"how... how did you find out?"

"that's not important, what's important is that you should've told me"

"I know... it was so hard to tell you, because I was afraid that you would be mad at me"

"I'm not mad, just upset"

"you really have changed, I thought you'd be furious"

"yeah, like I told you, you changed me"

"I really am sorry I didn't tell you, I'll be honest with you about everything"

"does anyone else know?"

"just hyunjin knows, well now you"

"did your mom know?"

"no... I didn't want to upset her in any way" chan looks down.

"if you knew you had cancer why did you help me? why are you with me?"

"because I wanted to fall in love with someone, I wanted to know what love was. but... I guess I was selfish because I didn't realize that whoever I would come to love would be upset"

"lastly, am I gonna lose you?"

"I don't know... the doctor told me to just live my life. he said not to worry about any treatments or anything yet, before I met you I told my dad I didn't want any of that because I wanted to be with my mom"

"I just... feel betrayed now. I wish you would've told me sooner"

"I know I didn't want to worry you and I didn't want to lose you"

"well I don't want to lose you! now I'm gonna be losing you too? I won't have anyone left after that, you think I wouldn't be worried either way?"

"I'm so sorry okay? I realize now I should've told you"

"and don't even think for one second I would ever leave you either" chan looks at him.

"I don't want to leave you" he had tears in his eyes, felix hugs him tight.

"I know"

"I love you so much felix"

"I love you too"

...

"hello? felix?" there was constant banging on the door, but nobody was answering.

"does he still live here? aish" he takes out his phone and scrolls far down on his contacts to see felix's name.

"he might have gotten a different number" he lets the phone ring to see if felix will pick up.

after it rings multiple times, he finds a window to his apartment, so he decides to climb in through the window.

when he finally gets in, it's all dark, he takes out his phone again to turn on the flashlight so he can find the light switch.

"felix?" he looks around to see the whole place was humanless.

"his stuff is here, so he must still live here" he looks around his room, he sees a framed picture of felix and chan on his desk.

"how cute, my bro is grown up now"

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