⚠️ Mentions Suicide ⚠️

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You jolted up from sleep, gasping and sweating. You looked beside you, Jimin was sleeping. Your eyes watered again. Not wanting to wake him up, you slowly slipped out of the bed and went to the bathroom.

You breathed heavily clutching the edges of the counter tightly, the cuts on your palm hurted but that wasn't what mattered right now. A tear rolled down from your eye as you stared at your reflection. You bit your lip hard, trying to keep your sound at the minimum level. You looked around and found a roll of toilet paper, grabbing it and tearing the tissues out, you started wiping yourself. Your hand moved the faucet, turning it on and put the water on your arms; then lifting the shirt you wearing and putting the water on your waist and stomach.

Your left palm pressed tightly on your mouth so your sobbing sound won't reach Jimin as you rubbed your skin with the tissues harshly, making the skin look red. But this feeling wasn't going away, no matter how much you washed yourself, no matter how much you wiped your skin. That dirty touch crept deep in your body.

It wasn't the first time that you woke up tonight. Things were getting hard with time. You weren't able to sleep, to eat, to look at others, to look at yourself and to even be. Its been three days, you believed it would change, but what you didn't know was that it was changing for worse.

And for the first time, you thought how it would feel to not feel anymore.

Your eyes landed on Jimin's razor. You stared at it for a moment, reconsidering your thoughts. You remembered each and every thing that ever happened to you, from your parents never being around you, to people telling shit to you, then you hurting yourself, to running away from home, and now this. Everything flashed in your head. Which is when you realized how much you've been holding yourself till now.

Your right hand lifted to get the razor. You glanced at your wrist, and then at the blade of razor in your hand. A small part of you was screaming for Jimin to come and save you one last time. And your hand was shaking as you brought it close to the skin of your wrist.

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Jimin stirred on the bed, turning to his side. On finding the bed empty on his right, a frown crept between his brows. He sat up and looked around,

"Y/N-ah?" He called in a sleepy voice.

The bathroom lights were on. He sighed and turned to the nightstand, grabbing a glass of water. He gulped the water down and placed the empty glass back. He didn't get proper sleep either. He had to make sure you were fine and getting enough sleep. His eyelids were getting heavy with each second. Jungkook had said that he'd stay with you for tonight so Jimin can get some sleep. But he rejected the offer saying how can he sleep when his princess wasn't able to sleep.

After struggling for about ten minutes to keep himself awake, Jimin realized you're taking too long. He rubbed his eyes and stood up.

"Y/N-ah?" He said, knocking on the bathroom door.

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You wanted to respond, but it felt like taking too much energy just to speak. Your eyes were getting blurry, the dark red liquid was all what you were seeing. You didn't remember when was the last time you felt so hurt het so peaceful. The urge of sleeping was never this strong. You relaxed at thought of all the shit finally ending.

"Y/N!" Jimin rushed to your side, shaking you and trying to help you in keeping your eyes open.

He hastily carried you and sprinted out of the room. He called the others and told them to get a car ready. Yoongi was quick react and wrap something on your wrist tightly to stop the blood. Namjoon drove the car with Yoongi sitting on the front and you laid in Jimin's lap. The way to the hospital felt longer than life to your brother. Tears trickled down his face, falling on your cheek. You squinted your eyes and opened them a little, exhausted. Jimin was patting your cheek telling you something, you didn't get what.

"Y/N, look at me love." He said. You couldn't understand what he was saying, sounds came muffled fo you. Just you saw him crying and that was enough to make you cry too.

A tear left your eye, before you closed your eyes not wanting to see your brother cry so much over someone like you.

"Please Y/N keep your eyes open." He cried, "Oppa's here, he won't let anything happen to his baby sister. You don't have to be scared okay?"

"Namjoon for God's sake drive fast!" Yoongi said, after taking a glance at the back seat.

"Almost there hyung" Namjoon replied.

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Jimin sat with his face burried in his palms, and Namjoon comforting him telling that you'd be fine. But he won't listen to anyone other than the doctor himself. In the car when he saw you closing your eyes, he felt his world fall apart. Never in his life had he thought of his sister taking such a step. He won't blame you though, he knew it was the hardest for you. But he didn't wanted to lose his precious sister because of the stupid world.

