by the gate. I can't make myself to walk in. I feel scared. Like how there might be memories about what happened that night.

If my memories about who exactly got shot returns to my head, will I be able to accept the truth? 

"We can do this some other time too." I heard her mumble.

"Let's go in." I said. She squeezed my hand ressuringly.

Opening the gate with shaking  hands, I was about to step into the garden but my legs just stopped.

"Let's go back home baby. We can try this later again." She said with a calm voice.

She was about to drag us away but I stopped her. "I wanna go in. Just give me a minute."

She stayed silent then. A minute, 2 passed and then after whole 5 mins, i still haven't made a move.

She turned me to her and held my face in between her tiny ones, making me focus completely on her.

"I know you are having an internal battle but this is something you have to do one day. But it doesn't have to be today as well. So if it's hard we can stop at any moment. I want you to tell me okay?"

I nodded.

She gave me a small peck and moved away from me while still holding my hand. Gathering my strength, we made our way to the main door.

It wasn't locked and it is rusty.

Slowly walking in, I looked around. Dust covered all the places that held memories. Every corner of the house reminded me of how happy I had been with my parents.

My vision got blurred as I stood at the doorway with tears filling me.

The sofa still the same way how it was after I struggled with Jungsoo. The carpet slightly crooked on the side. My father's phone on the coffee table. The knitting of my mom still lay on the sofa unfinished.

I can imagine them sitting on the sofa. Mom knitting like always and dad watching tv. Jungsoo sprawled on the floor studying or just being on the phone. That's what I usually see whenever I come home.

I felt the squeeze in my hand and that was the last straw. My tears started spilling as a sob worked it's way.

I felt her hold me as I cried.

"I can see then Y/n." I said through sobbing. "I can feel them here. I remember being happy with them. I-.... I-...."

My legs gave out making me fall to the ground. She didn't let go of her hold on me and right now it was all that was holding me from breaking apart.

My entire childhood, my life got ruined because of that one night. Everything that happened in a span of 15 minutes that night ruined my entire life. It made me become a murderer.

"No!!!!!" I screamed hard as I felt the pain. I cried for the first time for my parents. I'm feeling the pain I should have felt 13 years ago.

"Let's head out. Come on." I heard her mumble.

"No! No. I'm not going out from here. This is where I belong."

This is my house. This is where my parents are. This will be my home. I belong here. I left them once and I am not leaving them again.

"Jungkook! Hey. Look at me." My face was pulled to look at her eyes. "Take a deep breath. Calm down. You will be okay."

How will I be okay?

I killed my own father! I ruined my life.

"No! Leave me alone!!" I pushed her away from me. I'm not going anywhere. I don't want to leave from here.

I got up from my spot and walked forward in the room. The kitchen, I can still see my mom cooking while scolding me for not helping her. I can remember making different types of food with her. I can see her laughing there.

But the memories, the sight of my mother gets replaced with Jin hyung. Him looking at me smiling dearly while stiring a stew. We always cooked many dishes together.

I looked at the main door. The memory of coming home one day after falling from my bicycle came into mind. Dad tended the wound but then I see how Namjoon hyung helped me come home after I hurt my leg in a mission. My arm across his shoulder as he made jokes to make me smile despite the pain.

The sofa, I see a little me fighting for remote control with a little Jungsoo. But it's soon replaced with me fighting with V hyung for the AC remote.

Getting afraid of all the nixed memories, I quickly made my way into my room. The room I shared with my brother.

Jungsoo always crashed on my bed instead of his on days when he got playful. I see myself standing by the bed nudging Jungsoo to get up. But the little boys gets replaced with Hobi hyung and me cuddling together on his bed on days when I felt lonely.

The middle of the room, I see a big boy carrying a smaller boy on his shoulder as the latter was cleaning the ceiling fan. But they change into me and Jimin hyung as he jumped on my back for piggy back rides.

I walked back into the living room only to see my father coming in holding a birthday cake that had the candle 8 lit on it. But he change into Suga hyung who is now holding a cake giving me his signature gummy smile.

Different memories started flashing through but they instantly change before I could even comprehend. Getting overwhelmed, I fell down on the floor.

All my past memories are replaced by my present.

For the last 13 years, I never got sad over the fact that I lost my parents. It was always a burden to me cause the guilt weight me down. I didn't even miss my family because my hyungs made me a new family. It was filled with love, laughter and specially understanding. They gave me everything I vould ever ask for.

Did I replace my parents with my hyungs?

Is it bad to move on from the death of the most valuable people in my life?

Can I move on without feeling the weight of my actions on me?

But I am happy now. I have people that I value more now. I have to move on. I will pay my respect to my parents. I will make them proud.

I won't let go of my past but I won't let it control me as well.

I got up and dusted myself. Y/n was still standing by the door looking at me with a worried expression.

"Are you okay?" She asked me with caution.

I looked around once more at the room that now looks peaceful and then back at her. "Yea."

"What are you.... feeling?"

"Glad about coming back here at least now. This was always at the back of my head. Like what happened to the house. Now I know."

We were silent as we scanned the place again.

I looked at her to see her looking at the photo crame that was hung on the wall. The four of us looking happy and smiling for the camera.

"Can we take this?" She asked.

I went closer and got the frame. We all look really cheerful there. "Yea we can."

Deciding to head home for the day, we made our way out.

The house I received love and protection in my life, the place I called home now holds dreadful memories of the past that changed everything. "I'm sorry mom, dad. I gotta go for now. But I will come back often." With that I closed the door.

Going back on the path we came, we went to the car holding hands with no words spoken. My head was aching on the left temple. I have been on an emotional rollercoaster today that it's not a big surprise that it's hurting.

