"what?" felix looks at him. "I thought you didn't want to get any"

"I know... but the thought of me losing you just makes me upset... and... I don't want you being upset when I'm gone"

"I'll call doctor kim" chan's dad says and he leaves to talk on the phone with chan's doctor.

"really? are you sure? what about you wanting to be with your mom?"

"I think... fate brought us together... to show me that there's still hope even if my mom isn't here. you brought me happiness again"

this time felix was crying not because of his brother, but because of chan's love for him.

...

"chan... I cannot guarantee that the treatments will work, I just wanted to tell you beforehand" chan nods as he holds felix's hand tight.

"for the first part of it there's a medication you'll take once a day, this will help relax your insides and depending if it works, it will be longer until you die by using them" chan nods.

"there's also a surgery... but since it's still soon to tell... I don't think you'll need it yet, and besides that... the surgery is a life or death situation besides that"

"life or death?" chan asks.

"if the surgery is successful you could be cured but only depending on the operation. but if it's failed, you won't make it through it. that's why you're not ready for it yet. normally we do the surgeries when a patient gets an attack or if they're unstable" chan looks down and nods.

"you're also still young so you'll have a better chance of making it than others... but it still qualifies for you"

"so are you saying he still has a long time left?" chan's dad asks.

"precisely, but it's still yet to say how long, it could be years, but it could also be months or even weeks" the three of them nod.

"thank you so much doctor" chan looks at him.

"if you have anymore questions, call me" chan nods and he leaves the room.

"you better take the medication every day" felix looks at him and he chuckles.

"yes mother"

"felix... can I have a moment with chan alone?" felix nods and he stands up to leave the room.

"what is it dad?"

"I want to give you something... I hope you give it to the right person" he hands chan a ring.

"is this...."

"yes, your mom wanted you to have it and give it to your future lover... I know that you know you want it to be felix right?" chan nods.

"so... are you saying you wouldn't mind if I ask felix to marry me?" he nods.

"he's a good kid, the doctor said you still have time left but he also said that you never know. I say if you really love him with all of your heart... marry him. spend every moment you can with him, I wish I did that with your mom"

"is that what this is about?" he nods.

"when your mom first got diagnosed, she was very young. you were a baby. but like you and felix she didn't tell me for a few months. I was upset with her but before I could spend a lot of time with her I had to work... she was taking care of you with a sickness... she was so strong... I know you are too"

"dad..."

"so take felix, and love him for the rest of your life. if you think he's the one, then cherish him until the last second you have left" chan hugs his dad.

"your mom would be so proud of you"

"thank you, dad. when should I propose?"

"no matter when and how you do it, I'm sure he'll say yes"

"he was the first to say I love you"

"I can tell that you want to spend the rest of your life with him... so do it. I promise that you won't regret marrying at a young age" he stands up and leaves the room.

felix comes back in to see chan crying.

"hey, are you okay?" he brings his head up and wipes his tears.

"I'm sorry... I just... I love you so much"

"I love you too" felix smiles softly.

"do you wanna know what my dad was telling me?" felix nods.

"he gave me his blessing to ask you to marry me" felix could feel his heart beat fast.

"huh?" chan gets down on one knee and holds up the ring his dad gave him.

"I don't know how much time I have left... but I want to spend every day with you, no matter what. I always wanted to love someone and to have someone to cherish, and that's you. I love you with all of my heart and I want to always love you forever. will you marry me?"

felix was speechless, he never thought he would actually get married, never.

"yes" he says softly, chan smiles and puts the ring on his finger.

chan hugs him tight and gives him a soft kiss.

"I love you" felix says and he hugs chan.

"I love you too"

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