That note.

That stupid taunting note Carter had left, threatening to take you away. It was the whole reason Lucifer was practically glued to your side now. At first you found it kind of cute, but now you just wanted five seconds to yourself.

"No."

You shoved the devil back, closing the door enough so he couldn't slip in.

"But-"

You pinched the bridge of your nose, closing your eyes for a moment.

"Lucifer, I just need to pee. Alone."

You stressed the word alone, and finally managed to close the door. You didn't even have to go, not really, only wanted a few moments to yourself. You leaned against the door, letting out a prolonged and probably over dramatic sigh.

~

Your escape had in fact been short-lived as Lucifer had come knocking only a few moments later. He explained that the Detective needed him, and he didn't want to leave you with anyone else.

"Leave me with someone? What am I a dog?" Your response was dry and unamused.

Lucifer however grinned like a mad man, wrapping an arm around your waist as the two of you walked into the precinct.

"I wasn't implying that my dear, but if you'd like me to get you a collar I can certainly think a few scenarios we could use it for." Lucifer purred in your ear.

You sputtered a little, stepping away from him with a flustered expression. His smile only grew, and you walked away from him, your pace a little faster than normal.

"A leash perhaps?" He called after you.

Your face flushed, and you slipped into Ella's lab to escape his teasing.

You smiled at Ella, casting a quick glance at Lucifer to see him talking to Dan. Your eyes skimmed over to Chloe who was talking to a man at her desk. You could only see the back of his head, but there was something oddly familiar about him.

"Hey Y/N."

Dan's voice drew your attention away from the man and you looked over at him.

"Yeah?"

"Lucifer asked me to keep an eye on you?"

It sounded more like a question than an actual statement and you gave him a small smile and motioned to the fading bruises around your throat.

"It's been a shitty couple of weeks." You laughed.

That seemed to be answer enough and you were thankful he didn't push it. You looked back over at the desk, but both him and Chloe were gone, Lucifer was as well, and you assumed he went with Chloe.

~

You had taken to following Dan around like a lost puppy, knowing Lucifer would be upset if you refused the protection he got you. Dan phone chimed, and he looked at it confused.

"Lucifer's asking why you aren't answering your phone." He said.

You looked up from the magazine you had been mindlessly flipping through.

"I left it in his car, I'll go grab it."

You stood and didn't fail to notice Dan hurry to follow you. You laughed as the two of you walked into the parking garage.

"Did Lucifer threaten your manhood if you let me out of your sight?"

Dan gave you an uneasy smile, shifting a little at the memory of Lucifer's threat.

"Something like that." He mumbled.

You shook your head, making a mental note to talk to your boyfriend about threatening your friends later. You rummaged around inside Lucifer's car, searching for your phone.

A dull thud caught your attention and you stepped out of the car. Dan was gone and you frowned, taking small steps around the car.

"Dan?" You called, voice echoing in the small space.

He laid on the ground behind Lucifer's car, blood seeping from the wound above his eyebrow.

"Dan!"

You hurried over to him, kneeling at his side to check his pulse, feeling of brief relief washing over you when you found he was still alive.

"Did you think you were safe just because you're surrounded by cops?"

The voice made you nauseous and you lifted your head to meet your ex's eyes.

"I'd ask how you got in here, but you always did have a way of sweet talking people into getting what you want." You muttered.

You ignored him as you pulled your hoodie off, pressing it against the wound over Dan's eye to slow the bleeding. He had been hit hard, and while you focused on Dan, your heart pounded rapidly with fear. Your ex didn't seem to appreciate your lack of attention, and he grabbed your arm, pulling you to your feet harshly.

"You should be worrying about yourself right now." He hissed.

"Funny, I was going to say the same thing to you, little roach."

The crushing grip on your arm tightened enough to make you hiss in pain, and Carter turned to see the face of something truly terrifying. His hand dropped away from you as he backed away from Lucifer with wide eyes, and a pale face. He tripped over his on feet as he scrambled to flee.

"W-What the hell..."

Lucifer grinned viciously, taking slow deliberate steps towards Carter.

"Oh what a coincidence that's exactly where I plan on sending you." Lucifer growled.

You watched your ex turn tail, and run, faster than you'd seen him run before. Lucifer started to go after him, and you would have let him, if it wasn't for the blood soaking through your hoodie. Dan was still bleeding, more than he should have been.

"Lucifer!"

The devil paused looking back at you, his face returning to normal.

"The bleeding won't stop." You panicked.

Lucifer cursed before giving up his chest, and hurrying over to help you.

~

"I would have had him, if Daniel hadn't let his guard down!" Lucifer sulked.

You and Chloe both gave him a hard glare as Dan slowly came to. You pinched Lucifer's side, a silent message for him to shut up.

"You're up, how's the head?" You asked motioning to the stitches above his eye.

"Hurts like hell." Dan muttered.

He sat up best he could and Chloe sat a pillow behind him to make it easier.