He lifted his head up on hearing your name being called by the doctor as he left the room.

"Yes" he said quickly walking up to the doctor. Yoongi and Namjoon followed the suit.

"How's my sister? Is she okay?" Jimin asked not waiting for anybody to say anything.

"Uh yes, she has lost a lot of blood. But she's fine now. Stoping the blood from flowing was a good idea. We've done arrangements for the blood being donated. And she should be up till morning." The doctor said.

"Thank you" Jimin said, finally able to breath properly, "thank you so much doctor."

"That's my job Mr.Jeon" he said.

"Can we see her?" Jimin asked.

"Sure, but not now. You can go in once we're done with a few tests." The doctor replied and patted Jimin's shoulder before taking his leave.

Jimin turned to Yoongi and gave him a tight hug. Yoongi too sighed in relief and patted the younger's back. Namjoon's phone rang interrupting their hugging session,

"Yes hyung?" He answered.

"Yeah, the doctor said she's fine and she'll be up by morning."

"he's here." Namjoon said and gave the phone to Jimin, signalling him to talk.

"Hyung..." Jimin heard Jungkook's voice.

"Kook don't cry, Y/N is fine." Jimin said, instead of hearing a response, he heard the boy sob. "We can do one thing. Jin hyung will drive you here in the morning and you can meet her then okay?"

"N-No, I'm coming now." The younger said.

"No bunny, stay at home with your other hyungs. You can come when its morning." Jimin said.

"But hyung I-"

"Please listen to me Kook, its just a few hours. Then you can see Y/N, I promise." Jimin said, "there's no point in coming here right now. The doctor said she'd be awake around morning."

"In the m-morning?" Jungkook spoke.

"Yes buuny, in the morning. Be my good brother and don't cry now alright? Y/N is okay."

"Mhmm"

Jimin gave the phone back to Namjoon and sat down next to him. He rested back and massaged his temples, its been a long night.

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"Hyung if Y/N wakes up before I come, please tell her that I'm mad." Jungkook said on the phone.

"Kook go and sleep." Jimin said.

"I can't" Jungkook said. Jimin sighed and glanced at Yoongi, who leaned forward and took the phone from his hand.

"Jungkook-ah, listen to your hyung and go take some rest. We're here you don't have to worry." He said.

"I tried to sleep hyung, but I can't sleep. I'm having bad dreams." Jungkook said.

"What dreams?" Yoongi asked.

"Bad dreams." Jungkook said, "like Y/Nie died and I can't see her again..." Yoongi's expression softened on hearing Jungkook's soft and upset voice.

"No Kook she's fine. Don't let such thoughts get in your head. Y/N is okay and you will see her."

"...okay" Jungkook mumbled.

"Good, I'm hanging up now alright?" Yoongi said, on hearing Jungkook hum in response he ended the call, and took a seat himself.

"He'd call again in a few" Jimin said, leaning back. Yoongi chuckled.

"He's being a concerned big brother, that's it." He said. Jimin nodded, "he has learned that from you." Yoongi stated, making Jimin and Namjoon chuckle.

"I don't know how he'll react on seeing her, or how Y/N will react..." Jimin said staring at the floor, "I hope I can manage."

"You can" Namjoon said, "and you will."

"Yeah you've been handling everything pretty good till now. You can take this too." Yoongi said. "Plus we're here to help you and support you."

"Thank you hyung" Jimin said to both Yoongi and Namjoon.

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A/N—

Alright guys, I was going to upload a one-shot but I thought taking the main plot ahead is more important right now.

What about you think about this chapter? Is it okay? Pls comment and let me know 🤗
 
Now some important thing,
I have quite a few ideas about the next one shot (some of them are requests from you guys) please tell me which one do you like...

1. SickFic (in which Y/N has ASD)

2. Bad bro (in which Jungkook has a girlfriend)

3. Baby (in which Y/N is a toddler. Pls tell the age of the boys for this 😭)

4. How are babies made? (You know what it means)

Or if you have anything else, please feel free to add. I'll try to write it. You can refer to other one-shots that I've done for the reference of the way I write.

Thank you for reading! 💜💜💜

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