Everything was blurry at first, but in a few seconds, everything came into view. It looked like I was in a hospital room but only a little bigger.

I brought my palm up to my eyes so I could rub them, but when my finger tips touch something, I raised my eyebrows. I looked to my right side and saw one of those hospital machine so show your heart beat. I notice that the wire things were also on my arms and chest.

It kind of freaked me out cause I ripped them off me and looked around the room to see where I was.

I swung my leg over the edge of the bed. I notice I was wearing one of those hospital gowns. I placed my feet on the floor and got up, but I only fell on the floor. My legs must be asleep. How long was I passed out?

The door of the room open and I saw who came in looked so different.

Kayla.

I gasped. One because she looked so different, in a good way. And her mouth was slightly open showing to pointy canines.

She realized I wasn't on the bed and looked at the floor. Her eyes flew open in shock and not even a second I felt her hand on both my arms, helping me up. "Dorinda, are you okay?", she asked. Her voice, it changed. I mean, it sounds the same, but it was more beautiful, like if she sang.

My eyes never left her face. Her skin looked like a porcelain doll. Beautiful and pale.

"Um, yeah.", I finally said. She help me back on my bed and laid down on it as she pulled up a chair and sat on it.

She smiled, "I was worried about you.", she said, placing her hand on top of my right hand.

Still my eyes never left her face, "Your-you're a-a", I kept on repeating each words, not sure if I could say it.

Her smiled faded, "I know.", she looked at the ground, than back up at me.

My eyes started to water and it was hard to keep a tear in. I sniffed, "I'm so sorry, Kayla. This would have never happen to you if-",

She placed both hand on my right hand, "Shh, don't kid yourself. You didn't do anything wrong, babe. I don't blame you for--"

"Well you should," I spat, more tears coming out. The only reason why she's a vampire is because of me. If only I protected her better, she wouldn't be a vampire and she would still have her humanity. If only I didn't like Lucas then Emma would have never hated me more than she did, she wouldn't have took Kayla life. "It should have been me that should be in your position.",

She closed her eyes and quietly laughed to her self. She than opened her eyes again, "Dorinda, your are my best friend. I don't blame you. How were you suppose to know what was going to happen to me. Even, you save my life. I mean, I may be 'dead', but at least I'm not 'dead dead'. I know it sounds crazy, but I rather be a vampire than be fully dead."

I stop crying, but it didn't make me feel any better. I then remember something, I got stabbed in the back. I reach behind my back to where I got stabbed. Nothing, I felt nothing. No band aid and no scar. I raised my eyebrow in confusion. There should be at least a band aid their.

"Lucas got a witch to heal the cut.", Kayla said. My heart ached when she said Lucas. I want to see him. I don't know why, but I want to see him for many reason why.

"Where is Lucas?", I asked, not looking at Kayla cause I felt my cheeks turn pink.

"In his bedroom. I could go get him for you.", she said, getting up from her seat.

"No, no, it's okay.", I said, pulling her back to sit on the chair. How much I want to see him, I couldn't right now. I probably look horrible. Kayla grew a grin on her face. "What?", I asked.

"You like him, you like the Prince.", she mocked me as she poked me.

"I-I do not--okay, I do.", I said, happy I could tell someone. But it feels more then a crush. I didn't want to believe it, but it feels like the L word. Love. I never felt what love was. I never said it to anyone. So is it really love or just a huge crush? I mean, he saved me and ever time we touch, I feels like I don't ever want to pull away. And don't they say a kiss an say a lot of things?

She kept on grinning. "He seems like a nice guy. He talk a lot about you for the past week when he would check on you.",

"I been a sleep for the past week?", I asked, shocked. I am happy Lucas checking up on me. Trust me, I want to smile so big until my cheeks hurt, but I was a sleep for a week? Really?

Her smile faded, "Yeah, we were all worried. But now we only have to wait till that black hair boy with the green tattoo--what's his name?", she said going into thought. But I knew who she was talking about.

"Liam?", I asked. My voice was as shocked as I looked. What happen to him. "W-where is he? What happen to him", I asked, swinging my legs over the edge, but Kayla pulled them right back on.

