*Tuesday evening*

Jungkook's Pov

I woke up feeling warm and content but ticklish on my neck. I looked down to see a black mess of hair sprawled on my chest.

Smiling to myself, I looked through the mess to find her face.

I couldn't hold in my chuckle as her face came into view. Her cute lips pluckered, her cheek flat against my chest as she laid her head on me. I was facing upwards as her leg and hand are both over my body with half of herself being on me.

I didn't fail to notice how her curves fit in perfectly with me. Her naked chest against my sides, her round ass up as her core laid agaisnt my thigh.

She looks heavenly.

Smiling to myself, I grabbed my phone from the side of the bed to check the time. It's 3 pm.

My movements must have woken her up as she stirred and slowly opened her eyes.

The sleepiness and the half opened lips made her look like a baby that I couldn't help but caress her face as she came more into reality from sleep.

"Hey baby." I whispered.

She hmmed in response as she scrunched her eyes rubbing sleep away.

"How are you feeling?" I asked.

She looked at me then and flashed me the most cutest grin making her eyes become thin lines before saying. "Like I just got fucked."

I burst out laughing. "How can you look so innocent when saying such naughty things?"

"That's my skill baby boy." She smirked while saying that proudly.

"Is that so?" I asked raising my eyebrow. Grabbing her hips, I rolled us over so that she was underneath me.

"Do you want another round?" I asked as I bend down to nib at her neck. My marks already coat her skin almost everywhere making me proud of my creation.

"But I'm still sore." She said with a whine.

I pulled her face up to scan her. "Does it hurt a lot?"

She shook her head cutely making hair fall onto her face. "Not as much. It just feel like it's stretched. But it doesn't hurt much."

I removed the pieces of hair that fell on her face and leaned down to kiss her. "That's good. Let's take a wash now then." I suggested.

"Together?" She asked with a tilt of her head.

"Is there anything left for you to hide from me?" I asked making her blush a cute shade of red.

"No but... I've never done that before." She said with a pout. Then she looked at me. "Have you?"

"Nope. I don't do love stuff. Well, I have never done before." I said to which she nodded.

"Hmm. Okay. Then I want to do it." She muttered.

I smiled as I asked. "Why change of mind?"

"Do your firsts with me. Like I do with you." She suggested.

"Okay. I can't wait to do more with you." I said while I started blowing while kissing her neck making her giggle.

"Stop! It's ticklish!" She exclaimed.

I didn't stop even as she squirmed in my hold but getting out of my grip, she got up from the bed.

"Come back here!" I exclaimed as I got upto catch her.

She squealed before running away and went into the bathroom. I followed in behind her.

As soon as I entered, I stopped in my tracks when I saw her leaning on the shower room wall, staring at me.

My smile dropped as I took in her body as lust filled me.

I wanna have her again.

"You said you are sore?" I asked raising my eyebrow.

"Let me check." She said seductively before she let her hand go down on her body to go between her legs.

I couldn't take my eyes off her hand as it went to cup her core. Her fingers moved making my length harden.

"It seems like it needs attention." She said as she pulled her fingers out. They came wet and sticky with her juices.

"Does it now?" I asked, smirking as I went closer to her. Putting my body right in front as I pushed her more into the wall, my hand went in between her folds.

Indeed, she is wet.

"Do you want me to have you again?" I asked as I went closer to her lips. Not kissing. Yet.

Her hot breath fanned across my mouth as she mumbles. "I want you to have me. Again."

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After a hot shower, we settled to stay in today. Just getting lost in our own world.

She wanted to wear my boxers and sweatshirt and I wore in my short. We curled up on the bed before ordering ourselves a late lunch from the hotel restaurant.

It soon came making us enjoy the lunch filled with laughter and talk as we ate through the food.

"So what do you want to do now?" I asked.

"Movie?"

"Netflix and chill?"

"No sex again."

I whined. "why?"

"I'm sore baby. You had me twice in the shower." She said as I pouted.

I chuckled going towards her and kissed her pouty lips.

I grabbed her waist before settling down on the bed to watch the TV in front of us. I laid her down to lean against my chest in between my legs.

She made my hands curl around her waist to settle on her lap as she held them with hers.

Choosing on a drama to start, we decided to begin "Nevertheless".

