*Thursday*

Y/n's Pov

No.

He didn't do it.

No.

But I-I can't blame him.

He doesn't know me. Right? Or does he?

He might not care. Why would he care about me anyways.

It's not his fault that I started liking him. Why would he like me? I'm nothing compared to that girl he was with. She is beauitful.

I sat up on my bed. The tears that were pooling in my eyes all fell together making them splash on my lap. I didn't even know I cried.

I sigh as I wiped my eyes. I can't cry over a guy I see in my dreams. I just can't.

I got ready to go to school. All the time that I was getting ready I tried my best not to think about Jungkook. But I just can't. Why does he have to invade my mind like this?

I don't want to think about him. I don't want to like him anymore. I don't want to be in a one sided love.

I don't want this.

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At school, I basically stayed by myself not associating with anyone. I don't wanna talk today. But I just can't ignore my friends. And they of course noticed that something was wrong.

"Y/n. Are you okay?" Beth asked.

I smile weakly.

"Sweety, you can tell us what happened. We are your friends. You don't have to keep everything in." Ella says calmly.

I really want to tell someone what I'm feeling. What I'm going through. I want someone advice.

I want someone's shoulder to cry on.

"I saw the g-guy I like... having sex with another person." I said. Right when I said it, it sounded like such a stupid thing to cry over. It's even more stupid when I think that he is just in my dreams.

"Oh baby!" Mia hugs me and the other two joins the hug too.

I didn't want to cry in school. But their hug just made me lose my control that I started to release my tension. Tears went down my face as I willed it to stop by closing my eyes tightly.

They slightly pulled away from the hug making me put my head down while covering my face with my hair as it fell.

"Who is he Y/n?" Ella asked.

I shake my head indicating that I don't want to answer that.

I heard them sigh as I closed my eyes tightly.

"Is he the reason why you have been distracted lately?"

I nod.

"Y/n, it will be okay. We'll think of a quick and fun way to get over him. Or if you still want to like him, we will support you in that too. Okay?" Ella said.

I looked up at them and smile through my tears. "Thank you. I actually wanna let him go."