"Are you crazy, you just woke up.", she said. "And he's in a coma,"

"Why?", I asked a little to fast. I may not like-like him, but I still care about him in a friend way. He still important to me.

"Well cause one of those big guys that works for that Emma chick stabbed him the chest close to his heart.", she said, confused. "Dorinda, are you not telling me something. Do you--do you like him, too?", she asked.

"No, no." , I said, rubbing my head as a headache began. "It's just--he means a lot and it's just complicated.", I said, even though it wasn't true. I knew who I like, love even maybe, and it's not him. It's just kind of hard to explain. "Is he going to be alright?", I asked, worried.

"We don't know. All I know is their moving him to place called La Paix realm, something about it being his home and taken him to their hospital.",

I didn't like, but I relax. I sighed as I laid back down and tired to control my headache. "So, are you as freak out as I was?", I asked, looking at her.

She raised her right eyebrow, "What do you mean?", I asked.

"Being a vampire and this," I said, holding my hands up in mid-air like I was pointing at something, "world.", I asked.

"Oh, yeah.", she said a little slow. "It's hard, being a vampire. I mean, I know i'll have bloodlust as Lucas likes to calls it, but he told me it'll come real soon, but I'm happy you woke up before it did or I wouldn't be able to come near you. And right now, blood is totally gross to me, but it'll change once bloodlust comes. And that super hearing and smelling thing, will come in soon too. Mostly everything a grown vampire has, like powers, will come in soon. Will at least that's what Lucas told me.", she said.

"And," she said, sighing. "This world,", she said, getting up and walking around the room. She put her hands in her pocket, "Is all new. I mean, I can't believe this is where you been the whole time. You parents and me, we thought--we thought you were..", she didn't finish.

I nodded my head, knowing what she was going to say. "Yeah." I said. I then thought about her parents. I looked down at my hands, "Kayla, you do know you probably can't go back to your par-",

"I know.", she said, a little quickly. It sounded a little like a sob to. She quickly wiped under her eyes and looked at the floor, "Um,", she said, "I should really go get Lucas, let him know your awake.",

I didn't want to make her more upset, so I just nodded my head and smile. She smiled back and turn around and left. I sighed to myself. Even though I know she doesn't want to admit it, she misses them and it's my fault. Maybe if I just wouldn't have thanked Lucas that night after I left the party, this wouldn't have happen.

Me and Kayla would have a normal happy life. My parents wouldn't think I'm dead and Kayla wouldn't be a vampire.

But if I didn't say I own Lucas one, I wouldn't have fallen in love with the most annoying, crazy, mean, jerkess, amazing, and gorgeous guy in the whole wide world.

I hate him for making me love him.

While I was moving my feet around to awake them up, the door open and Kayla came in with Lucas.

Lucas took one look at me than looked at Kayla and said, "Thank you, you may go now.". she smiled at him and left, but before she left, she smiled at me. As she walked out the room, Lucas closed the door behind her and leaned on the door. "How do you feel?", he asked.

"Um,", I said, pressing my palms on the bed and readjusting myself so I could feel comfortable. "Good, I mean, I'm not in any kind of pain.",

"That's good.",

I just smile and shrugged in agreement. It began to feel akward. We just kept on looking at each other, not saying anything. My eyes than met his and they looked a little sad. He than spoke, "Once your all better, you must pack all your things and I'll have a witch take you back to your world.", he said, clear and all business like.

My mouth open a little and I just looked at him in shock. He wants me to go back? But why?

I shook my head quickly to protest, "N-no-"

"Yes, I'm freeing you, you wont be a slave to this world anymore.", he said.

My eyes fell from his in shock and continue, "Why, I thought-I though-no, I'm not leaving .", I said, looking at him again. Why does he want me to leave?

"Yes you are.", he said. He opened the door, but before he could walk out, I got out of bed and ran up to the door and closed it before he could walk out.

"Why do you want me to leave?", I asked, making eye contact with him. "I thought you-", I stopped before I could get the word out. I didn't forget about what Emma said a week ago. My heart start to beat fast because I start to feel nervous.

