~Small reminder in case you forgot, Y/n sees 4 hours after her local time in her dreams. So when it is early night for her, he will have a late night.~ Enjoy❤

*Sunday evening*

Y/n's Pov

"It's so boring without them?" Mina exclaimed as we stayed sprawled on the sofa watching a random show. Her legs were right on my chest as mine was on her's. Our heads against the sofa handles on either side.

"You guys do realize that there's another perfectly well sofa for ONE of you to lie down right?" Mark asked as he came and sat down with a bowl of popcorn.

"I was here first." Mina said. But I was busy looking at the seat Mark sat down. That's where Jungkook always sat.

"Why are you staring at my crotch my dear sister?" Mark asked with a glare making me sigh.

"Just remembered Jungkook."

"From his crotch?" Mina exclaimed with a dumbfounded face, making me hit her chin with my leg.

"No! The chair. He sat down on it everytime he came home." I sighed.

"Stare at your vj cause I'm sure he sat down in front of it as well." Mina said with a glare while rubbing her chin.

"Come on guys. I'm trying to eat popcorn here. Innocently." Mark whined.

My head started aching suddenly making me gasp which was noticied by Mark.

"What happened?"

"I don't know. My head started aching suddenly as if I got hit." I said while rubbing my temple where it feels sore.

"You didn't have any proper rest the past few days with jungkook railing you every chance he got. That might be why." Mark said shamelessly with an eye roll.

I frowned. It doesn't feel like a normal headache.

"Ahhh I want sex too! Haven't got any since-" Mina stopped suddenly making me and Mark both look at her.

"Since when?" I asked. Even though my head aches a little, I gotta know this.

Mina wasn't like me who kept reserved for the guy that I trust to sleep with. She slept with whoever she felt comfortable with. No random hookups with random guys but one night stands with people she knows.

"Since uhh... 2 days ago." She finished sheepishly. It seems she slipped something she shouldn't have and I am sucker for unsaid secrets.

"You got sex 2 days ago and you're whining?" Mark asked.

"Yea." She mumbled.

That was when we decided to go to a small club like restaurant along the beach side where we drank our night away.

I know Jimin took a girl to his room cause we met her the next morning.

We got separated by Suga so we have no idea what he did. Neither do I know about Mina who left us after whinning that she was single when I had Jungkook.

"Who did you sleep with?" I asked.

Mina blushed a deep shade of red. "Just someone-"

"Random? I know you don't sleep with random guys so it's someone we know. Who is it?"

She stayed silent even after without saying anything.

"Mina?" I asked sternly. She can't keep secrets from me. I'm her best friend!

"Bish if you don-"

"Iwasn'tmeaningforittohappenbutitdidcauseweweredrunkandwasn'tinourrightmindIdidn'tcheatonTaehyungandIstilllikehimbutIfeellikeIcheatedandthat'swhyIdidn'ttellanyoneanythingandwealsodecidedtoignorewhathappenedactuallyIdecidedtocauseitwascausingmeaheadachebutyoongilookedsosadafterthatandnowthatisalsogivingmeaheadache."

"Okay so something caused you a headache and now we gotta find what that is." Mark said with a raised eyebrow.

"I already told what happened." Mina mumbled.

"You didn't breath and neither did you have any fullstops. Also what happened to your space bar?" Mark asked making her pout.

The thing is that I understood every word. I'm used to Mina blabbering all the time so I heard everything very very clearly.

"You slept with Yoongi?" I asked.

Mark gasped while Mina crouched further into the couch.

"Sort of."

"How did that happen?"

"With alcohol?" She said as if she was shy to mention that.

"But... But..." Mark stuttered obviously having difficulty grasping the idea. I was surprised too as she was head over heels for Taehyung.

"What did he say the next morning?" I asked being more curious about his reaction.

Suga is someone I never got the chance to figure out. He is reserved and doesn't speak much unless he gets excited. Which is very rare.

"He said that he enjoyed it. But I felt guilty. I like Taehyung."

"So you told him to forget it happened?" I asked.

"Yea."

"No wonder he didn't hug you when they left. I noticed how he avoided touching you at the airport but I didn't pay heed to it." I mentioned now thinking back to it.

"It was slightly awkward."

"I can imagine why. He might not even care much seeing as how he never looked for anything serious. Also, you won't meet him anytime soon so don't worry about that now. Collect yourself slowly and think about whether you regret it or not." I said softly making her nod. "If we mention the truth, you don't even know if either one of them likes you back right? So you might also be worrying over nothing."

We continued watching the show after our brief talk. Mina agreed to think about it calmly because she is confused.

While watching, I felt really sleepy. Mina and Mark were fighting for the popcorn while I was trying hard to stay awake.