Seeing the hot scenes between the couple made me be painfully aware of how my core is against her ass. Her soft squirming in my hold made me go hard.

She turned her head to look at me with a raised eyebrow. "Why is it poking me?" She asked.

I smiled sheepishly. "They are making out." I said as I pointed at the screen to the couple having it in front of us.

Her eyebrow went higher. "So?"

"So? It's hot."

"So?"

I raised my eyebrow then. "Don't tell me you aren't turned on as well."

"I'm not." She said with a proud smile.

"Are you sure babygirl?" I muttered on her ear. My hand as it was close to her core slipped into her boxer and before she could protest I entered a finger inside her folds.

It's wet.

I raised my eyebrow at her as she glared at me.

"Not fair!" She whines cutely as I pulled my hand out. It came wet. Smiling at her, I put my finger in my mouth to suck them dry.

I love tasting her.

She blushed seeing my action.

Settling down from the small moment we had, our eyes focused on the screen again as the drama continued.

As there was only a few episodes released so far, we finished watching all.

"I wanna know what happens next fast." She whined as the last episode ended.

We were silent as the screen turned off. We could see our reflection through the now blackened screen.

We kept on staring at our reflexion without saying anything for sometime.

I want to tell her everything.

I'm finally ready. To tell her.

I know she won't judge me. Even if she decided to leave me after hearing about it all, at least I'm not forcing her to stay ehile hiding my whole.life from her.

"Y/n. How far did hyungs tell you about our past?" I asked.

She didn't turn to look at me as she answered. "Their stories. Nothing about you."

"Hmm..."

We got silent again.

"I'll start from the very beginning." I said. She grabbed my hands again as they laid on her lap and snuggled in closer to me.

"I don't remember my childhood from before the age of 8. My brother was 16 at the time and that's when he started to get involved with the mafia business. We shared a room in our old house so he would always come late, drunk even though he was underaged to drink. He might even have done drugs. After 2 years of being like that, he stole a huge amount of money from dad and ran from home. I might have said this before when we talked about my brother briefly. But I filtered everything that day."

She grabbed my hands tighter to her body, resting further into me. I welcomed her warmth and took it as courage to continue further.

"After he left, my parents were devastated and didn't accept the fact that he went to join the mafia. They tried to bring him in but he never came until 2 months later, he came home.

I was away at school and then went to a friend's house, so I got late to come home. But when I did, he had his gun pointed at dad. Mom was clutching on to Jungsoo crying as she begged not to pull the trigger. Right as I came in, Jungsoo pushed mom away from him as he was going to shoot dad. I panicked and tackled him. We both fell down as we faught. But soon, I grabbed the fallen gun and pointed it at Jungsoo.

Everyone stopped in their tracks as I pointed. My parents begged me not to and I wasn't even planning to shoot. But Jungsoo kept provoking me. He kept on asking me to shoot saying that I don't have what it takes to pull the trigger. So to prove him wrong, I..... shot."

She turned in my hold to lie on her stomach, across my body as she looked at me. She flashed me an encouraging smile before lying her head on my chest again. Taking the signal, I continued.

"I don't know who got shot. Mom's scream filled the room making me cover my ears. I fell down with fear and realization that I shot someone for the first time in my life. I shot my own family. That thought was eating me up as I closed my eyes and ears tight.

I don't know who but someone came and started to kick me on the stomach and all over my body screaming at me, asking me why I shot. The shock of shooting and pain of being hit made me go to into panic as I screamed out loud and ran away from there. Not once looking back. I blocked my ears to stop the ringing sound in my mind, in my head as I ran away. But I fell down after a while and passed out.

The next thing I know is that I woke up surrounded by a group of tattoed and pierced men. They took me jn to their mafia and trained me. I shot my own family so there was no one on my side and no one to go home to. So I was almost immune to everything. I didn't have any emotions. I had given up on going to look for my family so I let the mafia take care of me. Train me to be a ruthless killer. I was taught to kill as a distraction and an adrenaline rush that made me feel alive. I killed..."

How can I say this?

How am I gonna tell her exactly how much I became emotionless?

Her hold around my waist tightened. The small gesture of comfort now when I'm reminiscing my past made tears spring to my eyes but I blinked rapidly to make them go away. Although some escaped.

I'm going to tell her everything even if she leaves me. I don't want to hide anymore.