"That's why I'm sending you back.", he said, twisting the knob and opening it, but it was barely open when I pushed it closed. He must not be putting all his strength on opening the door.

"No.", I said again. "Why do you want me to leave? Is it just because you don't want me around anymore, bugging you or something? Or because of what happen a week ago-",

"Yes.", he said, a little cold. My shock must have shown when my eyes open slightly bigger. He sighed and spoke more calmly, "You heard what Emma said about Savanna and what I did, I don't want to make that mistake again.",

I remember that to. I didn't want to believe it. "So, you did kill her?", I asked, feeling angry now. One, because he wasn't telling me the truth when he told me. Second, he killed her. He dropped his head and looked at the floor. I guess theirs my answer, "Why?', I demand.

He looked at me again, "On the fourth month when she was pregnant, I got really angry, at my parents. I told the truth when I said they didn't like her. Let me finish," he said, before I could say that didn't matter, "so I stormed back to my room so angry that I was ready to kill anyone that's in my way. Savanna was in the room. She tired to calm me down, but I was really angry.", he paused for a second, "But than I snapped, I took her by her neck and..and..and.", his voice crack and he didn't finish, fighting back tears.

I didn't know what to say then. He didn't mean to kill her, it was an accident. I took his left his cold hand and placed it on my chest where my heart was, his eyes than met mine. "Can you feel it beat?", I asked, feel my cheeks turn pink and I could feel my heart beat face cause where I placed his hand.

Lucas bit his bottom lip and nodded. "Yes.".

"My life already ended on my world, I belong here, with you, with the others. ", I said, biting down my tongue so I wouldn't say how I feel about him. I can't right now. "I forgive you, Lucas."

We just looked at each eyes for a few seconds, but it felt like hours to me. His eyes were still fill with sadness and I'm just waiting for them to change. Please change to a happy mood.

I didn't even think when I got on my tippy toes to reach up to him and kissed him. He didn't move his lips at first, but in a few second he kissed me back. It was nice and slow. My heart just started to race more and more. I wrapped my arms around his neck and his hands went on my back.

After a minute, he pulled away and spoke, "Pack fast.", and then he was gone.

*

"Keep it," Jasmine said as she handed back the black dress she let me borrow the night of the ball.

"I can't," I said, holding it out for her to take it again, "it isn't mine."

The left side of her mouth twitch up into a half smile as she pushed my hand with the dress back to me, "The whole reason why I'm telling you to keep it. Think of it as something to remember me by."

I half smiled, "Thanks."

I folded up the dress and put it my suitcase. I wanted the feeling of Lucas lip just to go away. I hate him so much. He wants me to leave just cause of what happen. It isn't right. I belong here now. My family, even though I hate to admit it, thinks I'm dead. I just can't pop back up in my world and everything's okay.

Can I?

No, I can't. I sighed to myself as I low as I can and closed the suitcase.

Lucas wasn't joking. I wish he was though. I don't want to leave, but I don't have a choice. It make me hate him more.

Lucas didn't really answer my question when I asked if he loved me. But I don't know, maybe he did. How does taking me back to my world telling me he loves me? He wouldn't want me to leave if he did.

But I guess it didn't matter. Vamps and humans can't have a relationship with each other. My heart ached to think I'll ever have a relationship with Lucas. I know it'll never happen. So why think of it?

Maybe going back will help me get over my feels towards Lucas. Sticking around here would just be pointless.

But there'll still a part of me that wants to stay and just be around Lucas. I don't care if it means cleaning up his bedroom or bathroom, just as long as I'm around him.

I sighed again. I did it a little to loud cause Jasmine spoke, "You okay?", she asked.

"Um," I said quickly as I straighten myself and pushed my hair behind my ears, "yeah, just a little upset about leave." I admitted.

Jasmine smiled faded, "Yeah, I upset to. We became such good friends.",

"Mh-mmm.", I said. It's true. I'll miss Jasmine and the others. We all became so close, well me and Jasmine became close. "Um, we better hurry. I wanna say goodbye to the other before Lucas comes and looks for me and nag me about not hurry up and getting to his office.",

A little of me wanted that to happen too.