I felt slightly better at the decision I made.

~~~~~

At work, I was minding my own business at the back of the coffee shop. Today, John working in the kitchen is on leave, so I was out to do his work. Which mostly include cooking and serving food on a plate nicely.

I actually like this job. I like cooking and I also like decorating. So this is a good distraction from Jungkook who was in my head the entire day today.

I was icing a cake when Emily, my co-worker came into the kitchen.

"Y/n there's someone who wants to talk to you."

I looked at her and asked. "Who?"

"He didn't say a name. Just said you know him and that he really wants to talk to you."

I nod as I signaled her to go and that I would come soon.

I wiped my hands in my apron before going towards the front.

I looked around the shop expecting to see this person that I know.

I sighed in exasperation when my eyes landed on Seth. I was going to turn around and go but realizing that he wouldn't stop bothering Emily if I didn't talk to him, I'm changed my mind and went towards his table.

"What do you want?" I asked.

"Hello to you too." He said.

I rolled my eyes. "Why are you here Seth?"

He smiled. "I like my name when you say it."

I sigh again without responding to him.

"Sit down for a while Y/n." He says.

"I hate my name when you say it." I mumbled as I made my way to sit opposite of him.

There weren't many customers right now so I can afford a moment to sit. But soon it will be busy as office will end soon. I was hoping it to be busy so I have a solid reason to go away from this conversation.

"Why do you hate me so much?" He asks. His voice sounding sad and curious.

Hearing him ask that and how his face looks sad, made me quilty. Guilty about the way I have been treating him.

I guess I never actually listened to what he has to say to me. I always pushed him away. His type of conversation always started with "Will you be my girlfriend?" and I hated that. So I never really gave him a chance to continue further.

I shrug. "I don't know for sure. I guess I don't like the way you treat me like I belong to you."

He thought for sometime.

"If I change that about me, will you like me then?" He asks.

I stop in my track. Will I?

I mean, he doesn't look bad. But he doesn't look that good either. Well, that's because I'm comparing him to Jungkook. No one looks as good as Jungkook.

Maybe other than his hyungs.

But if I don't consider Jungkook or his hyungs, then Seth is a pretty good looking guy. I know some girls in university who flirts with Seth. I also know Seth ignores them.

Does he really like me like how he says?

But I can't do this now. I can't give him hope. Because even thought he isn't a bad guy and might be honest, right now I have someone else in my heart.

"I'm sorry. Still no."

He grit his teeth. "Why not?"

"I like someone else."

Even though I made the decision to let him go, I still like him now. I need time to let him go. I don't want to like anyone else just yet.

"Who?" He asks. His voice slightly coming out in anger.

"Someone you don't know." I said. Seeing as how he is slowly becoming angry, I sigh. "I'm sorry. but I should get back to work."

I stood up to go to the kitchen. He didn't say anything as I looked at him before going. So I just shrugged and went away.

I'm hurting him. I know. But I can't say yes to someone I don't feel like being with. His possessiveness kind of scares me.

I shook my head off of all thoughts amd I took my pipping bag with icing but right as I'm about to start icing, someone grabs me by my wrist tightly.

"You are lying to me. You don't like anyone else. You just don't want to like me."

His voice is venomous. He sounds extremely angry that it's scaring me. He has talked with anger before. Whenever I said nk to him. But it was never this much.

"Answer me Y/n. Why don't you like me?" He asked in a low voice.

His face is closer to me as he pulled me from my hands.

"Why?" He whispers with clenched teeth.

I gulp but somehow find my strenght to answer.

"Because you're treating me like this. Handling me in a way that makes me look weak. Forcing me to answer or do whatever the thing you want me to do even when I don't want to do it. You can't take no for an answer. You don't listen to me when I said that I don't want to be with you. All of those and many more facts about you makes me don't want to be with you." I finish my rant looking right at his eyes.

My heart is beating like crazy noticing hoe close we actually are.

His eyes soften slightly. But then it's quickly replaced with anger.

"I'll make you like me. Even if it means that I will have to force you into things that-" he leans closer into my ear and whispered the last part. "You don't want to do."

With that he slightly pushed me away making me bump into the counter behind me. Pain flared through my back and also where we was gripping me tightly.

He left the kitchen and I soon heard the bell of the door clicking indicating that he must have left the shop too.

Emily came into the kitchen. "There's a cake ord- Y/n are you okay?"

I look up at her.

"Why are you crying?"

I touched my cheeks to see that it's actually moist. I didn't notice that I was crying until she asked me.

I smile and wipe my face with a tissue before nodding to Emily. "I'm fine. Don't worry."

She looked at me with concern but then she soon got back to work as a customer called her.

I went back to work too.

I soon ended the rest of the shift trying to not think about anything. Not about Jungkook, Seth or even about school assignments that I'm missing on.

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When I came home, Mark comes upto me from the sofa.

"Y/n! You have to know what happened today with Julia!"

I smiled. He sounded so excited. I guess his date with Julia might have gone really well for them to be constantly hanging out with one another since monday.

