Chapter Nineteen: Seokjin

I bit Namjoon's bottom lip. Causing him groan in both pain and pleasure. We parted. Forehead to forehead, our eyes met. Our noses were almost touching. And I could already feel the heat and sweat between us.

I stared at Namjoon. If it weren't for a call from his phone that night, heaven knows what could happen.

Ugh. Why do I keep remembering that night? I don't know what's gotten into me. But I did like it anyway, I wouldn't lie about that.

But remembering that night, made the atmosphere more awkward between me and Namjoon. He's lying on his stomach next to me, teaching me Calculus.

"Next is calculus of variation, a branch of mathematics concerned with applying the methods of calculus to find the maxima and minima of a function which depends for its values on another function, or a curve. Now, if you look at the example.."

I stared at Namjoon again. His voice is drawing me near him, its like a temptation and its calling me. That's why, I preferred to sit instead of lying on my stomach too.

"Seokjin, I know I'm irresistible. But please hold the urge to do it, I want you to focus first. Okay?"

I slapped his back. He yelped.

"Yah! I'm not looking at you, I'm looking at the book you air-head."

"Geez, chill. I'll give you a kiss if you just ask for it. No need to--AW! That--ugh--hurts!" He said, rubbing his back while trying to stand up.

My reflexes were quick enough to jump off the bed. But of course, he wouldn't let me pass this time, and his reflexes were much, much  quicker than mine.

"Gotcha!" He said as soon as he got ahold of my arm. He pulled me closer to him, and whispered "You know what daddy does to bad boys?"

Shivers. Shivers ran down my spine as he said those words. My knees were trembling too.

"So-sorry. I didn't mean to--"

He placed his forefinger on my lips. "Shsh. Too fast and it's too late now."

Namjoon pushed me against the wall. And our eyes met. We were reading each other like rendezvous, you will never understand unless you look hard for answers.

"Let me ask you a question first Namjoon." I said, trying not to tremble or stutter at least.

"Go on."

"Aren't you creeped out of Taehyung and Hoseok's and Jimin and Yoongi's relationship? I-I mean, don't you think its weird to like a guy too?"
Namjoon exhaled. "I was going to ask you the same question too. But I guess you outsmart me with the timing." He chuckled. "I don't think so. There's no rule in liking someone. Hey, hold up. Are you indirectly saying you like me?"

My eyes widened, but before I could answer, my stomach growled.

Namjoon laughed. "I'll take that as a yes."

"Mwo? That's--*growl*--unfair."

Namjoon laughed harder, he started wiping the tears from the side of his eyes. "C'mon, I'll treat you lunch. We haven't eaten at the Diner's for like forever."

He grabbed my hand and dragged me out of the dorm, and out of the school.

"Why are we walking? Where's your car?" I asked. He's still holding my hand.

"Walks are romantic." He answered.

I felt my cheeks heat up.

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"What's it gonna be?" I asked, looking at the menu.

"I don't know. What do you want?"

He's acting childish again.

"It's your treat, I'll go with what you want."

"No, let's have what you want."

I lowered the menu, just below my eyes, so I can give him a glare.

He just grinned. "What?"

"What?" I mimicked.

"Don't mimic me."

"Don't mimic me." I mimicked again.

He rolled his eyes.

"See? Its annoying right?" I teased.

After the pointless argument, we ended up ordering Ojingue Deopbap.

"AH~So spicy." Namjoon complained after having his third mouthfuls.

"That's what you get in eating in such hurry."

Namjoon picked up a tissue paper and wiped his mouth. "Well I just want to be done quickly because I want dessert after this." He said, smirking while giving me a dirty look.

My jaw dropped and I scoffed. "I am sooo not gonna buy that pick up line Namjoon. I've heard that line on some movies when they want to have a stinking wild sex on some cheap motel. Ugh, god Namjoon. I'm not your toy."

I rolled my eyes at him.

I was expecting he'd defend his self. But he just laughed his ass out.

"Woah there sir. I literally wanted dessert Seokjin. I was thinking of some frozen yogurt after this. But if you insist that thing that you just said. I can always go with it." He said, almost choking on his laugh.

I pulled some tissue paper and threw it at him.

"You jerk! Why were you smirking? And giving me that dirty look? Aish jinjja!"

He chuckled. "Because I know that will make you go nuts. And it sure did."

I just rolled my eyes. "Whatever."

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We did have some frozen yogurt and ate it on the way back to the dorm. He was teasing me more than any other days.

And he's really getting into my nerve. But I'll let it pass this time.

"Hey? Aren't you tired?" He randomly asked.

We're both sitting on the floor in front of our dorm unit.

"No. Why? You want to go inside?" I asked back.

He smirked before laughing. "You're so fast Seokjin. You want me to go inside? I didn't know you were that submissive."

I groaned. Aish. What should I do to this  hot dirty minded boy?

What did I just say?