A few minutes later...

Everyone was in the medical hallway on the lower floor cause they wanted to say goodbye and I could at least see Liam sleeping body.

Jasmine walked into the room first and I followed. Everyone was around the bed where Liam was laying. My chest felt like it was being pressed down on. Liam looked horrible. His face was all bruised and a head band aid was around his head.

What caught my eyes was their was a band aid wrapped around his chest. I wanted to look away so badly.

First thing that hit me was guilt. If Emma didn't go all psycho chick, he wouldn't have been hurt. He nearly died--because of me! The feeling I had about Kayla new life earlier came back.

The guilt than changed to anger, "Why didn't that witch heal him?" I snapped as I walked up to his bed.

She healed me, why wouldn't she do the same thing for him?

Luna put her hand on my shoulder, "Calm down," she said, "and she couldn't. Witch powers don't work on pixies. It'll just make it worst if she did.",

I shrugged off her hand and closed my eyes tightly it hurt. I was trying to hold back tears. I hate this.

I opened my eyes again when I could push back the tears. My eyes went to Isabelle. Around her eyes were an ugly yellow color. On the left side of her cheek was a small cut.

"You okay?", she asked.

I nodded my head, "So you guys are sending him back.", I said, not really making it a question.

"Well we're trying.", Edric said.

My forehead wrinkled in confusion, "What do you mean?",

"Every time we try to pick him up, he screams and kicks; like we're burning him when we try to left him up.", Edric said. I heard the confusion in his voice. "We don't know why.",

"Buuut," Romy said as she looked at me, "hopefully we can find out. Dorinda, we need your help.",

I didn't hesitate, "With what?"

"We need you to get in his sleep. Talk to him.",

I blinked at her, "Huh?",

"Liam and pixies like Liam are different. What I mean is--some can, lets say like telepath in there sleep. Liam might let you in whatever he's dreaming of.", Romy said.

I hesitated for a second. What? Is that even possible? Well hell, anything can be possible now. A little over a month here I'm still learning. But I guess I wont learn more after this.

"So," Romy said, "We need him to let you in and you can talk to him. Let him know everything okay, that we're not hurting him when we left and move him.",

I looked at Liam. He didn't look very comfortable, even in his sleep.

"Okay," I said, not even looking at Romy, "what do I have to do?",

"Well first, everyone move back.", she said as she waved the other back. She than told me to sit down on the bed next to him; I did as she said. She than put both our hands together and spoke, "Now just relax. Say his name in you mind and tell him to let you in. Than we'll see were we'll go.",

I closed my eyes and took a deep breath. I let the air out after a few seconds and thought, Liam, please let me in. We need to talk-

I gasped as I felt something cold hit my cheek. I opened my eyes and looked around. I saw a dark street. It looked really gothic and terrifying. It was also snowing and I saw smoke up in the air.

Suddenly my head starting hurting. Like someone stuck a needle in my head. My vision was becoming fuzzy. My vision than kept changing back to the dark street to the medical room. Before I could think, I yelled, "Liam, please stop.", I said, not really sure what to do.

The pain in my head just grew worse. Every time it would change to the dark street, the smoke filled my lungs. I started to cough.

I let go of Liam hand and brought it up to my chest as I tired to stop coughing.

"Dorinda, calm down.", Jasmine said as I notice she was holding my waste. I realized she was trying to hold me up from falling.

"What happening?", I asked.

"He doesn't want to see you.",

"What? Why?",

"I don't know. He might be mad at you.",

Perfectly understandable to. Because of me he almost died. And because he might still like me and I like someone else. This sucks.

I am such a horrible person.

Five minutes later...

Before Jasmine and me even got to Lucas office bedroom, Kayla opened the doors. She hugged me in surprised and I almost lost balance. I couldn't even wrapped my arms around her cause wrapped her arms around mine. "Oh Dorinda, I heard.", she said as she pulled away, "I promise, once everything okay with me, I will come and see you.",

"Um, okay.", I said, still a shock from the hug-almost-falling. I then smelled something like axe cologne. "Is that cologne?", I asked.