Seeing as how the show we are watching is a cooking show and I hate cooking, I decided to give into sleep.

•••••••

I heard their laughter filling the space. I looked at the guys. Namjoon looked a cute shade of pink while V was laughing with no sounds. Jimin was rolling on the floor while Hobi was clutching to a laughing Yoongi. Jin was rubbing the head of Jungkook, both of them laughing while sitting on the floor.

"Oh hey Y/n." Namjoon said making the guys stop laughing to look at where I am.

"Hey guys." I said with a wave.

"Wait. We can see you?" Jimin asked.

My eyes widened. "You can... can you... see me?" I stuttered. Excitement and hope filled my body.

I saw as Jungkook kept his face hidden from me by putting his long hair down.

"We can see you!! YES!" V exclaimed.

He ran towards me to hug. I opened my arms too but he went right through me and fell on the sofa.

"Ahh we can't touch you though." He mumbled getting up and dusting himself.

I smiled at him and made my way to Jungkook. "Did you hit your head?"

He then looked up at me with widened eyes. I noticed the bandage on his head covering one temple.

"Did you feel it?" He asked tilting his head to the sound with worry.

I  grabbed his face in between my tiny hands, caressing the soft skin. "I did. It came like a headache. Will you tell me what happened? How did you get hurt?"

While the hyungs went to freshen up as it was late, we settled down on the sofa and he told me everything.

"You don't know what exactly happened that day so let's not think about it baby. Let's find the actual information before we assume anything. I don't trust Jungsoo at all." I stated while I caressed his head which was on my lap.

"That's what I told him too. We have to find the truth without assuming it." Jin said as he came back.

One by one they all gathered into the living and sat down basically everywhere.

"Okay. So wait. Why are all of you here?" Jungkook asked.

"We are at home. What do you mean?" Hobi asked.

"You guys went to get girls." Jungkook asked.

"There wasn't any good ones." Suga said.

"None?" I asked.

"Yea. Non. Cause we went to a freaking restaurant."

"I don't trust clubs!" Jin exclaimed making the others groan.

Soon one by one they retired to their rooms because it was pretty late.

I got thristy and I had no idea whether I could drink water or not. But wanting to try it out, I went to the kitchen while Jungkook went to go to the washroom.

I was grabbing a glass while Suga came in to the kitchen and stayed leaning against the cupboards.

"Y/n." He called out making me look at him with a raised eyebrow.

"Does Mina have a boyfriend?" He asked me straightforwardly.

"She doesn't."

His concern about Mina made me internally smirk like a devil but I stayed unfazed on the outside.

He hmmed softly and crossed his hands across his chest.

"Then why didn't she like it? Why did she ask me to forget it? Was I not good?" He asked me then. "I know she told you. She would have told you for sure."

I nodded. "She did."

"So why?"

"Yoongi, do you like her?" I asked watching him sternly while I filled the cup with water.

"I-" He started but stopped. I stared as his eyes which kept focused on one spot for sometime before he looked up at me. "I might. I'm not sure about feelings. But I definitely won't mind being with her again."

I sighed. "Not everything's about sex."

"I know. It's just that. I've never wanted to be with the same girl twice. They never really satisfied me. But she did. And I want her again."

"That doesn't really clarify that you like her Yoongis." I mentioned.

He was silent while I finally finished filling the cup.

"Does she... really regret it?" His voice sounded somewhat sad.

"I'm not sure and I don't think I can answer for a question you should ask her. Try to figure out your feelings Yoongi. I'll talk more with Mina too. She might not have regreted it actually. That girl is really hard to figure out." I said earning a small smile from him.

With hope to clench my thirst, I started tilting the glass to drink.

After I swallowed the last drop of water, I exclaimed. "I can drink water!"

Yoongi smiled at me. "Didn't think I would say this and I know we met a few hours ago but I missed you."

"Honestly me too." I winked at him which showed me his gummy smile.

After the exchange, I made my way towards Jungkook's bedroom and lied down on the bed just as he came out of the bathroom.

He got under the covers too and we hugged close.

"Why did we pull such a tantrum when we meet again like this?" I asked while I engulfed his whole side by my body.

"Because I can't hold you." He mumbled against my hair.

"Oh right."

We stayed silent until his sleepy voice broke the silence.

"Next time sleep with better clothes. Those tiny shorts and white blouse in front of my hyungs is not good."

"Oops. I didn't know you guys would see me so you can't blame me." I defended.

He smiled a little. "I don't."