"The doctor said you have concussion, and you're lucky Y/N was there or you would have bled out." Chloe said.

Dan gave you a greatful smile but you couldn't help the feeling of guilt eating at you.

'He wouldn't have gotten hurt if it wasn't for me.'

"Yes such luck, the Douche is healing nicely while that worm is still out there." Lucifer said bitterly.

"Lucifer." You hissed.

"I would have had him if Daniel hadn't been so oblivious to his surroundings! Honestly weren't you trained better than that?" Lucifer scoffed.

You apologized profusely, pulling Lucifer away by his arm. Dan and Chloe watched the two of you disappear from sight, and Dan raised an eyebrow.

"He really likes this one doesn't he?"

Chloe smiled, nodding in agreement.

"He's got it bad." She agreed.

~

"That was completely insensitive!" You snapped as you stepped into the penthouse.

"I was merely stating facts, if we hadn't had to go back for Daniel I'd have been breaking bones and tearing off limbs by now." Lucifer said.

"Dan was hurt Lucifer, helping a friend takes priority over revenge, especially if it's my fault he was hurt in the first place!"

Your frustration was growing and your chest felt tight with the anger you felt towards yourself.

"No one said this was your fault darling, that wasn't at all what I was implying." Lucifer frowned.

You laughed coldly and fell back on the couch.

"Don't coddle me, Dan would never have gotten hurt if I wasn't there, and you'd have no reason to be upset about anything if I had just stayed in the penthouse like you wanted." You reminded him bitterly.

Lucifer scoffed, taking a seat beside you.

"You're far to strong willed for that to have worked my dear." Lucifer said.

"I'm an inconvenience." You corrected him.

Lucifer frowned, and he sat up a little.

"Whatever gave you that impression?"

"Everything, people have to take time out of their just to make sure I'm safe, you're particularly glued to my side at this point, my landlord got gutted, Dan got attacked. Connect the dots Lucifer it's not hard."

"Darling I knew there'd be a few bumps in the road when I found you."

You stood, moving the hand he had placed on your leg. You didn't want him to comfort you.

"Y/N..." He murmured.

He looked at you with concern, his expression a little hurt by your rejection. Anger bubbled in your chest, not at him, but at yourself. You tried to swallow the words you wanted to shout, knowing once they were out there'd be no taking them back.

"You should have let me die in that alley, like I planned to!" You yelled.

This was news to Lucifer, and he looked at you surprised and confused.

"What?"

You instantly regretted the words, but was too late to take them back, too late to bite your tongue. You knew what would happen if you said them and you still let them spill out of your mouth, like an idiot.

"I didn't crawl into that alley to hide Lucifer, I went there to die."

~

You clung to the wall, leaving bloody hand prints as you walked. You were glad it was dark or someone might have noticed the trail of crimson liquid you had been leaving behind. Your skin was growing cold and your chest ached as your heart struggled to pump the blood you were rapidly loosing.

"Y/N!"

The voice was faint but even with your fading awareness you knew exactly who it was. A strangled gasp escaped your lips as you pressed a hand to your injured stomach. Blood soaked your hand and you quickly pressed it to a parking meter, before heading in the opposite direction. You had to keep him off your trail. You slipped into the first alley you saw and sank to your knees behind a dumpster.

The footsteps faded away, and you let out a shaky breath. He'd never let you go, even after being the one to drive that dull knife through you, he still wanted you back.

'Just close your eyes, you don't need to wake up again.'

The thought was dark, and you should have pushed it from your mind, but you didn't. You welcomed it, embraced it even, whatever was waiting for you after death couldn't be worse than this. You closed your eyes, welcoming the numb feel that had begun to spread across your body.

Someone's voice pulled you back from the edge you had been ready to fall over, hands holding you like glass. Saving the life you didn't want anymore.

~

Lucifer was silent, he'd been that way for a while now. You had been searching for the right words to say, an explanation to make this situation go away, but the words for that didn't exist.

"Lucifer... say something, please."

He didn't look at you when he responded, didn't even glance in your direction.

"What would you like me to say? Maybe I should apologize for saving someone who didn't want it? It would certainly explain your aggression towards me when you first woke up, why you kept refusing my help in the beginning."

You didn't know what to say, or even if he expected you to respond, so you settled for silence.

"Would you rather I have let you die?" He asked finally turning to look at you.

You took a breath, giving him a pathetic shrug. You knew the answer he wanted to hear, but you couldn't say it, not yet.

"Ask me again, when this is all over."

Lucifer's expression softened, and he pulled you into his arms. He sighed a little, but you were thankful he didn't seem to be mad anymore.

"I suppose we have had a rocky start to this relationship haven't we?"

You only nodded.

"This will all be over soon love, we'll have some semblance of normal eventually." Lucifer promised.

"As normal as I can get dating the devil." You joked.

Lucifer's chest shook a little when he chuckled, and he placed a lingering kiss to the top of your head.

"With all the ups and downs." He smiled.