Kayla's eyebrows wrinkled in confusion as she pulled her shirt up to her nose and sniffed. "Oh,", she said in realization, "that Lucas cologne. I tripped and he caught me before I fell on the ground.", she than smelled, "I am such a clutch.",

I felt my cheek go red and bit down on my lower lip. Just imagining Lucas arms around her just made me jealous...

Stop it, Dorinda. I thought. I shouldn't be getting jealous. She just tripped. That's all. He was just being nice.

Even, I shouldn't care. This witch he has is taking me back. It'll all be over soon. No more Shadow Coven. No more vamps. No more pixies. No more werewolves. No more...no more Lucas.

I turn to face Jasmine. I gave a sad smile as we both hugged each other. I herd her sniffed a few times before speaking, "I'll miss ya, Dorinda.", she said.

"I know," I said as I pet her blonde curls she did today, "I'll miss you to, Jasmine-May.", I said, using her full name.

She chuckled as we pulled away from the hug and wrapped the tear that was coming out her left eye, "Have a good life. Never forget about me and the others.",

"Never.", I promised.

She then walked away. It looked like she was trying not to behind her shoulders.

I sighed as I grabbed my suitcase and I raised my chin. I will walk in their with pride. One because, I don't want Lucas to see the part of me that wants to say. And second, so he think I forgot about the kiss.

As I walked into the room and saw Lucas, I almost dropped my suitcase. Damn him. He changed his cloths? He was wearing a black jeans and a black button up and down shirt. What made me stop was cause the first three button were unbutton, showing off his chest. He looked really...

Stop it,

I quickly looked around the room before he realizes I was staring. I didn't see anyone but Kayla, Lucas, and me. "I thought a witch was---"

"Change of plans.", Lucas said, cutting me off. "I'll be taking you.", he said, his voice sounded very casual. There was no emotion. Does he even care he sending me back?

Did I want him to send me back?

A little.

"Oh, um, okay.", I said, a little confused.

"What? You don't want me to take you myself?", he asked.

"What? No, it's just that-",

"Good.", he said, cutting me off again. Why is he acting different. He wiggle his finger at Kayla and me, "Whenever your done with your goodbyes.", he said.

I raised my left eyebrow. What was with the tone? I mean, it wasn't hurtful or anything, it's just...different.

Me and Kayla hugged real tight, well I hugged tight. Her grasp felt tight without her even trying. I realized how cold she felt.

My eyes start to water up again. I pressed my eyes into her shoulder and she did the same thing. Once I finally able to hold back the tears, I moved my face from her shoulder.

We pulled out of the hug, "This isn't a goodbye.", Kayla said. "It's just, see you a little later.", she said as she tired to brighten up the goodbye. She was kind of right, she did say she was going to come and see me.

"Yeah.", that was all I could really say.

She sniffed, "You better go before I start bawling.", she said, sniffing again.

I gave a half before frowning and turning around. Lucas was digging in his pocket and pulled out a little jewelry sack. He reached in pulled out a really small metal ball. He placed it on the floor and spoke in Latin.

After the a moment, the crystal ball became the size of a bedroom door. I gasped in shock, "How in the hell did that happen?", I asked, not taking my eye off the portal looking thing. Inside it was mixture of grey, blue, and dark purple. It look like a tv static.

'Magic.", Lucas said as he shrugged his shoulders.

I pointed at the portal thing, "I-I'm not going throw that.", I told him.

"It's not like it's going to hurt you.", he said, laughing.

I felt my cheeks burn, "I-I know that!", I said quickly.

"Okay, well after you.", he said.

I picked up my suitcase, gave Kayla a side hug before walking up to the portal thing. "It's is safe, right?"

"Yes.",

After a few second of hesitation if I should or should not go in. I sighed and stepped throw it.

Thirty seconds later...

"Ump.", I moaned as I landed on my hands and knees. I heard Lucas step perfectly through the portal.

