I have never felt truly ugly. I've felt shitty and gross but never ugly. I liked my appearance until now. My face is dis proportioned, my eyes can't choose one color, my nose is too fucking big, my mouth too small, and my skin too red and splotchy and gross.

No amount of "you're beautiful just the way you are." Posts could help me.  I was just disgusting me.

I thought I got over the weight thing. I gained pounds and was actually proud of myself. Now I'm fat and ugly. I want to be pretty and thin and as happy as I make my family seem, but I'm not.

I wanna be. I really do. I've tried diets and weight programs but nothing helps and that's what's making it worse.

Ive come to terms with my uglyness.