"I killed innocent children, women as I was asked to do. No reasoning, no hesitation. I have no idea how many I killed like that. I just followed their every word and did every killing. I was their biggest weapon. After I was fully trained, meaning fully emotionless, they started to war against their rival mafia.

So many fights happened. I killed more men per day than I could even count. But one day when I thought the fight was over, I got shot."

She lightly touched the scar mark on my stomach right where her head is next to.

"I was shot by Hobi hyung. I didn't know who was the mafia rival that we were fighting against all the time. But it was Namjoon hyung's dad. So when Hobi hyung found me bleeding, he instantly felt bad. He took me in. Carried me away from there, hidden from everyone else before going to meet someone. I was barely conscious.

I was handed over to Namjoon hyung to take care of. By then it was only Jin, Namjoon and Suga hyungs in the team. Hobi hyung left again for the mafia. I was only 15 by then. 5 years I went killing ruthlessly until they found me.

Jin hyung cured me and took care of me with food and everything but I didn't talk. Not even a word. They didn't even know my name the first 3 months I stayed there. They didn't even let me leave them. I didn't have the need to go as well.

After recovering from everything, I went to Namjoon hyung and told him that I am ready for whatever order he has for me to follow. I remember how he smiled at me dearly and said that I don't have to follow orders anymore and that I can live with them in their care. He told me to live freely because he can provide for me. It surprised me and made me happy but I was confused. I remember getting the thought that if I don't kill then what else am I suppose to do? I still didn't open up but I told my name.

I was at home mostly and so was Jin hyung. Other's went away with work and other stuff. Jin hyung tried to cook various dishes to make me eat as I had lost my apetitte. So when he was cooking one day, I went and helped him. He didn't ask me anything nor did he pester me to talk. So we got into a quick routine of trying various dishes off the internet. I think he used that to get close to me. I loved cooking too because I used to do it with mom. So with Jin hyung, even if it took time, I warmed upto him. So with cooking came my words and I talked with him. Had conversations. Firstly about food and then about life.

Jin hyung was patient with me and made me trust him first before I talked. Other hyungs were the same. That's why I'm more closer to Jin hyung emotionally. He made me love again for the first time."

I felt wetness on my stomach making me stop talking brifely. Lifting her head to look at her face, I saw as her eyes were filled with tears while her face was wet.

"Why are you crying?" I asked her as I wiped her face with my thumb.

"These are happy tears baby." She said smiling. "I'm so grateful for Jin hyung and all your hyung for giving me you."

I smiled with her. She lied down on my stomach again and I sighed.

I heard her small voice whisper. "Then what happened?"

"I was okay with them. I was happy yet I felt like I was missing something. So I went to the underground hangout places and started associating with bad people again. When they went on mission, independant from any mafia, I joined them. Got into killing again. That's what I... missed it seems."

She sighed then. I gulped as I realized how blood thirsty I had become.

"I don't know how long it went on. Jin hyung hated me doing that and they tried to stop me but I was too stubborn to listen. But one day after a mission, I was having corn dogs when I met Jimin hyung. He was hungry and he asked me for a corn dog. I was just after a mission so I had money enough to buy for him too. So I did.

We got close and soon Taehyungie hyung came as well. The 7 of us together thought of forming a mafia that does small business. We called ourselves the Bangtan. We were together in every mission. We didn't take mission that had killings. But mission that would serve justice. V hyung was the hacker and computer geek, Suga hyung the sniper, Me, Jin hyung, Jimin hyung are the fighting crowd. Jin hyung was really good with knives though. Hobi hyung is also a good fighter and killer and he is also good with gadgets. Namjoon hyung naturally became the leader and together we became successful and became a well known mafia. Even among the police we were known as we helped them catch criminals too. But no one knew who we are individually. Our names or personal information was not known by anyone.

I got closer with Taehyung and Jiminie hyungs as we were mischievous. When we weren't on team mission, us 3 would go out and do individual mission like I did before. Killing more people. But soon Jimin hyung started hating the killing stuff. So one day when we were really tired, we talked and I realized how he had become a victim of loneliness as everyone he loved died. That made me realize that I might have actually made more people like him. Homeless and lonely. That made me hate killing and give it up. He hated that too as he knew how painful that is. We never visited the underground world after that.

