i feel so confused yet triggered

i play the guard role in basketball

and i play at the park close to my house

that place is quite literally my home most of the time

honestly a few weeks back

on thursday, my mom had night duty and my dad was going out to some dinner with his coworkers

i was like fuck it

im not going home

so my mom calls round 5:40, she's like abdullah, im going to work now, okay? when you get home, just check the fridge, there's probably some food in there, if not order something with the money i left on the table, okay bye!

im like

yep

yep

yep

oh of course i'm definitely home

my mate li laughs his ass was off behind me

okay bye mom

i asked the bus driver to drop me off infront of the park

went to the changing rooms, showered, changed clothes, and i went to the courts

basically i actually reached home at 10:45

i played basketball all evening and night
this guy, some coach, ofc he's Philippino, favors this team we thrashed over us because they're also Philippino

they lost 21-1

i was legit like fuck dis, imma go, no point if we get no recognition

i swear and then i woke up late the next day and my dad (as usual) is awake early and he's like y u late?

and i was actually about to say was out till 10:40 duh and i stopped midway and my dad's like

wut

i just went like fuck it i'll say i was studying

istg basketball makes me feel so many emotions i thought only one girl could make me feel

(but like there still are an array of emotions that one girl only makes me feel)

i guess i just have

my head in the game