I noticed how her hairstyle was changed to put hair in front of her face covering the left side of it. Even half of her cheek and eyes are all covered.

"Are you okay? Why are your hair like that?" I asked while we got in the car.

"Does it looks weird? I must have messed it up while we were there." She mumbled while pretending to fix her hair only to cover her face more.

I was about to question again when she beat me to it. "How are you feeling though?" She asked me as I pulled out of the parking spot into the road.

"Happy and content for coming back. This visit was long overdue." I said with a small smile.

"I'm glad you overcame it. I had no idea what to do when you kept on saying that you were going to stay." She said then.

"Ahh right. I'm sorry. I guess all the emotions ruled my thoughts then that I blurted out what I should have done that night. It's pointless to do that now." I said feeling guilty about how I behaved.

That night and today too.

I extended my hand to reach her lap indicating that I need her touch. She instantly grabbed mine with both of hers and we made our way back.

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"You guys came! Nice! We were gonna go out for dinner." V hyung exclaimed as we got inside.

Y/n mumbled something about going to the washroom and went upstairs making me frown. She is acting differently. What's going on?

"Wanna go out?" V hyung asked again.

"Give me a second hyung." I said and made my way upstairs.

She wasn't in the room so I opened the door to the bathroom only to find it locked. She never locks the door.

"Y/n. Open the door. It's me."

There was a small rustle before her voice ran back. "I'm okay. Just give me sometime."

"No. You never locked the door. So open it." I said getting impatient.

"Give me like 2 minutes Jungkook."

"What's going on? Y/n? Why can't you open it?" I asked.

"I'm fine." She exclaimed back.

I'm more scared now than impatient so I hissed trying to mask the fear with anger. "Open the damn door my love or I won't hesitate to break it apart."

She was silent on the other side and then I heard the click. The door opened to show Y/n with her hair the same way except more messy now.

"What happened?" I asked softly.

"I was just going to have a wash." She mumbled almost inaudibly.

I held her face in between my hands only to feel a wetness.

Blood.

She got hurt?

Slowly moving her hair aside of her face, I saw blood tickling down the wound on her left temple.

"Wha-..... How did this happen?" I asked as I scanned the pretty deep cut.

"I just hit a cupboard Jungkook. Don't worry." She said and tried to cover with her hair again but I stopped her.

"It's when I pushed you, isn't it?" I asked. My voice tiny and regretful.

"It was an accident Jungkook. Don't blame yourself." She said then while looking upto catch my eyes. "Please don't blame yourself."

"But I hurt you."

"It was an accident. You didn't do it on purpose."

"Just like how I shot my own father." I said as how the similarities of the 2 incidents hit me.

"Hey. No. You didn't shoot him. Or anyone. You don't know what happened. So don't judge with that. I'm fine. See?" She smiled at me widely.

She leaned in closer then when she noticed how I didn't smile back.

"We will find everything we need to know and then we will make peace with everything. Promise me you won't let anything from the past break you again." She said while leaning our foreheads together.

I sighed. "I will try my best."

"Okay. But even the small doubt about anything, you have to tell me okay?"

"Hmm."

She kissed me then slowly. After pulling out of the kiss, she boped our noses together making me chuckle.

Pulling her away, I scanned her wound again. "This is why I felt pain on my left forehead. I thought it was just a headache."

She smiled at me. "I figured you might have felt it."

"Let's get it treated now." I said and grabbed her hand to take her to the bathroom counter.

Snaking my hands around her waist, I lifted her up to make her sit on the counter. I pulled her thighs apart softly to make myself stand in between them, our bodies close.

Brushing her hair to the side, I grabbed a ball of cotton to dab at her wound. My eyes were trying hard to focus on the task at hand but my mind is in a daze wanting to get lost in her brown orbs that are watching me carefully. Her hands held my from my waist occasionally tightening her hold on my shirt when a stinging pain is felt.

I grabbed a piece of cotton next with ointment to slowly apply on the cut. She hissed when it contacted the wound, but I focus my eyes on her finally giving into the temptation making her keep all her focus on me. The pain long ignored.

Once the wound is treated well, I rested my hands on either side of her and leaned in closer to her face.

"Does it hurt now?" I asked in barely a whisper.

Her eyes never left mine as she shook her head. Her hands grabbing my cheeks in between her tiny hold while she leaned into lay her forehead against me.

"I love you." She whispered making me smile.

"I love you more princess."

We stayed silent like that until her hands snaked around my neck and pulled me forward to hug my torso. Her head resting on my chest. My hands immediately circled her waist to hold her closer making her legs wrap around my body circling me in her warmth.

"What are you going to do about the house?" She asked against my chest.

"First, I wanna renovate it and then we will decide what to do." I caressed her head feeling her smile.

"Okay."

"Yah!" Suddenly a voice exclaimed making us flinch. We both looked towards the door to see a glaring Taehyungie hyung with his hands on his waist, the other 5 poking their heads out from around him.

"Here we are starving while you guys are being all lovey dovey!" Jin hyung exclaimed while Hobi hyung started screaming "My eyes! Oh my god!"

I sighed and turned to face Y/n again and buried my face in her neck, feeling her giggles. 

It's never quiet with these crackheads are at home.

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Hello!

So finally Y/n and Jungkook started visiting their pasts. What do you think happened that made Y/n leave Jungkook when they were little?

Also was it okay that Jungkook moved on from his parent's death without much regret with his hyungs help?

I can't wait and see Mina and Suga's love bloom. They are both savage so I wonder how that would turn out.

That's it for now! See ya with the next update.

Love you guys with all the love filled in my heart.

Vote and comment. Do let me know how you guys are feeling!

NM💜