So we had many discussion as Jimin hyung announced that he wants to be out of mafia stuff even if the work we did as a group didn't involve killing. I sided with him and soon many followed.

I started helping Jin hyung with cooking again and Jimin hyung helped Suga hyung with his company. Namjoon hyung was trying to settle us by managing everything financially. But soon I wanted to start my own company. So with their help I did."

She squirmed in my hold again as she peaked up to look at me. Her chin resting on my stomach as she mumbled. "Why perfumes?"

"To get rid of the blood smell from my nose. It felt too bloody on me and inside my body that I wanted it out. So I started to produce perfumes. After the 7 of us settled in a proper house that was provided by the hyungs as we maknaes didn't have proper jobs, I grew my small business. My name went into ears of other companies and soon I was found by a lawyer. My father's lawyer.

The secretory of my father was managing the company all these years as he waited to find me. So when he did, he handed me the CEO position of it. I had no idea how to manage the company that big so I asked Namjoon hyung to take the position. He was already doing small jobs so this was a good opportunity for him. He took the position while I managed my own company. Jimin hyung wanted to join with Suga hyung but he came to mine after sometime when Suga hyung made Jimin hyung run around with many errands. He grew tired of running around."

She giggled at that softly making me instantly warm up.

"V hyung followed Jimin hyung and came into mine. Jin hyung started his own restuarant as he found new grown passion towards cooking. Hobi hyung was the only one stuck on killing after we all moved on. But soon he went into a fight that resulted in his coming home bloodied and hurt.

I got into conversation with him that night and I told him about how killing made me feel. Excitement. But then I told him about Jimin hyung. What I felt about him. It didn't convince Hobi hyung as he went again on missions. But then he told me how my words effected him as every killing made him feel guilty for the first time. So he gave up. As he was jobless and I had vacancies, I gave him a position in my company. We grew financially stable and bought the home we live in now and settled down. We were like this, trying our best, not entering back into that life we left behind, loathing the mafia world, trying to fit among the general society as 7 normal boys with hard pasts."

I ended my huge life story. She was looking at me as I finished it.

Her smile lit up her face.

"And I found you."

I smiled back but there was something that's nagging at my heart to ask so I decided fo just ask it now.

"What do you feel about... everything?"

She looked at me a moment before climbing up on my body to reach my face. Her legs on either side of my hips as she sat down on my lap. She gathered my face in between her tiny hands.

"I feel proud. You went through everything a little boy isn't suppose to at such a young age. I'm mad about how life threw you in such situations but I'm proud of how you faced every single obstacle."

She leaned in closer to me to kiss my forehead. "Your past is harsh and cruel and I'm sorry you had to go through it. But I don't hate you for that and neither will I leave you. Because that past made you who you are today. And I love you. So even if it's wrong and bad, I would never judge you for anything you have done. I know you didn't do them because you wanted to. You did them because you were asked too. Although I side with Jin about you going to the underground world even after."

I pouted slightly as I now regret that too. Every other killing, I was asked to do. The mission I went on my own were my own decisions.

"I'm sorry." I mumbled.

She kissed my forehead again. "Don't appologize to me baby. We will make it right somehow. Okay? I'll help you with that."

My heart felt like it bursted with glee.

She is an angel. You can't convince me otherwise.

"If there's anything that happened after hearing all this, it's that I fell in love with you more." She asked suddenly with a smirk.

"I love you so much more. More than you could ever imagine." I said while holding her delicate face in my big hands.

She snuggled into my touch and smiled. "Now that I know everything about you. I love you way more than you can imagine too."

"Secrets keep people apart." I said as I realized how if I hadn't told her anything that could have drifted us apart.

"That's right. So don't ever hide anything from me." She whispered.

"I won't. Ever." I whispered back before catching her lips for a kiss.

It was slow and sensual at first before it turned into hunger. Soon we were both eating each other hard as we moved from one step to another quickly.

Discarding clothes and kissing all over as we connected our bodies, our lives and our whole existance.

We are and forever will be one.

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Hello!

So revealed Jungkook's history, finally. How was it?

My updates would be a little slow now cause I have a huge exam to prepare for. It's in 3 months so I will try to finish the story before then. I don't want to take a break in between the story cause that might ruin the book right? So I'll try.

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