So I just tried to purge for the first time... keyword tried, and lemme just say... trying to make myself vomit on what I found out to be an empty stomach isn't fun.

In other news, I've started hating myself for eating, and just straight up hating myself. My brain has given me a goal to lose six pounds by the start of school, and I weighed myself last night, and I had lost about a pound and a half, and that made me really happy. 

I've also been having suicidal thoughts, and I relapsed Saturday night. (I also cut more last night, but tHaT's IrReLeVaNt)

So yeah, that's my life right now...