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Cold cold water. Darkness. The moon was peeking out of the clouds shyly and Tyler was drowning again. The boy closed his eyes, tears escaping his reddened scorching eyes merged with the water. He let out the remaining air out of his lungs and felt them fill with cold water instead. This time he was sure he was going to die. Finally, he'll find peace. The water enveloped his lungs like a cold, suffocating blanket but the boy felt at peace. As much as it hurt he drew in water into his lungs as hard as he could. Aas much as it hurt Tyler knew it was worth it, it won't hurt soon. Nothing will hurt anymore.

Nausea swirled unrestrained in Tyler's empty stomach. His head swam with half-formed regrets and suppressed painful memories. Tyler let out a choked whimper, no one heard him under the water. The beach was empty, no one saw a lonely skinny boy go into the water who didn't came back again. It hurt so much but it was no point in screaming. The burning regret and empty hopes filled him, he didn't have to do this but here he was, drowning himself yet again and for what?

Tyler has always loved the flowers and the birds, he had loved the sunlight and the clouds that drifted by. He had always loved the way the leaves moved in a breeze and that soft whispering sound they made. Yet the tiredness that begun a while ago remained like a veil over the brunette's skin, grey and cold. And as he watched the petals and the twigs that swayed outside the window, there was only a creeping sorrow where there should be joy. It sat like November rain on Tyler's skin, enough to chill what was once warm inside. It's not possible to die from a broken heart but Tyler sure felt like he was dying inside with every breath. But he won't have to feel the pain soon, it'll all be over and he'll see the one he loved so much again. And they're going to be together forever. Always...

"I'm never coming back..."

Tyler's eyelids lowered, he was feeling the darkness envelop him and the peace was so close he could practically grasp it. Tyler's body slowly sunk down, the water was so calm compared to the surface. The deep was calming and not scary at all.

A low, sorrowful hum reached Tyler's ears. It was so dark, filled with grief yet it sparked hope in Tyler's heart. The boy felt his body being pulled up to the surface, a whirling tornado swirled under his as he was pulled up to the surface with an inhuman strength.

Cool ocean breeze hit Tyler's face and the boy felt a familiar warmth on his lips. The melancholic warmth filled his body and oxygen started flowing into his exhausted lungs. Tyler's eyelashes fluttered open, he smiled, tears were already filling his burning eyes.

"Josh..." he whispered for only one person to hear

The man's face was hidden by the shadow of the night but the boy knew who it was just from the touch. Tyler let out a choked whimper, he tried smiling through the tears.

"I got you." the man whispered softly "I got you..."

Tyler let out a weak chuckle as tears ran down his cheeks uncontrollably. The ocean swayed them both lightly, bringing a fake sense of calmness over Tyler. He was happy. Tyler trailed his fingers around the little scales on Josh's temples. The boy's feather-light touch traced Josh's jawline and ended with his lips.

"Josh, I'm sorry." Tyler whimpered "I didn't mean it... I'm sorry."

"You should've thought about that sooner.' Josh's tone suddenly became cold

Tyler lifted his head up slowly. Josh's face was still hidden but Tyler could see the angry flash in the man's eyes.

"Josh I..."

"You should've let me go, Tyler." Josh said "I'm dead, Tyler, you killed me."

"No.. What... I-" Tyler felt his lungs get heavy again

Josh's grip loosened

"I'm dead because of you. You're selfish, all you care about is you."

"I'm so sorry, Josh."

"You should've told me that when I was alive."

Tyler woke up from his own screaming. The boy jumped up in his bed, cold sweat ran down from his hairline. He peeled the sweaty shirt off of himself. It slid off his skin unwillingly, sticky from sweat, clinking onto his skin. Tyler threw the blanket off of him and looked at his phone. It was three am. Tyler rubbed his sore eyes and let out a weak groan. The brunette turned on his night light and grabbed a red pencil. He marked the date on his calendar with a little x and wrote down the time when he woke up. Almost every day of the month was marked with an x.

