Iruma's POV:

FUCK EVERYTHING!

Do you know what they sold to me when I woke up from that mother fucking coma? It was that EVERYONE was alive-that I would be able to have my life back! THAT'S WHAT I WAS PROMISED AFTER THAT FUCKING HELLHOLE!

And just like that lying son of a bitch Kokichi, they're liars.

Because Kiibo is dead. He shouldn't have died-hell I can't believe it still, how someone as nice and for fucks sake innocent could have died in the fucking killing game! HE DIDNT NEED TO DIE! HE DIDNT NEED TO DIE IN THERE! HE DIDNT DO ANYTHING WRONG! BUT NO-Harukawa, Yumeno, and Saihara got to get out of that dumpster fire.

But he didn't, he had to take the fall and the punishment that they were ALL supposed to have, so yeah I'm fucking pissed off, I'm pissed off for what happened to him inside that game...and I'm pissed off that it happened in real life as well.

Because...someone...some sick mother fucker killed him.

I AM FUCKING PISSED! WHY?! WHY KILL HIM?! HE WAS ALREADY DYING-HE WAS ALREADY SUFFERING! I HAD ONLY BEGUN TO PROCESS I WOULD NEVER BE ABLE TO SEE HIM AGAIN! I NEVER WOULD HAVE BEEN ABLE TO HAVE FUN WITH HIM AGAIN AND HEAR HIS VOICE! I NEVER GOT TO ASK HIM...I'll never...get to ask him...if...

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It doesn't matter what I was going to ask him, because...I'll never get my answer...maybe if I hadn't died when I did...maybe if I had just lived a little longer, I would have gotten my chance to ask him...what if he answered positively? What if...

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I tried to kill someone. I tried to commit a murder...and I wonder...even now when everything has been over for months...when soon an entire year would have passed...if I would have gotten away with it...would I have regretted it? I...if that had happened it wouldn't have been some mysterious person, who I can't wait to rip the dick out of, who killed Kiibo.

I would've been the one who killed Kiibo. If I had actually done it, if Ouma had died like I planned...would I have regretted it? Not just when I woke up and figured out everyone was still alive- but would I have regretted it in the moment?

I'll never know.

And it's because of toilet paper...toilet paper...OF ALL THE THINGS IN THIS WORLD IT HAD TO BE TOILET PAPER?! If it had happened to literally anyone else this would have been hilarious, I mean what an embarrassing way to go? Getting choked out with toilet paper?

BUT OF COURSE IT HAD TO HAPPEN TO ME!

Bitch this ain't fair. And I died by the hand of the gremlin, the rat, bane of my existence Kokichi Fucking Ouma. Great...just great...someone kill me again because this shit is embarassing.

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You know when you get a bad feeling? A bad feeling that causes you to get the willies? Or who knows maybe that turns you on, I don't judge. Well that's what I am feeling right now, because guess what? My neck hurts because me and Akamatsu have joined the 'let's choke ourselves in our sleep' club, or the occasional scratching your neck so much it starts bleeding.

This wouldn't be that bad if they didn't ban me from my chokers, which fucking sucks because they make me look hot. Oh well I guess they technically weren't real anyway...fuck me...at least my boobs are still the same size otherwise I woulda gone bungy jumping off the roof by now.

Oh wait is that to soon?

This isn't going to end well, oh boy the swear jar is going to get a mother fucking donation today...why the heck did they insist I gotta stop swearing? WHO THE FUCK CARES IF I USED TO BE IN A BOARDING SCHOOL AND PROPER AND SOME SHIT?

Guess what? I like who I fucking am now so you gotta deal with it! TAKE THAT! Who the fuck is even coming in anyway cause they're late.

"Hello?" a voice called out into the room, my body tensed up and I felt myself sweating as he walked inside...what...no...why wouldn't they have fucking warned me? HIM? He's like the second worse option out of all of these asshole!

Fuck me, fuck me, fuck me-

"Gonta happy to see Miu" Gokuhara said, he had a big smile on his face and he still looked innocent, he always seemed to appear as someone who couldn't harm a fly, but definitely could smash someone else.

Oooh I didn't even mean to make that dirty...but my god why is he here?

"What the fuck-?" I started, rubbing my eyes just to make sure I wasn't hallucinating, it wasn't impossible I mean... "Gonta sorry" he immediately said looking down, "Gonta sorry for killing friend Miu" he emphasized.

...Sorry? A part of me wanted to scream at him, that just feeling 'sorry' wasn't fucking good enough but...

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He had tears in his eyes as he said those words, and if anyone was actually going to mean their words....it would have been him..."Gonta idiot" he mumbled, "Gonta idiot...Gonta could not protect friends...Gonta not gentleman to friend Miu...Gonta sorry...Gonta hope friend Miu will still be friend Miu" he said.

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"Stop saying sorry" I mumbled, "huh?" Gokuhara asked confused, I looked up at him dead in the eye, "I said to fucking stop apologizing dip shit, because guess what? You did the actual fucking deed but guess what? I got my revenge when you fucking died so it's cool ok? I'm not even that pissed, I thought I would be but...that's the thing, you're to fucking nice you know that? You're fucking nice to anyone, even the assholes who don't appreciate you.

"So guess what, the one who actually needs to beg on their fucking knees for my forgiveness is Kokichi Fucking Ouma, and he should do the same thing to you, because that little shit destroyed our lives you hear me? SO STOP FUCKING APOLOGIZING! You messed up, big deal, but at least you fucking apologized so we're cool alright?" I told him.

Gokuhara smiled happily, tears of joy in his eyes, "Miu not mad at Gonta?" he asked, "I'm fucking mad at the rat not you dipshit" I told him getting a little annoyed, "but Gonta not want Miu to be mad at friend Kokichi" he said disappointed.

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"I'M SORRY YOUR WHAT? Did you just call that asshole your friend? You do realize what he did right? HE SET YOU UP! He fucking used you as a sacrifice! AND YOU'RE CALLING HIM A FUCKING FRIEND?" I screamed, "Gonta want to be friends with everyone" he said nervously.

"What the fuck..." I cursed as I got up and out of the room, "so do you blame him?" I asked him turning back for a second, he looked at me unsure before I sighed and left the room.

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Someone nice like him died...all the innocent people in that game died...and the worst part of this whole shitty situation is...

I'm part of the blame.