We snuggled in closer and I kept on patting his head while he slowly fell asleep.

~~~~~~~

*Monday*

I finally started my work again in the coffee shop after a week of taking a break. I honestly missed working here. It has become a small habit for me to spend my time distracted from studying and enjoy serving customers. It's become like a small escape from reality sort of thing.

My mind kept on shifting to Jungkook and his brother. Fake yet actual brother Jungsoo.

When Jungkook told me how he shot that night and then got punched by someone for shooting, I broke out in a cold sweat. I know a father would never hit their son. A father would never let their son die as well. So it could have been his father who jumped in front of the bullet and got shot. It could be his brother who hit jungkook.

I knew that there's a possibility of Jungkook killing his own father but I ignored it because I just didn't want to think about it. It's like my mind shut that thought out because it was scary to think about.

I also said that his past is what it is and that I'm okay with it. But I couldn't help but think about it that whole night. Even when he was sleeping, I stayed awake. My body was really tired yet no sleep came to me with my mind being too busy. My mind kept on wandering stray to everything.

I said it was okay and that I accept it because it's his past. He is the person I love. He is my person. Is that why I was okay with it? Did I justify his actions of killing just because I love him even if they were wrong?

He killed people and I said it was okay. It isn't. He took lives of people. He himself said that he mercilessly killed children and women who haven't done any wrong. None of it is okay!

Did I justify the actions of a killer?

If it had been someone else, will I do the same?

Does it make me a bad person too? But I can't not accept him. I mean, if I don't will I have to let him go?

No. I can't let him go. But how can I accept him too?

I shot bullets for the first time and not once did I feel guilty about shooting. I freaking shot his brother too and I didn't even think about it after that. Not once until now.

Does it make me emotionless? Am I too engrossed and hyptonized by the love I have for Jungkook that I'm willing to kill people to keep him safe?

That means that I am not a good person too.

I need answers. I need to know what kind of thoughts and feelings I should have about Jungkook.

I'm still 22 years old and just entered into the whole love thing so I might be blinded by it. I don't want to make mistakes.

I made my decision to talk with dad today about everything. I can talk to mom too but today I need advices of dad.

So after my shift, I went home and had dinner with mom and Mark. Dad had informed mom that he was gonna be a little late so I waited until he comes while watching TV.

Jungkook came briefly right after I settled to watch tv. Fearing how I became awkward with his presence I quickly suggested to watch a movie which he agreed to. His soft touch on my skin tingled with a different sensation that it made my heart ache.

He was here for only a short amount of time because he slept late after working overtime at the office. He missed work for a week so he had many piled up.

So after going through around half the movie, he went away.

I watched the rest as I waited and soon dad came home.

After freshening up, he settled down on the sofa with his dinner.

"Dad. I need to talk to you?" I started.

"About?"

"Jungkook."

"What about him?" He asked.

I thought a little. What do I really need to ask about him?

"How do you know him?" I asked.

"Why are you asking all of a sudden?" He asked me back with a raised eyebrow.

"I just have doubts dad. Not about loving him but just about... him." I said.

"Hmm. Okay. I'll let you know as much as I can." He said. "We used to know his family when you were young. You and Jungkook were inseparable since babies."

We used to know each other? We were friends before?

"What happened then?" I asked.

"A lot of things that made us stop our friendship. It separated you two and you guys cried so bad. But then after one day, the day we left everything behind, you forgot all about it. Not even a small recollection of Jungkook was there."

"How?"

"That I don't know. We didn't ask as well cause we thought it was better you forgot him." He said with a sigh.

"So we used to live in South Korea?" I asked to which he nodded.

"What happened to his parents?"

"I'm not sure. I got a call around 2 years later asking about the death of my friend. I didn't know what happened exactly. Both the sons were missing. My friend Jeon and his wife both shot. Jeon on his chest right where the heart is and his wife on the head. No one knew what happened." He said.

I kept listening cause I knew he would continue further.

"Police tried to find the murder but after only a few days, the case was closed with many unanswered questions. I didn't even know whether Jungkook was alive or not. After sometime, I forgot about him too. Although I got certain different news about a similar boy. But it felt unreal to believe.

But then when Jungkook was found by the lawyer, I was also contacted. The will of Jeon had mentioned that I must give my consent to give the CEO position to Jungkook. I agreed without hesitation and then I watched as how he managed the company via someone else and he himself grew his own company.

I kept my eyes on him and knew what he was doing. But I couldn't exactly find when he started seeing you." He said while looking at me.

No matter how much he stalked Jungkook there's no way to know that he saw me through dreams.

"How did you meet him after all these years?" He asked me then.

"I see him in my dreams dad. Like when I go to sleep I see him in his real life." I explained slightly.

