I got out from my tent after my deep slumber I had been awoken by the sound of the tent being unzipped. I noticed dad had gone. Grace was still asleep beside me. Cautiously I got out of the tent. Luckily I didn't wake Grace up. I wondered around the camp everyone else was here except from dad and Rick. I'm guessing they took Randall out. Behind I heard rustling, I took my knife out and swung around to look at what was behind me. Grace had her arms out in front of her.

"Chill, it's only me!" She said raising her voice a bit.

"Shh, they're gonna hear you." I told her.

"Who's going to hear me?" She questioned me like I was stupid.

"The walkers." I told her. I was sceptical about the place. The farm wouldn't be safe for much longer.

"Nothing will ever reach us here, believe me?" She told me. For someone younger than me by a year. She was kinda wise sometimes. We went over to the porch and sat down on the stairs. The door shut behind us causing Grace to jump. Looking over my shoulder I saw Ellie. It wasn't long until Aria joined us. We were all sat down on the stairs just watching what was left of the world around us. Horses were galloping in fields they were in. Cows were grazing on what was left of the ground. It was nice to see some creatures still alive. It remind me of my dog, Apollo. He was a Cane Corso (Cane Corso's are like a pit bull and a bullmastiff). Of course Apollo being adventurous he ran away 4 weeks before the apocalypse. I don't know if he's still alive or not. But he's a tough boy, he can look after himself. I got a picture out of my jacket pocket. It was of me and Apollo when he was a little pup. My eyes were glazed up, I could feel it. Multiple arms were pulling me into hugs. I put the picture back into my pocket and rubbed my eyes. I stood up and walked back to camp, leaving everyone still on the porch. I walked inside the R.V ignoring Andrea and Lori. I hadn't seen Glenn and Dale today I was kinda worried about them. Hershel hadn't been around all day. Beth was still in her room. Maggie was somewhere, I didn't know where. The door opened, I took a peek at the door. Carl walked in and sat opposite me.

"The girls told me you needed your friend." Carl said while looking out the window. I looked at my hands.

"Wait, you have Apollo. Where is he?" I said sarcastically.

"I don't mean Apollo, I mean me." He told me.

"What I need is my dog, ok? I know that he's alive and safe. I just know. I just need to go back to that house, just for 2 minutes and I'm sure he'll show up." I raised my voice. I started feeling the warm trail of tears coming down my face. "I just need 2 minutes." I said while crying.

"Calm down." Carl told me.

"How can I calm down. My best friend is out there, fending for himself. And your telling me to 'calm down'. In this kind of situation if the world wasn't like this I would be out in the streets and probably found him. But I can't do you know why, the world has gone to fucking shit ok Carl. Calming down isn't in my vocabulary anymore." I shouted at him. I stormed out of the R.V, slamming the door behind me.

"Y/N wait." I could hear Carl say behind me.

"Just leave me alone. Tell everyone to leave me alone." I said to him. I walked over to Daryl And Aria's tent. Daryl was sat by his campfire.

"What do you want?" He asked me as I sat against the wall.

"What I want is my dog but seeming as I can't have him back I want to be left alone." I told him. He chuckled a bit.

"That's the reason me and Aria made camp up here. To be isolated." Daryl told me. I chuckled a bit.

"Sometimes I love the group and days like today they just piss me off. Like in the R.V a few minutes ago. Carl came in telling me to 'calm down' while I was having a complete meltdown about my dog, Apollo, and I just blew him off and told him that I can't calm down anymore." I explained to Daryl.

"That boy, he likes you." He told me.

"I've known him for 12 and a half years. I think I would know if he has a crush on me. He will only ever like me as a friend." I said. I was picking at a split end. "You know something I'm not gonna sit here and listen to you talking about you thinking that my best friend has I crush on me. Because I know him way better than you." I said. I stood up and walked back to camp. I felt a cramping like pain in my stomach. I looked down and saw blood on my jeans. Not much, it wasn't noticeable. I took my jacket off and wrapped it around my waist. No wonder why I was so emotional today. I saw Lori and Maggie outside the house. I walked over to them.

"Do you guys have any tampons I can use or pads it doesn't matter which?" I asked embarrassed and awkwardly. I looked at the ground and shuffled my feet around.

"Of course, do you need some?" Maggie asked me. I nodded my head stiffly. We walked inside and she gave me some tampons. I walked inside of the bathroom so I could use my tampon. This was the worst time to start my period. I was going to angry all day. I didn't even know how long it will last. I was clueless. Stressing wasn't a good thing. If mom was here she would've calmed me down. Gave me a blanket and cuddle up to me on the couch while watching terrible teen romance movies. I walked out of the bathroom. I walked over to the tent and looked in my bag for some comfy clothing. I managed to find a grey knitted sweater and some black leggings. Comfy enough.

I walked out the tent feeling awkward and weird. It felt like I was a bug and I was slowly being killed with bug repellent. I felt like I was dying. I constantly felt like I was being stabbed multiple times with little needles. I sat on a chair and pulled my knees up to my chest. I rested my head on top of my knees. Leaves were crunching around me. Footsteps getting louder and closer behind me. I got my knife out and looked behind me. It was only Carl. I put my knife down and groaned. "What did I tell you?" I asked him.

"I know what you told me. But I'm not leaving you alone or letting you push me away." He told me. He took the chair next to me and sat down.

"That seats taken." I told him, harshly.

"By who?" He asked.

"My will to live and my depression and anxiety." I told him matter-of-factly.

"This is why I'm not letting you push me or anyone away. I don't want you do something stupid." He told me. I smiled a bit but changed my expression back to pissed and angry. "Was that a smile?" He asked me.

"What? I don't know what your talking about." I said to him. I huffed afterwards.

"Come on. Stop acting like this." He told me annoyed. I got up from out of my seat and walked off. Carl tried grabbing my arm but I pulled my arm away. While walking around I saw T-Dog. I walked over to him.

"Where's your sister?" He asked me confused.

"Don't know, don't care." I told him.

"What's up with you today? Why are you acting up like this?" T questioned me.

"Lady stuff." I said in a hushed tone. The only thing he said was 'oh' after. It was quite a shitty day but when wasn't it. I mean everyday is shitty when your fearing for your life. You just had to get used to it.