The boy grabbed a bottle of water from his bedside table and walked to the bathroom. He looked at his bloodshot eyes for a few moments before opening the cabinet and popping a blue-white pill into his mouth. He lifted the bottle up to his mouth with his shaking hands and managed to swallow the pill with struggle. His throat didn't want it to go down and Tyler was willing to shove it down with his fingers. Tyler washed his sweaty face with cold water. As the water hit his face Tyler felt tears come out of his eyes. He wiped his face angrily, he was tired of crying. Everything was too much for him. School, home, family, friends, existence. It weighed him down and made him angry. Why was everyone else happy when he wasn't? Why wasn't Tyler happy like other? Why wasn't he... Normal?

Tyler filled the bath with hot water. He hadn't bathed in a week, hadn't combed his hair, haven't eaten properly in a month. His room was a mess, dirty clothes laid everywhere, the work he was supposed to do for school had piled up on his desk and Tyler didn't even bother to do it. Tyler didn't know what was worse, eating out of boredom and emptiness or not eating at all even if his stomach growled so loud that everyone around him heard it. Tyler had a math test to prepare for but he couldn't be bothered. What's the point?

The brunette slowly sat in his bath, the water was way too hot but he didn't care.He felt so exhausted. All the time. He felt incredibly tired from the point of waking up and no matter how much he slept. Tyler slept in class, during lunch, on the bus and when he came back home. Slep took the majority of his time. Tyler had no motivation, he couldn't concentrate at all. The world was so dull and drained of colour.

Tyler lightly splashed the water around, he enjoyed bubble baths but the bubble liquid was gone and the container was empty. Tyler let out a disappointed sigh when he remembered that he forgot to tell his mom to buy some more. He had forgotten a lot of things. Or maybe he just didn't want to remember because, again, what's the damn point?

Tyler took a deep breath, the steam caressing his skin and the hot water angrily nipping at his skin was soothing. Tyler threw his head back and closed his eyes. He always found his fingers tracing over the necklace. Tyler unconsciously reached for the small red shell and gently traced the edges with his fingers. The boy never looked at it, he tried to avoid seeing it because it was the same blue colour as...

"Ow, god damn." Tyler cursed under his breath feeling the sharp edge cut into his finger and opened his eyes

He looked at the red streaks appearing in the water as blood dripped out of his finger. The blue of the shell was slowly clouded by crimson red, giving it a darker undertone. Tyler sat up straight, splashing the slightly red water around. He put his finger into his mouth to stop the bleeding and quickly took it out of his mouth feeling a slimy texture between his fingers.

He widened his eyes seeing a translucent web between his fingers. Tyler flailed his arms around in panic trying to grab onto the edge of the bath but his scaly legs kept sliding around. Tyler watched with horror as dark red scales grew all around his thighs and calves, spreading to his stomach and arms. Tyler had narrow fins sprouting out his ankles and wrists like some kind of parasite. Tyler let out a sob and clutched his neck with his palms feeling a splitting pain on both sides of it. He breathed heavily, feeling the gaps in his skin open and close with the rhythm of his breathing. Tyler stared at his webbed toes that had enlarged, Tyler let out a sob that sounded more like a hushed scream because his feet reminded him of a frog. His toes became longer than his fingers, a translucent slimy skin joined them together. Tyler looked at his shaking hands. His thin fingers became even thinner and longer, Tyler stared at his long pointy nails. His hands resembled claws. Tyler felt a sharp pain, this time in his jaw. He felt his teeth growing out of his skull and twisting. The boy saw his reflection in the water.

Tyler lifted his upper lip with his finger to get a better look at two rows of sharp pointy teeth. The boy gently ran his fingers across his pointed ears and... Two antennas growing out of both sides of his head that reminded him of the antenna on anglerfish's head.

That was not everything. Tyler realized that his antennas and scales glow in the dark.