so i may have just realised that i have abandonment issues. my friend (friend A) just sent me screenshots of her playing games with other friends because she didn't have enough storage on her phone or something and i was like 'wow they are all having fun without me i guess they hate me' which i will acknowledge is not a good thought process to have. but like they never invite me to join or anything and (B) just became friends with (A's) friend (C) and like now (B) and (C) are such good friends and they're like a trio of super good friends and it's like me, (A) and (B) used to be like a trio but now i've just been replaced.

and i spent weeks making a dnd session and we had the date set up and everyone had confirmed that they were available and then (A) just cancelled it all to hang out with (B) and it's like that's fine but like i worked really hard on this so that sucked.

and then after that happened i wanted to talk about it to my mum so i went downstairs and i thought she was in the kitchen but i went into the kitchen and my mum's boyfriend's daughter was there instead and it just sucked because it feels like everyone just replaced me.

my dad got a girlfriend and she has children and he wants to move in with her and her kids too and it just feels everyone leaves.

in the span of like a couple months in 2016, my dad left, my sister left, my auntie tried to report my mum to social services so that she would lose custody of me so she nearly left and all of my old friends started hating me.

and i'm terrified that now everyone else will leave me too. i don't want to be alone.