I disassembled my first razor. 

Are you proud? It took me so long to get the blades out. Probably, like, an hour.  But it was worth it. Now I have blades that are easier to cut with. 

As soon as I got the blades out, I took one of them and made 2 cuts. 

I was so happy because they actually bled. Within thirty seconds of me making the first cut, there was a bead of blood on my arm. 

It was also very satisfying because the cuts were so straight and thin. The ones from Wednesday night and last night are wide and crooked because I had to keep going over the same spot since I didn't have an actual blade. This meant that each time going over wasn't in exactly the same spot. 

God, my mind is so fucked up.