"Oh, sorry about that," he said, as he was in front of me in a second, holding out his hand. My left eyebrow went up fast when I herd his voice change. It sounded caring.

I reached my hand out anyways and he lifted me up smoothly. "Um, thanks.", I said as a smoothen out my jeans. I looked around to where we were.

A second I realized I was in my...bedroom?

"This is my bedroom.", I said, looking around again. Yeah, it was my bedroom in my parents house. What weird is that it look just the same the week before I met Lucas. "How'd you know where my parents lived?",

"I didn't.", he said. Again my forehead wrinkled in confusion. "When I did the spell , I said to Dorinda's parents house.",

"Okaaay.", I said, still a little confused. "Wait, my parents.", I nervously said as I ran to the my bedroom window. My room in the front yard. I looked up and down the street. I sighed in relief when I didn't see my dad car.

I heard Lucas chuckle behind me. It made me spun around and saw him at my dresser, holding a picture frame. I knew which one it was to. I was nine year old me in the back yard all wet from playing in the pool. I was smiling straight in front of the camera, my two front teeth and one on the bottom was missing.

My cheeks turned pink. I didn't really like that picture. He just kept on looking at the picture as he smiled at it. It started to annoy me actually. I jogged over to him as I took it out of his hand, "Stop that.", I said.

He chuckled again, "Sorry, I just like seeing little kids picture. Reminds me of my own childhood.", he said. His voice was back to normal again?

"Oh.", I said, looking down at the picture before placing it back down on the dresser. Before I could close my mouth, I asked looking up at, "Do you love me?", I blurted. I would bug me or the rest of my life if I never found out, killing me everyday.

I felt my cheeks turn tomato red and I felt my heart speed race. Lucas lips made a straight line as he just look down at me.

I felt the heat in my cheeks get much hater every second he didn't answer me. I realized I was holding my breath. I breath throw my nose as I kept on waiting.

I couldn't take it anymore, I spoke, "Please, answer me.", I said.

It felt like hour, but it was only five seconds before he spoke, "Yes.",

I bit my bottom lip. I didn't know what to say. One part of me wanted to yell, asking him why he wanted me to go. The other wanted to yell I love you back.

I didn't move eye contact as my hand moved to his shirt. I gripped down on it as I felt my self sweat a little as I began to lean up to kiss him. My eyes closed as I was near him.

My lips were softly touching his as I heard a car driving light flash in my room and it stopping in front of my parents house.

The first thought was my parents car. I didn't want to move away from him, but I ran over to my window. My parents walked out my dad car. "Damn it.", I mutter to myself.

I turned around to tell him my parents were outside when I felt his lips smack into mine as he kissed me, his strong hands on my waist, holding me close to him. The kiss was quick and rough. I wanted to make sure I could kiss Lucas as long as I can.

I heard my parents walk up the steps of the front porch, but I didn't stop. I just kept on kissing Lucas.

My breathing was getting heavy, but I kept on going. This is the last time I'll see Lucas. I wanted to make every moment count. My hands found there way up to his hair.

I'll miss the way his lip feel.

I had to tell him; before he leave. If I don't right now, he wont know.

I heard my parents come inside and I heard there voice. My heat face as I spoke threw the kiss, "Lucas--I love-you too.", I said.

He didn't stop or anything just kiss my rougher. A second later, his teeth bit down on my lower lip, making my mouth open. I felt his tongue slide into my mouth.

I heard my parent walked up the steps, but then they started walking up slowly. "Who's there.", I heard my dad voice.

I couldn't help but feel my eyes water. I didn't want Lucas to leave. Me and Lucas stopped kissing and he pulled me into his chest. The tears in my eyes fell out.

I heard outside my door my dad rifle click.

Lucas bent down to my ear and spoke, "This wont be the last time we see each other, I promise.". Then I didn't feel him anymore, making me feel alone

The door of my door burst open and my I saw my dad rifle point at me. My mom hands flew up o her mouth as she like she seen a ghost, "oh, my God."

More tears came out my eyes because of one reason. I'll see Lucas again one day.

Next book is called He's Engaged And I'm Alone...Well, Kinda Book Two!