This is mainly for Queen
Cause she told me to publish this

Note: THIS ALL HAPPENED LAST NIGHT SO IM NOT TOO SAD ANYMORE

ok so now that that "disclaimer" is out of the way we can begin

Let's just start off with I'm having a normal night watching YouTube. My brother comes in my room does some stuff to make me mad and I ru out to tell my mom BECAUSE THATS WHAT I WAS TAUGHT TO DO
Well instead of helping she yelled at me AND my brother about how there is no use for her trying to do anything since whenever she tries it never works

Now here's where it gets a little sad...

My mom started yelling about how she didn't care anymore. She said she wasn't going to listen or even try anymore because she knows it doesn't make a difference
She said
Um
She said she wouldn't even care if we killed each other
She told us to go ahead and tear each other apart because she wouldn't care...
Now I know she didn't mean that
I know that she would care if we killed each other
But it hurt
A lot
I almost felt like she didn't truly care about me anymore

I think because of that night I've started spending more time in my room like I did before
But she only really has herself to blame
Words really hurt me
They might not hurt my brother or sister since they aren't old enough to understand depression and stuff like that
But they hurt me

So I started crying silent tears
And then she talked about how I took so long to finish homework
And asked why
I had to make up the excuse that I took a break to draw and music distracted me
MUSIC
It was so hard I kept feeling like they were going to ask to see my iPod and find out about Wattpad
I was terrified and sad

That's basically it until we started talking about school
In fact I've already flunked two assignments
One I was supposed to do over the weekend
I FORGOT OK
So I got a 0 and the teacher said there was no way to make it up

Now that
That just makes me angry
You want me to succeed
THEN LET ME MAKE IT UP SOME HOW
ILL DO SOME EXTRA FREAKING WORK JUST GIVE IT TO ME
CAUSE I ACTUALLY CARE ABOUT MY GRADE MORE THAN ANY OF THESE OTHER PEOPLE

so I was mad about that :T
And then apparently I also had a missing assignment in LA
I went to the teacher and told her I turned it in
She just said
Well I don't have it
So I asked how I can make it up
she replied
"Don't have any more missing assignments"
AND SHE LAUGHED
Welp cross her off the possible favorite teachers list

And I found it in my backpack when I got home with a grade on it
So if I go back and she doesn't put it in the grade book I will flip

I'm tired
And done with school already
I just hate life right now

Yup so Queen that's all...