"are you okay?" chan kneels down to reach his level.

"you... I saw blurry... I saw your figure... you have black hair" he reaches out his hand to touch his hair.

"I do"

"and... your jacket... was dark blue" he moves his hand to his arm to touch his jacket.

"it is"

"I want to... I suddenly want to see more"

"well it's a good sign that you saw things blurry, maybe your sight will slowly come back"

"yeah... I hope so"

felix feels around where he was, and he starts to stand up with the help of chan to help him.

"anyway... your mom... what... what happened? you okay?"

"well I feel better than I did before, which happens" he helps felix sit down on his bed.

"well like I said I don't know how to comfort you because I'm not good with that shit"

"it's fine... don't worry"

"it's not. I know you're hurting. I still do from my parents and it's been many years. just let it out"

"but..."

"I may not be able to see you but I do know that you want to cry" chan looks down.

"it's just... I don't usually cry in front of anyone..."

"neither do I but someday that could change"

"I do hope I'm there when that happens, you'll probably look ugly when you cry" felix looks for his arm and he hits him.

"you know... now that I got to know you better I feel better being around you, but I still don't like you"

"same here, but my mom always told me when I was little that if I don't like someone it could be because I don't know them well enough"

"well I don't believe that because I know you well enough and I still don't like you"

"whatever"

then felix hears chan starting to sob.

he lifts his hand up, and he looks for his shoulder so he can pat it.

"I already miss her" chan says through his sobs and then they start to get louder.

"I think.... another way to comfort someone is to offer them your shoulder to cry on...." chan looks at him.

when he goes back to crying, he lays his head on his shoulder as he lets the tears fall down his cheeks.

suddenly felix felt some feeling inside his stomach.

it wasn't the anger of hate, it was like butterflies.

he didn't show his emotions, but on the inside, he might actually like to be around chan.

perhaps that was why he offered chan his shoulder to cry on.

then he started to have thoughts running through his mind.

could chan be the reason I saw blurry?
it's like every time I thought about him it happened.
when I smiled in front of him it happened.
what does that mean?

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