"Mark. I'm sorry buddy. But I'm a little tired today. I'll listen to it all tomorrow." I explained.

He looks a little hurt but quickly looked over at me with concern. "Are you okay? Do you want me to cook something special?"

I chuckled as I ruffled his hair. "You are cute but no. I'm not really hungry. You can make anything you like for yourself okay?"

I waited for his nod and went upstairs to go into my room.

I had a quick shower and because I was emotionally and physically tired, I lied down on the bed.

I let my mind run wild with thoughts. But it was completely occupied by Jungkook.

I kept on crying with many thoughts in my head until I felt him in the room.

That's when I decided to tell him. Him or whoever's here. Even if there's no one. I don't care.

I want it out of my system.

So I told everything that I wanted to tell.

Even that I like him.

I don't know if I scared him away with it. Who would want to hear a girl like me saying that I like you?

But even if he did get scared, I'm glad I said it.

Now it will be easy to let him go.

Soon I felt his presence leave and I felt empty again.

Letting my tears flow without stopping, I closed my eyes letting sleep take me away.

•••••••

I am again in his office. I look towards the table and he is sitting down with his head on his hands. His hair is messy.

Just then the door opened. The pump lipped guy from that day came in again.

"Jungkookah?"

Jungkook looked up.

I gasp at his look. His eyes look puffy and red. His face looks tired. He overall looks like he is having the worst day ever.

His eyes searched the room.

"Y/n?" His horse voice whispered.

Yes I'm here. I'm right here.

"Jungkook?" The other guy called again.

"What Jimin hyung?" He forcused his eyes on Jimin as he shook his head.

I guess he brushed aside the feeling that he had of me being here.

"You fired another one?" The other guy, Jimin asked.

"She was noisy." Jungkook answered. He put his head back in his hands that are kept on the table.

"Jungkook, you already fired 5 for today not counting the one yesterday."

"Hyung please. They were annoying me so I fired them."

"If you fire all then there would be no one left. Control yourself Jungkook! You have never been like this before." Jimin screamed.

"Stop screaming hyung! I'm already having a headache."

"Jungkook. Snap out of it. Either you tell me what's making you act like this or you suck it up and act like an adult!"

"Just leave me alone!" Jungkook screams. I flinched as he raised his voice.

"Tell me whats wrong!?"

"No! Just get out!"

"Jungkook. Don't talk to me like that. You of all the people can't talk to me like that." Jimin's voice reduced.

"Just get out hyung before I do something that I might regret!"

"Are you going to fire me like how you fired everyone that came into your office today?"

"Hyung!"

"Fine. I'll go. Not because I'm afraid of what you might do. But because I don't want to stress you more. But answer me this, What did the girl of yesterday do?"

"She was annoying me too! Why do you wanna know that?"

"Because you weren't like this yesterday! But you fired her still. Jungkook, You had sex with her. It happens with both parties permission. Why did you have to put the fault on her?"

"Because she wanted more with me! She wanted more of what I'm not ready to give her." His voice reduced.

"Jung-"

"It's hard hyung. I can't do this anymore. Why is it so fucking hard?" His tears spill as he said these.

"I watch her everyday. Every night when I close my eyes. She is there. She is right in front of me. Yet so far away. I can't touch her, say anything to her, hold her. I have to watch her cry. I can't explain myself. I can't do anything...."

My own tears started to spill listening to him.

Is he crying because of me? Is he talking about me?

Jimin goes to jungkook and pulls him up for a hug.

"I can't hyung. I wanna tell her that I like her too. I wanted to tell her to give me a chance to say that I like her. I wanna let her know that I care. She cried last night. She cried saying no one likes her. But I do! I like her a lot. I care for her. She said s-she is gonna let me g-go. But I don't want her to."

I cover my mouth trying to cover my sobs.

He heard me.

We see each other.

"Jungkookah calm down." Jimin says as he pat him on the back. Jungkook has his face hidden on the other guy's neck but I can hear his crying.

Every sob he makes is like a needle running through my heart making my tears falls more.

"Why can't you tell her?" He asks in a soothing voice.

Jungkook's sobbing slightly reduce to a stop and he looked up. Towards me. To my direction.

"I hope I'm telling her now." Jungkook said. "I hope she can hear me now. I hope she is here. I can feel someone. But I don't know if it's her. It's so fucking complicated." He sighs. "Y/n, if you're here, if you can bear me, please don't let me go. I like you too. Give me another chance. Please."

I nod rapidly. I will surely give you a chance.

It pains me to not give him an answer. It pains me that he doesn't know that I will give him a chance.

It pains me to know that he will have to think that I gave up.

"Jungkookah. Who are you talking to?"

"Her. She is here. She has to be."

Jimin looks at jungkook pulling back from the hug. I can't see his face as his back is towards me.

He then turns around looking around the room.

"No one is here. No one but us."

Jungkook pulls out of the hug and walk forward. I don't move away from my spot. Even as he walks right towards me.

He stops right in front of me with only a few inches between our bodies.

"She is right here."

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Hello!

So will upload the next chapter today as well.

Double update cause why not?

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