"Really? Seokjin? Hot dirty minded boy?" I heard him laugh out loud again.

"Shut up Namjoon. Don't pretend you didn't like it."

"Oh, I swear. I like it, you being submissive and so dirty right now. I like it, really."

I closed my eyes for a few seconds. Pinched the bridge of my nose. And when I opened them, Namjoon was already in front of me.

Without a word, in a snap, his lips were into mine. And without hesitation, I moved. And this time, I am not confused anymore.

His hands found their way to my shoulders. He pinned me more. His right hand moved to my nape he pushed me so I can kiss him deeper. He's on his knees and I'm between him. My hands crept to his waist, pulling him so he can sit on me.
But he parted.

"We should really go inside." He whispered, grabbing my hand and pulled me inside the dorm unit. I locked it automatically of course.

He pinned me against the door again.

Our eyes met. No one is talking, we're letting our actions talk for us.

He kissed me again, and I responded. But it's a bit sloppier and wet this time. Space doesn't exist between us. But our closeness isn't enough.

His hand is on my chest and the other is supporting my back. Both of my hands are on his chest. His leg is between mine.

Namjoon slowly lead me to the bed. I didn't care whose bed it was, I lay on my back and Namjoon is on top of me.

I absent mindedly unbuttoned his shirt. I didn't know what was occurring inside me. But its driving me really really crazy.

Maybe the fact that I am with Namjoon. That I am so close to him. That I can touch him like this. And do whatever I want, with him.

He also undid mine. All we had were our pants. Heat and sweat surrounded us. Breathes hitching with every touch. Namjoon's mouth went downwards, to my neck. I closed my eyes. So much pleasure.

I opened them for a second, just to have a good view of his tattoos on his back.

Namjoon didn't stop moving downwards. And I am really going crazy with every sensation I am feeling.

He reached the hem of my pants. He looked up to me, asking permission.

I nodded. He gently undid my pants, pulling it down together with my boxers. My erection stood up.

I felt embarrassed, I covered my face. But Namjoon's hand stopped me.

"No. Don't. You're beautiful Seokjin. Don't be shy. This is your first time, so I want to be gentle and I want to see your beautiful face." He whispered then smiled.

I felt a bit relieved, but still nervous though. I am so clueless to this.

Namjoon slowly swallowed my whole length. And I was just lost. I could see stars--I don't know--it feels so good. I grabbed his hair. I feel like loosing all my energy with this pleasure.

He's so good at this. I feel my knees tremble.

"N-Namjoon!" I moaned.

"I know Seokjin. I know. Shsh." He said, after releasing me. He placed his index finger on my lips. "Shsh."

I felt a knot in my stomach. I feel that I am about to explode any minute.

Namjoon kissed me again. But I parted.

"I-I need you Namjoon. I feel like I'm about to explode." I said, holding onto his shoulders.

He smiled sweetly. How could he? In a moment like this? He's fucking adorable

"Wait a second." He stood up. Then I noticed he's still wearing his pants.

He went to his side table and pulled one of his drawers. He grabbed some circular container and closed the drawer.

"What's that?" I asked. He leaned down to kiss my forehead.

"Its lube. So it will not cause so much pain."

He positioned himself in between me. He slowly parted my legs, and opened the lube container.

I closed my eyes. I suddenly felt something cold in my hole.

"A-aah!" I groaned as Namjoon inserted his finger.

This drives me more crazy. Its painful but tolerable.

He inserted another finger. It was more painful, Namjoon went slowly before fasting up his pace.

"A-ahh..Namjoon..please.."

"Not yet Seokjin."

He inserted his third finger. My breath hitched, my mouth were open, gasping for air.

Namjoon pulled his fingers.

He unbuckled his belt. "Are you sure you're ready Seokjin?"

I nodded quickly.

He pulled down his pants and boxers--oh god. He's big.

Will he fit?

"Don't worry okay? Just say if you're hurting."

I nodded.

Namjoon slowly entered me. Its very painful. He stopped when he was fully inside, and asked if it was okay to move, I nodded.

He pulled back again. Before slamming back in. I yelped. Namjoon placed his forefinger on my mouth.

"Shshsh."

He was slow. He was so slow it was really killing me.

"Na-Namjoon..faster.."

His paced fast. I can't think straight anymore.

"A-ahh..uhh..Seokjin..you feel so good baby.."

"Na-Namjoon..faster.."

I held to his waist. I'm loosing my strength.

Pleasure and pain at the same time. I'm about to explode.

"Namjoon I--I'm.."

"Yeah..baby..Me too, me too.."

Namjoon and I moaned at the same time before he pulled out.

His cum was all over my stomach. He tried to catch his breath before collapsing beside me. He laid on his stomach. He moved a little bit closer to me. Putting his arms on my chest, he buried his face on my neck.

We were both breathing heavily. I looked at Namjoon. His eyes were closed, but he smiled at me. And mouthed Thank you