I had a meeting with my therapist earlier this afternoon, and that was so stressful and draining. 

My mom was in there with me because she wanted to "touch base" on how I'm doing. 

That basically turned out to be an hour-long discussion about dealing with homework. 

It was really overwhelming for me and my brain pretty much shut down after, like 5 minutes. I just sat there holding a pillow that was in the office, not adding to the conversation at all. 

At one point my therapist asked if I was overwhelmed and I just nodded. She then went on to say that if that ever happens when I'm with her I can just stand up and stretch, but, like, I don't feel comfortable doing that. 

And then, on the ride home, my mom asked me if I've had any suicidal thoughts recently. As soon as she said that I said "no," but my brain was just like, "Uhh, yeah, but don't expect me to tell you any time soon, 'cause that won't be happening."

On a more positive note, I'm going ice skating with my best friend tomorrow, and so I've resolved to not cut today or tomorrow so I don't have to worry about new cuts opening up or being painful while I'm with her.