He was shocked and asked me alot of questions and I answered all of them until his curiousity was answered.

"So now you know a little bit. What else do you want to know?" He asked me then.

"His brother, Jungsoo always wanted the companies from Jungkook."

"Oh really? He loved Jungkook so much but it seems being in the mafia changed him."

"But now he wants... me." I said with a small voice not knowing what his reaction would be.

He stayed silent while staring at the floor. "To hurt Jungkook?"

"I don't know but he said that he used to like me." I asked with curiosity.

"Hmm... He always treated you like a younger sister. Was really caring towards you and protected you and Jungkook at all times." He explained.

"So he changed drastically in the mafia and that made us leave?" I asked to which he nodded. "How?"

"He joined the mafia by killing someone. Then he did drugs. That might be when his attention towards you changed."

We were silent after that. While he went to wash his dish, my mind thought about what I wanted to ask next.

"Jungsoo has said that it might have been Jungkook who killed their dad." I said it more like a thought than a question after he came back and sat down again. I had doubts about telling this to dad. He finally accepted Jungkook even after saying that he is a killer. But he is the only person I can talk about this.

"I don't know what happened pumpkin. The only ones who knows are those 2 themselves."

"Then why did you say that you know things about his childhood more than himself? You said he is a killer."

"It's about his mafia life. I got to know he is a famous killer in the mafia but I didn't believe it at first. But then I got pictures of him and it proved everything. I didn't know more than him. That was just a phrase to make him scared and leave you."

So dad knows how much Jungkook killed?

"Why did you accept him knowing he killed a lot of people?"

"Because I knew he is changed. I just feel like he would never let anyone hurt you. I just want my daughter to be safe and happy and I know he can do them both. Y/n, in this life Jungkook is a villain. Remember pumpkin, a hero can sacrifice you to protect others when a villain can kill others to protect you."

The twisted way it made sense made me confused about what I should feel.

Why can't we just be like a normal couple with no secrets hiding in every corner of our relationship?

"Do you love him Y/n?" Dad asked me then.

"I do love him but am I siding with a killer and justifying him with my feelings?" I voiced out my deep concern.

He thought a little before answering in a calm voice. "Do you hate him for killing?"

"I don't hate him for the killings he did cause he was asked to. He didn't have a choice. But killing people because he liked it was... is.."

"Hateful? Yea I understand." He said.

"Dad, what should I do? I love him but... it's hard to wrap my head around who he was before." I said.

"Honey he isn't the same person he was before right? He doesn't kill people anymore? His past is his past no matter whether you hate him or love him. There's nothing you can do about that. But if you really love him, you have learn to accept it and be with him, making sure he doesn't do it anymore. Don't feel like you love him less because you can't accept his past now. You just need time. But if you have doubts even after trying then take a moment and think about what you really want. Whether to love him and accept it or let him go. It's up to you pumpkin and whatever you decide I will support it." He said.

I do want to accept it. I want to be with him. I can't imagine my life without him. But I don't want him to kill anyone ever again. I don't want him to get involved in any mafia activities. Cause if that happens, I have a feeling that he might get blinded by blood thrist again.

Why does my mind keep repeating this one phrase?

Once a killer, always a killer.

"Not everyone who was a killer will always be a killer Y/n. Keep it in mind." Dad said then as if he read my mind.

I don't want to let him go and he is not a killer. Not anymore.

So I will accept it. I will try my best to accept his past and make sure it won't be a future for us.

I will make sure our future is pleasant.

"I love him dad and I will try to accept his past." I said as a final decision.

"Talk to him and try to make things right." He said.

We decided to resign for the night as it was pretty late. As we went up the stairs, I hugged him.

"Thanks dad. Thanks for talking with me." I said while hugging.

He kissed the top of my head and mumbled. "Anything for my princess."

I went into my room then and went to bed to sleep right after.

•••••••

Jungkook was working on a file with deep concentration.

Sensing that I came there, he lifted up his head and gave me a wide grin.

"Hello baby." He said with enthusiasm.

His bambi eyes crinkling in the corners with a smile, the small pieces of hair that fell down onto his forehead escaping his styled hair, the small pen mark on his right cheek. This is who I love. This is my person.

I love you Jungkook. I will try my best to accept your past. I will try my best to be with you and make sure nothing can break us apart.

Your past is mine now. So none of us can escape from it.

I will try my best.

~~~~~~~

Hello!

I just had enough of studying. It's the same cycle everyday except more and more stress pilling up. I took a day off today and cleaned the whole house. Bathed my pets and even cooked! My parents were pretty proud though now I feel guilty for not studying. But mleh.. whatever.

So Y/n wasn't really okay with Jungkook's past even though she said she is. Do you guys agree with her?

If you ever faced with a situation like this, what will your reaction/response be?

Oh! What do you think about Mina and Suga? Or does she want Taehyung?

Hope you guys enjoy!!

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Love u guys!

NM💜